@konekosayno1166

8 months ago

Date:23/08/23
Time: 22:03pm(BST)
I'm typing on a laptop with a lamp that shines over my hooded head, reflecting a murky, shadow to the wall next to me, imitating the actions that I do. Feeling relaxed and at ease, I'm going to tell you a story that plays in my head- a story about my questionable feelings towards a boy.
His name was Nemo(not his real name due to privacy reasons).
He went to my primary school. When I was younger I had a chin bob haircut with thick, uneven fringe that obscured my eyebrows. I was fragile and short-statured when I was a child. I was quite sensitive to loud noises and somehow I cry easily over small things. I was alone and isolated every break and lunch. I would just sit on a log, imagining fake scenarios to let time pass, and sometimes watch little kids playing together, having fun with each other. I didn't know how to communicate with the kids even though I spoke the same language as them-it was quite annoying to deal with. I didn't dare to ask if I could play with someone since I thought it was best to be alone. I remember one time that I was about to burst into tears and walk away to another spot to hide when a soft voice echoed into my ears and caught my attention. I turned around to see who called me. An Indian boy with a gentle look on his face asked me if I was lonely. I looked at him. My dark brown eyes made eye contact with him. I lied as I was used to the loneliness. His eyes slightly soften. He pointed out that he saw me alone by a log, staring into space with sadness on my face. I didn't say anything. I replied with reassurance that I was having "alone time". His eyebrows were slightly furrowed. He could tell I was lying. He then asked me if I wanted to play with him. I replied with agreement. I couldn't remember what I did with him but I bet I had fun with him. That was the first encounter for the both of us.
Part 2 will come soon.
Signing out-22:45pm

Date:27/08/23
Time -16:58pm(BST)
I'm currently sitting on a wooden chair. Today is sunny so I have to draw the curtains to cover it up since I don't really like the brightness of it. Carrying on where I left off.
There's this one time I told him that I had phasmophobia(fear of ghosts) and now every time I try to look for someone, he would jump behind my back which is honestly annoying. I have some good, forgotten memories about Nemo but we drifted apart once I reached year 3(1st September 2016).
Around 2022, I was sitting with my friends, eating my lunch, and drawing. I was wearing a mask back then so I got picked on a lot(not seriously though so I was lucky). There was this annoying group who would call my name for name and when I turned around, I would notice it was them, snickering at me. I heard a voice that I mistook as the one who always calls my name. I threw some plastic bags over them and then I saw him-Nemo. He was the one to call me. I was shocked. I apologized for my actions and talked about how he was doing. I was actually glad to see him again.
Signing out-5:05pm

Date:28/08/23
Time-21:53pm(BST)

Hello. I hope you guys are doing okay. I had apple pie with custard for dessert today. The custard was a bit curdled but still tasty.
I haven't tried it for many years.
Ever since I "reunited" Nemo, my heart has been beating so bad. I couldn't tell what I was experiencing. I would try to avoid him during break and lunch so I don't have to see him. When I stare at him for a second, I notice that my chest begins to feel tense and I would get butterflies in my stomach and desperate to get to know him more. I don't know why I was like this. I wanted to talk to him more and have a fun relationship with him. I started to have dreams about him almost every day. He was always in my mind and I couldn't stop thinking about him. It hurts my brain that I question what made me become attracted to him. Ioverthinkd about it and after many hours of brain-wracking, I came across a question I in love with him?
Signing out-22:31pm

17/10/23
Time:19:45pm
Hey. Just letting you know I will be discontinuing the story. Sorry to disappoint but I can't be bothered to finish it. Sorry guys.

11/04/24
Time-23:25pm
Okay... I just went back to the playlist to look at the comments. My story caught some attention and people wanted to know what happened next. You're in luck! I'm going to update it tomorrow but no promise though!

13/04/24
Time-15:33pm
So I left a cliffhanger on the story and some of you wanted to know what happened. Time for an update. When I was younger, I would walk and ponder what I would do after school. As I walked, I could see Nemo and his friend walking together. I remember that he smiled at me when I was behind him. My heart warmed up from his small interaction. Sometimes, he would walk to my old friend group and talk to them. His presence draws my attention, making me smile when he's around however I hardly get his attention and get ignored easily. I used to avoid him when he joined now all of a sudden, I want to get his attention. I tried to talk to him about something I was interested in but he wasn't interested and I would be pushed away- it's just like that. Now the question that struck me was was I in love with him. The answer was no. I didn't have any romantic attraction for him but I preferred to have a close relationship with him. As time flew, we grew more distant. One time, after school, I saw him walking down from his class and I waved at him. He noticed me and looked away It was a normal reaction. I have changed and so did he. That's it. It flowed just like that.

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