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I wanted to do something special for the 10 year anniversary of my own experience so I asked my followers to share their story with me. This is the behind the scenes look at some of the 2,163 submissions. The final music video will have more photos!
This project is a huge puzzle piece in my healing process, and i'm so glad I can finally share it with you. Six song EP out in March!
Co-Directed by Patrick R Young & Powell Robinson
Produced by Laura Burhenn for Our Secret Handshake
Cinematography Powell Robinson
Written by Mothica, Eva Honey, Alexandria Veltri, Lenii
Produced by David Burris
Mixed by Devon Corey
Mastered by John Greenham
LYRICS:
try
try to look a little older
so I can go
down
to the bar
thereâs someone waiting
to take me home
i canât take it, all the damage done
wanna sink into oblivion
could be anything or anyone
anyone at all
he said âlove that youâre fifteenâ
ten shots of whiskey
he brought to my bedside
said ânow youâll be alrightâ
when i was fifteen
i thought no one would miss me
theyâre all just pretending
so i wrote the ending
when they say that itâs not that bad
youâre too young to be this sad
makes you wanna do something
that you canât take back and be
forever fifteen
would you have missed me at all?
walk
down the halls a little slower
so nobody knows
hold
hold my head a little lower
just wanna let it go
i canât take it, all the damage done
wanna sink into oblivion
could be anything or anyone
anyone at all
he said âlove that youâre fifteenâ
ten shots of whiskey
he brought to my bedside
said ânow youâll be alrightâ
when i was fifteen
i thought no one would miss me
theyâre all just pretending
so i wrote the ending
when they say that itâs not that bad
youâre too young to be this sad
makes you wanna do something
that you canât take back and be
forever fifteen
would you have missed me at all?
Ophelia
think i see ya under water
Ophelia
think I see ya under water
he said
âlove that youâre fifteenâ
ten shots of whiskey
he brought to my bedside
said ânow youâll be all mineâ
when i was fifteen
i thought no one would miss me
theyâre all just pretending
so i wrote the ending
when they say that itâs not that bad
youâre too young to be this sad
makes you wanna do something
that you canât take back and be
forever fifteen
would you have missed me at all?
Views : 147,962
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered Jan 29, 2021 ^^
Rating : 4.992 (22/10,534 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2022-03-19T21:25:19.486642Z
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YouTube Comments - 493 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
I wish this song went on Forever, so I don't get stuck in the silence.
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Literally crying I forgot i submitted for this and i saw my picture in my blue mothica shirt and just kinda cried because im in a better place even from that picture
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I'm so excited to see all of us celebrated for overcoming. We are all so fucking strong. Don't give up, don't give in. Love you all so much.
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âyouâre too young to be this sadâ hits me. Iâve been depressed and anxious since I was 11 y/o.
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i canât want to see this, each and every one of us, have overcome so many difficulties. iâm so proud of us <3
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My daughters name is Ophelia and she really has saved me in the 15 months she's been alive, that part of the song made me cry
741 |
It really hits hard when she keeps adding more and more photos đ˘
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In 2010, 10 days after our 15th bday, my twin sister and I were in a car wreck. She died and I didn't. We use "Forever fifteen" for her memoir. Thank you for this song! âş I'm so proud of you!! Thank you for being alive today!! Also, I think we live SUPER close to each other!!
153 |
Seeing this many people made me cry, it's true that you don't fully realize that you're not alone until all the faces are laid down.
I'm super emotional right now and I don't want to keep typing nonsense, but I just wanna say that I'm beyond proud of all of you and whatever you do, never forget that you're loved and you deserve to live.
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The closest I've ever gotten to taking my own life was sophomore year of college. I had ran out of my dorm room in the middle of a discussion with my friends. Something in the conversation had set me off and i just ran. I ended up on the bridge above interstate 29 in Missouri, and i was debating jumping or just going down the hill and walking into traffic. I ended up not doing it, and after a stay in a hospital im properly medicated and doing much better. To anyone who sees this, I know you hear it all the time but it genuinely does get better. Please keep fighting, we need you here.
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to everyone who was in this video (or just relates to it): youâre so loved. weâre all so proud of you for being where you are right now. â¤ď¸
66 |
The amount of people who have been through this and are still here is evidence that you can get through it too, so please stick around to join us đ
51 |
I actually pauses to read everything the people said and now im crying cause i found the exact advice i needed
85 |
I'm sad because I think I remember my laptop crashing when I was trying to send her my photo, and I don't think I went ans tried again đ
Such a beautiful tribute to her fans and herself. Already addicted to the song. â¤ď¸
95 |
I can't wait to see both you guys who struggled but still here with us today and my face lol
66 |
Holy shit. This song resonated so hard that at the line of, "when they say that it's not that bad/ you're too young to be this sad" I burst out into fucking tears.
Seeing all the faces of people who have been through this, that feel the same way, it makes me feel hopeful.
I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for almost five years now - and it all started when I was fifteen. Amazing how that works, huh?
Thank you for writing this song.
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I was almost Forever Sixteen four and a half years ago. I didnât think Iâd make it. But I did. And itâs so nice to hear this song and to realise that Iâm not the only one who has gone through shit. Thank you Mothica. I will be forever thankful for your existence. Youâre an amazing human being and I canât wait to see what else is in store for both you and your music.
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Some days itâs rough but they were right, it does get better; 13 extra years and counting.
65 |
I cried just thinking that you read my story, and saw my photo, and then when I saw all the photos coming together... And just realizing how many of us have survived so much
.. but we have survived.
Thank you for doing this, for caring, for being raw & vulnerable, and allowing us to be part of this with you.
I can't wait to see the official video, and I am so proud of you for making it.
I didn't believe I'd see 25 when I was 15... I'll be 27 in a few weeks.
It never gets better, just a little easier with each passing day.
So much love to you and every survivor that has experienced hell and horror, and have made it to see this video.
Love and honor to those that were not able to make it here today, I wish for them to experience another life not filled with this pain and for them to experience love & safety.
May we all remember the importance of healing, self love, self forgiveness and may we all make it through to the end of our natural days.
I love you
You're not alone
I'm so proud of you
And I'm so sorry for all that's been done,
But I'm so grateful to finally start to understand I was never alone either, as tragic as it is.
Survivor's stories are so important.
Victim's stories as well.
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@cupcakeknight4349
3 years ago
This is the first time I openly admitted to what's going on, my face in this video is my first step
845 |