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392,874 Views • Premiered Mar 1, 2020 • Click to toggle off description
presave here: ffm.to/foreverfifteen
Directed by Mothica
Edited by Kyle Blaich
Cinematography by Jacob Lane Dugger
Lighting by Peter Garland
Styling Assistant by Drew Cockrell
Special thanks to Bianca Posey, Sleeping Lion, Kyle McCammon, Nicole & Zealyn.
I'm so nervous to share this because it's the first video I've directed! I had the idea to show the aftermath of a wild night out. I hope this feels as realistic to you as it did to me. Can't wait to share more music and visuals with you! As always, thank you for supporting me.
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LYRICS:
oh god
what did I do
i’m out of control again
woke up
blacker then blue
probably lost a friend
PRECHORUS:
my throat's so fucking dry from saying sorry
wake up a different person in the morning
forget every lesson daddy taught me
i never learn, I just make it worse
CHORUS:
oh god
what have I done?
what did I say last night?
did I play the fool?
did I make you believe
I was having a good time?
cause i’ve been drinking all of my emotions
until i’m sick until i’m broken
oh god
what have I done?
what have I done?
SECOND VERSE:
oh no
should've stayed home
but it’s hard to be alone sometimes
dark thoughts
got me so low
i’d do anything to clear my mind
CHORUS
bridge:
wasted
all the nights I missed
poison on my lips
all alone
i’m done
i’m done hiding it
i’m done fighting it
on my own
CHORUS
Views : 392,874
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered Mar 1, 2020 ^^
Rating : 4.966 (94/10,869 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2022-04-09T09:32:06.288538Z
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YouTube Comments - 330 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
Currently in the process of trying to be sober.
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I really enjoyed the song, but like...girl...are you okay?
I hope you are because I've been following you through your musical journey for wow almost 3 years and it would suck to see you hit a rough patch.
328 |
I found you on TikTok earlier today and now I’m a huge fan!!
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OKAY BUT SIS- YOU REALLY DESERVE MORE FAME. THIS HITS ME, I CAN VIBE SO BAD ON THIS. SOMEONE GET THIS GIRL WHAT SHE DESERVESSS
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Remember me here before this blows up
50 |
💙☺️ the "oh God" at the beginning ☺️🌠
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found you because of tiktok and now you are my favorite artist as of now.
37 |
I love her voice in the chorus so much it's crazy, could listen to this song 24/7
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Just came across this song... For reasons. It would be perfect for the opening credits if I finally turn my psychological thriller into a film.
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Oml, had this song downloaded (nightcore) only to find out years later it's yours and I was a fan way earlier than I expected to be. Feel so proud of my taste in music tbh hehe
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I´m so proud of you! I admire your transformation and your power to change for a better version of you. It is truly inspiring!
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Most def can relate that’s for sure
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Fav song ever
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The recent Supreme Court draft made me think of this song... Thank you Mothica for your work
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Literally just listened to Vices now i’m gonna be crying and binge watch and listen to all your songs!!!!!💗
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By the way, happy sobriety. Glad I met you during this time. I'd be on your fourth step resentment list if I knew you at the time
1 |
I really love the part “Cause I’ve been drinking all of my emotions,
’Til I’m sick, until I’m broken”
The way you sang...it’s really heartbreaking. The emotions you put in there is just genuine. It hits me so bad. You deserve the fame, Mothica. Sending love from Malaysia.
65 |
holy shit i'm so addicted to your music, success for you
14 |
Why this is not in top charts...??
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@Mothica
4 years ago
if you watched this, you are now my best friend
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