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344,203 Views • Premiered Mar 1, 2020 • Click to toggle off description
presave here: https://ffm.to/foreverfifteen
Directed by Mothica
Edited by Kyle Blaich
Cinematography by Jacob Lane Dugger
Lighting by Peter Garland
Styling Assistant by Drew Cockrell
Special thanks to Bianca Posey, Sleeping Lion, Kyle McCammon, Nicole & Zealyn.
I'm so nervous to share this because it's the first video I've directed! I had the idea to show the aftermath of a wild night out. I hope this feels as realistic to you as it did to me. Can't wait to share more music and visuals with you! As always, thank you for supporting me.
Follow me:
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https://www.instagram.com/mothica/
https://nitter.net/dearmothica/
LYRICS:
oh god
what did I do
i’m out of control again
woke up
blacker then blue
probably lost a friend
PRECHORUS:
my throat's so fucking dry from saying sorry
wake up a different person in the morning
forget every lesson daddy taught me
i never learn, I just make it worse
CHORUS:
oh god
what have I done?
what did I say last night?
did I play the fool?
did I make you believe
I was having a good time?
cause i’ve been drinking all of my emotions
until i’m sick until i’m broken
oh god
what have I done?
what have I done?
SECOND VERSE:
oh no
should've stayed home
but it’s hard to be alone sometimes
dark thoughts
got me so low
i’d do anything to clear my mind
-CHORUS-
bridge:
wasted
all the nights I missed
poison on my lips
all alone
i’m done
i’m done hiding it
i’m done fighting it
on my own
-CHORUS-
McKenzie Ellis, known professionally as Mothica, is an American singer. She grew up in Oklahoma City and began producing music when she was 18 years old. Since 2015, she has produced a dozen albums and singles distributed across several online musical streaming platforms such as on Spotify, SoundCloud and Bandcamp along with numerous collaborations and features with other musicians known by "Nydge," "PUSHER," "Crywolf," and "Icarus Moth." In June 2020, a TikTok video she posted that included her song "VICES" went viral, providing greater notability as a musician and singer.
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Views : 344,203
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Upload date: Premiered Mar 1, 2020 ^^
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I really love the part “Cause I’ve been drinking all of my emotions,
’Til I’m sick, until I’m broken”
The way you sang...it’s really heartbreaking. The emotions you put in there is just genuine. It hits me so bad. You deserve the fame, Mothica. Sending love from Malaysia.
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if you watched this, you are now my best friend
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I´m so proud of you! I admire your transformation and your power to change for a better version of you. It is truly inspiring!
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I really enjoyed the song, but like...girl...are you okay?
I hope you are because I've been following you through your musical journey for wow almost 3 years and it would suck to see you hit a rough patch.
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I love her voice in the chorus so much it's crazy, could listen to this song 24/7
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Открыла для себя эту девочку и несказанно рада этому. Очень вовремя. Она 🔥
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I found you on TikTok earlier today and now I’m a huge fan!!
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Literally just listened to Vices now i’m gonna be crying and binge watch and listen to all your songs!!!!!💗
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Currently in the process of trying to be sober.
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you deserve more!!! i been sober for past few years and its because of the songs which made me realize what i have been doing with my life. you inspire me more with your songs. i could relate...and two advises from your best friend
1. never do that shit again.
2. surround your self with people who really love u "really" and keep doing what you are doing now .
much love <3
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I’m excited for you. I think you’ll go far, looking forward for more releases, keep it up!
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Whenever I’m feeling down, I listen to this and Forever Fifteen. It’s a way for me to release stress.
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This song really really hit me…. As have all of your songs. You are truly a gift. You help me cope with all my mental health issues. When I’m at my lowest, I put on your music, and I don’t feel so alone and can get myself back up and keep going. Please know how important your music is….
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This is outrageously good. The lyrics, the beat, the badass video with night vision bits? Perfect.
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You are by far one of the most talented people I’ve came across in a long time... Your music deserves more hype! 😍
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And the Grammy for best new artist goes to Mothica❤️🔥
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Honestly, I'm obsessed. Your music is so good... You're officially up there with Halsey for my favorites. ♡ 😍😍
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This hit deep, and I really felt it. I went through a divorce, and I would drink myself into a blackout. I don’t rely on it anymore, only socially drink, and I found this song a couple weeks later.
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Almost 11 months sober and this song really speaks it all
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Kato Vandebroeck
2 years ago
OKAY BUT SIS- YOU REALLY DESERVE MORE FAME. THIS HITS ME, I CAN VIBE SO BAD ON THIS. SOMEONE GET THIS GIRL WHAT SHE DESERVESSS
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