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Video Animated by Michael Grover (www.mgroverdesign.com)
Song written by Faith Marie
Produced by Michael James
Additional production by Faith Marie and Al Dente
Viola composition by Ammon Chung
Cello/Bass string composition by Chris Morgan
Mixed by Jon Rezin
LYRICS:
(First Verse)
I start this off staring at a blank page
An open office document
A blinking cursor
Passing days
Without a single word
Some say it's absurd
Like I float along a stream of words unsaid
Choosing not to cast my net
But I spend so long questioning myself
If this isn't right
Then does that mean I failed?
Will my melodies ever live up
Will my metaphors be profound enough
Will I ever outdo myself
The ceiling gets higher and higher
It's harder and harder to shatter
And when I fall
I fall worse than I ever did before
Evaluating the damage no I just don't understand it
Conflicted my the very air I breathe
A love with hatred laced between
(Pre-Chorus)
You can see it in my eyes
A child's spark light up the night
Constant search for approval
Suffocated by refusal
Devouring my skull
But never feeling full
(Chorus)
Oh dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
(Second Verse)
I start this off a little confused
Writers block doesn't exist
It's not a word I'm supposed to use
Because it's all in my mind
A parasite I'm supposed to find
But sometimes
Well most times
It's so hard to define
So I pour a couple drinks
Getting drunk on gasoline
Fire pulses in my veins
I'm sick of waiting for the day
That courage overtakes my brain
For someone to say it's ok
I've lived my whole life afraid
It's time for me to be brave
To embrace a forest
That's so dark and unknown
Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
They pave as they go
Disappointed faces leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
I'm not taking the bait
Let them rot in their place
(Pre-Chorus)
I deserve to be alright
I deserve to sleep at night
I'm my closest friend
I remind myself again
Better treat her well
Cuz she's with me till the end
(Chorus)
Oh dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
(Outro)
Sometimes I forget the feeling
Of every single nerve tingling
Better than any lovers’ touch
I've created tears of pain and burns of lust
I've created a forest a safe place for myself that others have found
Some attempt to destroy and others feed the ground
Fertilize my mind with melodies and rhymes
A sorcerer of time take you back to the night
When you pondered your death when somebody left when you lie away broken cause your head is unkept and let me remind you
That everything is temporary
You and I are temporary
And this feeling that's so scary
Someday you'll realize that thoughts so heavy
Don't mean you're unsteady
But that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet you to somebody you never knew
You
#faithmarie #toxicthoughts #uuin
Views : 1,183,823
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Nov 16, 2017 ^^
Rating : 4.95 (358/28,169 LTDR)
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YouTube Comments - 978 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
"I don't wanna be a burden but could you please be a little more concerned"
me: gone
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i don’t think u realize how much the lyrics “I’m my closest friend I remind myself again better treat her well cause she’s with me till the end” saved my life
182 |
how is it that I relate to every song of yours? seriously, every word has so much meaning, makes me love you more
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You are one underrated artist. You and your songs should be known worldwideeee
422 |
Over achiever. Under achiever. Have often had these toxic thoughts either way. Annoying and scary either way as well. Thanks Faith. I liked the animation.
308 |
"The toxic thoughts of an overachiever."
That hit me.................
That's what I am.
148 |
Please keep pursuing your music career. People need more music with actual behind the lyrics and chords.
577 |
"The toxic thoughts of an overachiever"
My classmates always called me an overachiever and i've always bottled up my feelings..
72 |
You are NOT worthless
You MATTER
Your problems MATTER
You ARE beautiful
You ARE amazing
You WILL get through this
You ARE stronger then you think
Let the tears fall now.. but once you wipe them away think to yourself "I CAN do this" because you can.
Everything WILL get better someday
Don't let others put thoughts in your head.
Don't scar yourself with that blade.
Don't listen to the voices.
Don't listen to the people trying to kill your light.
You will win this. Just give it time.
In time it'll all be better.
You are worth everything.
People do care about you.
Don't give up.
Don't let it win.
Don't let it into your head.
Don't worry.
Don't rip yourself apart.
I promise, if you keep trying, one day everything will be okay..
~Sincerely Someone Who Cares
I'm sure no one will see this but if you do, I only write the truth.
812 |
I was prepared to take my life today...... I was listening to music as I prepared and then this song came on. You saved me. I finally felt like there was someone who understood me. I can't wait for the day when I can say something nice to myself. Thank you so much....
23 |
I really needed to hear a song like this, this is amazing! Keep it up! <3
743 |
haha i started watching this when i was 10 and absolutely loved it, now im a burn out drowning in my own feelings and i still love the song but now i get it.
6 |
"I deserve to sleep at night," I sing at 3:37 am.
8 |
I have been listening to this song on repeat for the past days (literally!) and I must say I really love the message of this one. It made me feel so strong and empowered and reassured me that, no matter how dark a time might be, it is only temporary and I can push though. Thank you very much for that :)
277 |
'I deserve to be alright
I deserve to sleep at night'
this struck a lot closer to the heart than I thought it would....
9 |
The chorus is the past three years of my life. No... The whole song is my life. 💙💚
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As a writer who struggles with OCD and anorexia, I really needed this. Thank you.
18 |
The toxic toughts of an overachiever...
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I start this off staring at a blank page
An open office document
A blinking cursor
Passing days
Without a single word
Some say it's absurd
Like I float along a stream of words unsaid
Choosing not to cast my net
But I spend so long questioning myself
If this isn't right
Then does that mean I failed?
Will my melodies ever live up
Will my metaphors be profound enough
Will I ever outdo myself
The ceiling gets higher and higher
It's harder and harder to shatter
And when I fall
I fall worse than I ever did before
Evaluating the damage no I just don't understand it
Conflicted by the very air I breathe
A love with hatred laced between
You can see it in my eyes
A child's spark light up the night
Constant search for approval, suffocated by refusal
Devouring my skull but never feeling full
Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
I start this off a little confused
Writers block doesn't exist
It's not a word I'm supposed to use
Because it's all in my mind
A parasite I'm supposed to find
But sometimes
Well most times
It's so hard to define
So I pour a couple drinks
Getting drunk on gasoline
Fire pulses in my veins
I'm sick of waiting for the day
That courage overtakes my brain
For someone to say it's okay
I've lived my whole life afraid
It's time for me to be brave
To embrace a forest
That's so dark and unknown
Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
They pave as they go
Disappointed faces leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
I'm not taking the bait
Let them rot in their place
I deserve to be alright
I deserve to sleep at night
I'm my closest friend, I remind myself again
Better treat her well, 'cause she's with me till the end
Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Sometimes I forget the feeling
Of every single nerve tingling
Better than any lovers touch
I've created tears of pain and burns of lust
I've created a forest a safe place for myself
That others have found
Some attempt to destroy and others feed the ground
Fertilize my mind with melodies and rhymes
A sorcerer of time, take you back to the night
When you pondered your death when somebody left
When you lie away broken 'cause your head is unkept
And let me remind you
That everything is temporary
You and I are temporary
And this feeling that's so scary
Someday you'll realize that thoughts so heavy
Don't mean you're unsteady
But that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet you
To somebody you never knew
You
572 |
@LeoMorikoTheKnight
6 years ago
I think one of the biggest reasons your songs resonate with us is because you perfectly capture the dual nature of what it means to be 'not alright' in the way you write. It's easily explained through words like "I'm not okay", "I'm sad", "I'm afraid"... But it's never enough to show how we really feel. The psychology behind all this shows there's a war going on in all of us, and you've painted such a beautiful picture of it. Thank you Faith.
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