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Top Comments of this video!! :3
my boyfriend just broke up w me. hes mostly the “nonchalant” type but he told me i was different, and he was willing to put effort in us unlike his other lovers. i’m not upset he broke up w me, because everything happens for a reason and i have a plan, but i cried and cried until i couldn’t breathe just thinking about the situation. he told me how much he loves me, and how he hasn’t wrote anyone the amount of paragraphs he’s gave me, and amount of love. he said he needed to distance himself so i understood (ish). it turned into an argument, like everything and eventually i said sorry and goodnight. he just responded with a simple bye and left. if i don’t ever hear from him again, that’s okay. if he’s mad at me, that’s okay. everything happens for a reason ml. god has a plan, and if u don’t believe in him, it’s okay. you will eventually make a plan for yourself, and sort it out. this playlist helped me. thanks
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It feels a bit soothing to see i'm not the only one.
I've always felt as if 'I shouldn't be here', 'this isn't right'. As If I should be somewhere else, being someone else. When did I start to feel this way? Maybe about the time I gained a sense of self, I just can't help it. I don't feel like I belong to this world. I read a lot, maybe too much, maybe I became fooled by fantasy and now reality just looks plain and empty. It's not like there's no pretty things in this world, but they're not enough to make me want to keep being here. They're not enough to make me feel like i'm in the right place. If I can't find where I belong, then at least I wish I wouldn't have to keep being forced to live in a way and body that make me feel stressed and depressed constantly.
I so desperately beg to be taken somewhere else, somewhere to feel whole again, a place with a body that feels mine, and people who love me unconditionally without me having to break apart for them to glance my way. Even if it's just wishful thinking.
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This gives me running away vibes
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Perhaps the rain could save me, melt me down and make me whole again
Maybe the wind could rebuild me, tear me apart and put me together anew
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your playlists are always perfect . They help me relax
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You took down the good one, it had a thumbnail of a highway . It was perfect. What happened? I played it every night to help me sleep, and the tempo and pitch was perfect, all these other ones arent the same
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I'm waiting 👍😩
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Most of these appear to be covers that I couldn't find. I'm sorry.
TIME SONG - ARTIST [ (E) = Explicit ]
0:00 Where's My love - SYML
3:42 Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
7:18 Heather - Conan Gray
11:17 Lovely - Billie Eilish & Khalid
15:01 SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK (E) - Joji
19:01 All I Want - Kodaline
23:13 Ocean Eyes - Billie Eilish
26:23 I Found - Marianne Beaulieu
30:13 Say You Won't Let Go - James Arthur
34:20 When the Party's Over - Billie Eilish
38:02 Apocalypse - Cigarettes After Sex
42:39 Another Love (E) - Tom Odell
The rest is just a repeat.
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I'm so scared of what future has for me... have a beautiful new year ya'll, please take care you all 🖤🖤
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I found my people❤ I always felt I was alone with feeling scared of the future. I really don't know what to do. School is draining and soon I am about to chose the job for the rest of my life. Is that worth living? I just don't want to work the rest of my life when I don't know what I like. This whole society is just corrupt. I may be paranoid but I can't help it. And feeling alone for not being as everyone else is exhausting. Always left out for not doing like everyone else. Like are we supposed to be like everybody else or what? Sorry if I blurt things out here and there but I am just confused about everything. I am like questioning my school, and home, what is worth living, what am I doing, why am doing this, is this how I show my talent on a sheet.
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Why can't I have a normal life without any traumas bothering me. Therapy is not enough. I'm always scared of the fact that I might be a burden to everyone, specially my gf. Even if she tells me I'm not, I constantly fear that she will leave me. Why the heck can't I just forget everything that has happened to me and just move on and be happy. I hate the people who bullied me. I sometimes hate my parents. I hate myself, I really do. I hate how I always act, I hate how I look, I hate everything I do. I'm not good enough. I can't do anything correctly. I want to be an English teacher if I manage to keep on living. I feel like I don't have any energy left, I just want to give up. The idea of giving up also scares me, my gf loves me, my parents love me (sometimes), I'm sure there are people out there that appreciate me at least, but it's just so easy to run away from my problems.. I feel ashamed of myself when I think about ending myself. Everyone would forget about me easily, anyways. It's not like I mean that much to anyone I guess. Everyone can, and will replace me if I die. That would be a relief for everyone. With that stupid burden gone, everyone would be happy.I don't even know why I'm venting here. I guess I'm just talking to myself, crying in my bed at 1 am, not knowing why don't I fit anywhere. I don't have any friends. Just my gf and me. I feel sorry for her, having to listen to me everyday is really tiring, even I know that. Lately I haven't told her the way I feel because it's not her responsibility and she also has her own problems, I don't wanna bother her. I don't say anything to my psychologist because I don't trust her enough to tell her.
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Who are the singers ?
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Maybe ending up here on this video is a sign that it's time to pack up and disappear again
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@not-a-user-2334
1 year ago
I genuinely feel like I don't belong here. I've never told anyone about this but I'm ashamed of who I am. I just wanna run away and cry in the rain far away from civilization completely alone
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