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"Especially in those nights where the silence becomes all too much."
God, the dread.
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this feels like one of those voice memos you record at 3am out of angst and then forget the next day
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The painful part is he deleted it all, just to say a typical response, itās so accurate and hurts so much that this is truly how it goes, thereās so much you wanna say butā¦you just feel like you canāt say it because you could cause problems, so you turn back on it
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The realization of not loving someone you want to love is such an awful feeling
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my takeaway:
even the monotone philosophy youtuber still managed to have a relationship during the pandemic
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there's something beautiful about being brutally and vulnerably honest. to be authentic, to be real, to be human. it feels very earthy and yet charming.
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My girlfriend and I broke up a few weeks ago after 3 amazing years together.
Idk why Iām typing this and putting it in a YouTube comment but I am. Iām not one to talk about my problems unless itās with someone close to me, but here I am. Crying as I type this , letting the internet know.
Not once in those 3 years did we ever raise our voice at each other. Not once did we argue. Not once did we go to sleep angry at the other person. Not once. 3 beautiful years that Iāll always remember and cherish.
Unfortunately, I always had this gut feeling that for some reason we werenāt meant to be for each other. I donāt know why, but itād be in the back of my mind, Iād never let it affect the way I loved her and treated her though. I loved her passionately and gave her every part of me, and vice versa.
Towards the tail end of things, for the past few months , I felt things begin to change. I kept trying and trying and trying , and doing new things to keep the excitement and get the sparkle back but I could slowly see it dwindling away. Our anniversary was 2 days after Christmas , and even then it felt like the last one we might share together.
One of the worst feelings of all time is knowing youāre doing everything you can but it isnāt working. Fast forward to January and she tells me she wants a break for a month or so. I donāt believe in breaks but I loved her so I decided to give it a shot.
At first I kept telling myself I would do whatever she wants, but as the time went on I realized that I kept denying what it is I felt was the best thing to do.
Best thing for her, but also the best thing for myself.
I tend to neglect myself and my happiness and feelings for other people and always put people before myself.
Thereās no worse feeling than knowing that what is the best for you , isnāt what you want.
I felt us growing apart for a while, and I realized I was never going to be able to meet the expectations she wanted of me and fulfill the things she wants in life, especially if I couldnāt even do it for myself.
It breaks my heart knowing that sheās crying because of me, that I hurt her.
But it isnāt any easier for me.
I want her to be happy, and that happiness might be with someone else, and thatās okay with me.
Idk how long itāll take me to figure myself out and for me to learn self love and value, but just like the video said.
It sucks , but itās for the better. I believe I made the right choice , even though neither one of us can see it now. Itās for the better.
If you read this thank you, you definitely didnāt have to but it feels good to finally let this out.
Thank you
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Really similar vibe to a Pablo Neruda poem I read once.
"I loved her and sometimes, she loved me too"
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itās insane how this resonates with so many people, or maybe it isnāt that insane. Weāre all just living the same lives in different vessels. Whoever reads this, youāre really not that alone.
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The first love is always so explosive and dynamic and visceral. My wife is the true love of my life, but after 3 years of marriage the electricity and butterflies are only occaisonal. And that is perfectly fine. Love matures, it grows in depth. And that is a normal thing.
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i come back to this like a tradition every month. "i wanted to love you and i dont think I'll ever stop wanting to love you." hits home
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This video hits home. I needed to see this without knowing beforehand.
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"the coziness of a relationship makes it easy to forget the piercing sensation of solitude" - jesus
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this is honestly beautiful. reminds me of āperks of being a wallflowerā the way itās written.
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"because i wanted to love you", "i dont know why i couldnt love you" "and i dont think ill ever stop wanting to" is the realest thing rver
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I just broke up from a relationship like this. He didn't say much apart from he doesn't know why he doesn't love me, and that he'd wish he does, but he just can't. He says I'm perfect for him, objectively speaking, but he doesn't know why the feeling isn't there. The problem is though, I loved him with all my heart. This video brought me the consolation he never did; it was as if you said the thoughts he had but was unable to formulate into words. Thank you.
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The problem with romantic relationships is the way that media portrays it to be, it seems to always be āthe honeymoon phaseā, always with that butterfly feeling in your stomach, nervous and giggly. However a relationship is not linear, thereās the beginning, then after that is when it truly gets tested, how will you feel once the love has settled and it becomes your normal. Will it be enough? Are they enough? I realized that you donāt always have to feel this infatuated feeling, you can be in love with somebody thatās not necessarily extra ordinary to others. After the beginning, youāll grow together and that is what is truly the most beautiful, supporting one another, making each other laugh but also being able to stand on your own. Iām glad I figured this out early on, love is different for everyone so donāt subject yourself and please donāt compare yourself, youāre amazing <3
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this is the second time i come back to this video. I had to end a 3-year relationship at the beginning of this year. I loved her with all of my heart, but i eventually realized she did not. It was a strange relationship, our first one too. We were young, we went trough so much together. But i fell in love with someone that wasnt actually ''real''. I realized i have been spending 3 years with a completely different person, someone that drained my life and energy bit by bit. When i realized what kind of a person she really was, and what she was doing to me, i had to end it all. It was the most difficult decision of my life. Then came some really difficult months. I thinked about her, i remembered our moments together, but none of that was real, and none of that could came back. I became frustrated, i hurt myself out of anger more than one time. I wasnt angry with her, but with myself. I still loved her, and that crushed me even more, day by day. Im better now (relatively), and i started to realize that, as sisyphus says, ''it's for the better''. Im not happy it ended, im happy it happened, and that those few, real, good, pure moments in our past will stay there, eternally. In both our memories they're there, and i hope other pure and good moments can be created in the future with someone else. This whole comment is probably gonna get buried under countless others under this video, but even so if someone's reading this i wish you the best of happiness and love in your life. And if she is reading this, i loved you sunshine. I really did
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"but i did it and you said it back"
that hit hard...
i miss you sana, you were something special.
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@metrobrayd2035
2 years ago
The ending was beautiful, a lot of the times we don't say as much as we really want out of fear of what the other person will say..
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