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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I'm sick of my parents telling me "you are too young to be stressing about everything and why would you even be scared of people" like it's not my fault u don't understand me and think that you are always right.
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i'm so sick of not being able to escape this reality and live in a world of peace and kindness and happiness and love and live in a van with my animals and friends and travel the entire world, sleep in the woods, climb the mountains, make fires at night, cool meals on the road, make memories, see beautiful unimaginable places, take photoes, take videos, swim in any waterfall we find, im sick of it not being real.
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Im so sick and tired of having to explain why I feel this way. As soon as I tell some no one is listening to me. And when people say something which I don't find funny doesn't mean I can't make a joke. And saying that just makes me more upset. I can't cry anywhere anymore unless I'm in the bathroom or in my room. I get made fun out for crying at school. And at home all I can be told is to "open up". I'm not comfortable with opening up because all what happens is it gets spread around like a disease. I just want to scream and I can't because I hate being heard being upset.
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⚠️Vent⚠️
Thank you so much for making this.. my parents clearly don't love me anymore and me and my brother never get along anymore. I've almost committed multiple times and I'm only like a week clean of sh. I've been getting low grades in school and I have bad scoliosis so I'm getting 2 metal rods and like 60 screws in my back in about 4 weeks. My dad always used to drag me around by my hair and he would always whip me and he overall traumatized me enough to give me PTSD and my therapist is VERY concerned about me. She wants to but me in a mental hospital and give me like depression pills. My mom used to lock me in dark rooms (I'm terrified of the dark) and she recently told me that "no one loves me and no one cares about me". Also my brother died about 4 years ago and I still cannot get over that. It also seems like I have been developing an ED because I have been basically throwing up everytime I DO eat (which has lately been rarely) andy parents are "worried about me". There are many other thing that I'm not going to list. Keep in mind that I only just turned 12.
Thank you for taking your time to read this and I love you and care about you and I hope you have a good day/night😊
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I'm sick and tired of having to deal with everybody's problems but when I have a problem it's mine to keep inside or else I get yelled at.......im....tired.....tired of living in a world where no matter what you do you will always be everyone's problem or burden.
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I'm sick and tired of believing that I'm the only mind to exist
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my alcoholic friends by dresden dolls : 16:23
be nice to me by the front bottoms : 19:11
leaving tonight by the neighborhood : 22:01
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It’s 12:24 and I’m laying on my trampoline looking at the stars and listening to this. 3 months ago I started feeling bad, I was having heart palpitations and I was constantly tired. I could barely walk because I was so weak. I stayed that was for a while and eventually I got so stressed out from the constant worrying that I started having panic attacks, they were bad. The panic would keep me up at night. It progressed to the point where I went to the ER 3 times in a week. I was getting no sleep and I felt like I was going to die, I was continually cutting myself, once I even made a plan to OD on my anxiety meds, I had them in my mouth but couldn’t go through with it. I remember freaking out in my car on a particularly bad day, I was in pain and scared and I was crying and yelling at god that I couldn’t do it anymore, this group of friends in the car next to me where laughing at me. Literally one of the worst days of my life and they are laughing, I’ve never been ever to shake that one.The day I passed out in the shower was the last time I went to the hospital. I’d got 4 hours of sleep in 2 days, I thought I was dying. I remember laying on the hospital bed, body exhausted and heart palpitating, hyperventilating and sobbing. I felt like a burden, my mom even slipped up and said she was tired of dealing with my condition earlier that day. Needless to say I felt worse than shit. I think that’s the worst I’ve ever felt in my life.After expressing my suicidal thoughts the hospital put me in the mental ward. I was there for a week. The medicine they put me on stopped the panic attacks but I still feel horrible. I’m wearing a heart monitor. I’ve had these stabbing pains in my veins/headaches. I’ve been having bad chest pain and soreness in my breast. I hurt every day now. Does it ever get better? I’m only 21 and my life is at a complete standstill, I just want to have fun again. My Ted talk is over. Sorry not sorry.
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I'm sick and tired of everyone pointing the finger at me. Every day at school I'm in trouble about something. Some people annoy me and get on my nerves, telling me to stop trying to get so much attention and act like someone your not. I say sorry way too much. I'm scared that if I stand up for myself ill be looked at as a different person. I hide my feelings and I just say, "I'm sorry." I'm so tired of hiding my true feelings. I'm tired of how I can't do anything to stand up for myself. I'm TIRED of my parents telling me " You shouldn't be insecure and your not supposed to stress you're too young for that to happen." ...It's not my fault.
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i always get blamed for everything when i didn't do anything and i told my parents that i was trans and they thought it was weird instead of saying congrats and they yell at each other and i can hear it through the walls every time
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The fact that I found out one of my best and most trusted friends had been shit talking me behind my back. The phrase “forget but never forgive.” Is something that I use too much.
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ngl it's hard when you have problems w eating and when you finally feel like you would eat something your dad says: "Don't eat you might get fat" lmao
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"I'm sorry, I don't know, I don't know how to express it I'm sorry" is what I tell them. Why I don't even know what this feeling is it's like a burning pit of despair, depression, anxiety, sadness and madness, that is swallowing me, but that's as good as I can express it. It's late I don't even know even know anymore. Someone once told me not to feed the demons. I'm not feed them, they are swallowing me feeding off of me. Why why is this happening to me I get panic attacks, my mental health is declining. I feel soo weak, soo vanruabale and disconnect from reality.
Why?. . . .
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im done w life. feelin left out,feeling like a bad person,trauma,school,finals,mooving to a new school,fear of being diffrent,over thinking,living in a shitty town,no motivation,tiredness but cant sleep,constant leg shaking,fear of not being loved,d*eing alone,climate change,i prob wont live till 20 ya sorry for ventig
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TW⚠️: (there are eating disorders, anxiety, dysphoria)
VENT(?):
I'm so tired of being called dumb by everyone because i'm not "smart"
i'm so tired of being called lazy
i'm so tired of my body
Why can't i be a boy? Why do i have to be a girl
Everyone says that i'm thin but i'm not! i'm really fat and everyone acts like it's fine
i'm so jelous of skinny people
i'm so jelous of people with supportive (not homophobic or racist) parents
i'm so jelous of the boys i know!
i'm tired of my anxiety
i'm tired of my eating disorders
i'm tired of people who doesn't care if i'm sad
i can't even vent to anyone because they dont care, they just say "ok". Atleast you could show some interest or something.
Sometimes i ask my self why do i exist
or if anybody i know it's real, sometimes i think none of us exist but we're all imagination and then starts an aggressive headache, and i start crying...
it happens everyday at school
i'm done and sorry for my bad spelling
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I've been called crybaby before but as Melanie said in k-12 I have a bigger capcity to love and feel emotion(idrk if that's the exact thing she said). I really hated that I was so emotional but nowdays I barley feel anything since I suffered and just pushed away my emotions. Thanks school, appreciate that.
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TW: VENT & MENTIONS OF RELAPSING...
Im so sick of being that friend that people can vent to.. I have so much on my shoulders but I feel like I cant tell anyone in result of something bad happening... Its also been so hard trying not to relapse recently... I just wanna cry and let it all out but I cant... It just keeps building up but I cant ever just cry... I just want the weight on my shoulders to go away and I just want to feel happy again.. not just put on a fake smile... I hate it but I feel like I just need to be the best I can for everyone else.. I feel like I should put everyone infront of me and take care of my self after... Im also very hungry.. I rarely eat anymore.. I want to get better at taking care of myself but I dont know how... Im just so tired of living... why cant it all the pain just go away and leave...
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To everyone who reads this:
I know you’re tired and sick of everything and you went through a lot of hard times, but just remember that you are amazing, you are strong and you are enough. And if a friend/family member hates you and hurt you, they’re jealous cuz they’ll never be as perfect as you. And if your friends make you feel lonely and left out, leave them and find better people cuz they don’t deserve you. And if someone bullied you for how you look or how you act, just ignore them and act like you never heard it they’re just toxic people and they’ll never change. I know exactly how it feels too, but stay strong, you’ve already made it this far and I’m so proud of you <3 ! And if you ever need to talk I’m always here u can vent in the replies :) .
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I'm tired of being called the "dumb friend" because to my friends it's just a joke but to me it hurts because I actually think I'm dumb. I'm tired of being a burden to my mom, because from what she says "children are supposed to bring parents joy and excitement, but all you bring me is grief. I'm tired of my body shape, my mom say I'm fine and little and if anyone with a bigger body hear what I said they'd hate me. I'm tired of feeling guilty of feeling tired. I'm tired of negotiating with my self and telling my self that I'm really fine and I'm treated greatly I just wanna be spoiled. I don't know what's not good for me and what's not. I'm tired of my bad relationship with my sister, she will only come to me when she wants something, and since she's older she she thinks if I don't do it she can beat me or blackmail me. I HATE IT. I'm tired of having daddy issues. I'm tired of having mommy issues. I'm tired of being lonely. I'm tired of people leaving me alone but then they can't handle loneliness so they only come back to me. I'm tired of being with people to make them happy and leaving broken because they only hurt me in the process. I'M TIRED OF BEING A BURDEN. I f it were really up to me the people I burden , I'd just walk out of their lives for good. I wish things would get better. The only thing I have going for me is my grandmother and growing up. I have promised myself when I get older I'll leave and never show my face to the past. Ill make a new life and I promise myself to be better to myself and give myself a better life. I promise...
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@youreverydaysoulessgremlin5974
1 year ago
Heyo! since I realize I am unable to make meaningful replies to each comment I can I'm gonna make a generic one here sorry for being lazy as hell. I don't know what you may be going through, but each & every one of your problems are valid, it's okay too, well, not be ok, it happens to the best of us. However don't you dare give up just yet, you are capable of amazing & if others are blind to just how awesome you truly are & don't love you for who you are it is their loss, but you have to keep going. Spite everyone who told you you can't, well you can keep going & don't listen to them because their jealous that your reaching your goals & mot giving up when they did, & succeed for yourself, don't be afraid to take a break when you need it but work towards your goals step by step, your gonna get there dude, I may be a random stranger who none of you have ever seen before, but someone out there cares for you, even if they don't know you yet, your gonna go places, just don't give up my dude! I hope you have a most excellent day & can make sure to enjoy the little things in life that make this mess worth it. much love, best of luck to all of you in even the smallest of endeavors! & if you ever wanna talk here is my discord, YourEverydaySoullessGremlin#3603 & my email if you have no discord, DrawnRavyn@gmail.com
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