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Top Comments of this video!! :3
first you skip breakfast
then you do it again
become a habit
"Oh yeah, im just not hungry"
Skipping lunch too
living off of water and gum
your body gets used to it
"mom im not hungry"
"please just eat the sandwhich"
your stomachs not used to eating at that time
you throw up
"thanks for lunch mom, it was really good"
Atleast your eating dinner, right?
yea, right.
everyone's just so much prettier
i want to look better.
i need to look better.
It's very hard to love yourself.
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Having a body is such a scam lol- I never asked for this-
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One day I hate food and the next I love it.. it’s all a mess I don’t know what to do I try to eat healthy and intuitively but I end up overreacting and then fasting and the cycle continues every single day I can’t think of anything but food
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Im 24/7 bloated because i can't close my mouth. I wonder if i'll ever be skinny, how will i do that? i can't stop eating.
I feel nervous. I eat.
I feel depressed. I eat.
I feel pretty. I eat.
I feel ugly. I eat.
My life is about food, my problems are solved with food but food is my problem.
How can some girls be skinny since forever? How can they not eat all the time? How? Why can't i be one of them? I wasn't i born skinny?
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TW: ED
I use to tell myself that i wouldnt go far to even faint but now i dont care one bit anymore, fainting just reminds me that i wasnt binging and i feel congratulated. This isnt a good feeling at all but still.
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I had a bowl of chips and have been pacing for 3 hours trying to make up for it. My life is in shambles.
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feeling guilty and fat for eating simple foods like cereal or oatmeal🤣🤣😂🤣😂😍💕 working out and eating healthier for 5/6 months but instead of your weight going down, it went up a bunch😂😂😂❤ so fun!!
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tbh fainting feels good now…
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I’m so scared, I’m starving myself more but that doesn’t scare me, I’m scared of loosing my hair due to that, I wish i could starve without loosing my scalp hair :(
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Currently struggling rn 🥲👍
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!!!TW!!!
Every time I look at myself I think “oh I’m thin I should eat more!” Then I do it, weight myself in the scale and see 108 lbs. Makes me feel sick so I stop eating and people yell that I’m “too thin” but I weigh in the 100s so I don’t see the problem 15 pounds down would cause…. When I weigh small amounts I feel better and like I don’t take up as much room, I don’t feel like a giant! It feels nice being so thin untill I look myself in the mirror and see the boney body that used to be happy and cry. I cry when I’m “heavy” I cry when I’m “thin” I cry when a boy at school says I’m flat and I would cry if they pointed out my stomach fat. Sure being 80-90 pounds feels great in the winter but I hate how i look in a bikini. I hate how the doctor looks at me and yells that I am hurting my body but it just feels right this way.
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ple who are/were bulimic and you feel like anorexia is the only valid ED and that you don’t need help, you don’t need the months of therapy your scared to get, you don’t need to tell anyone nor can build the courage to tell anyone. You just kneel by the toilet, purging your dinner because you know that if you don’t your a failure. Your worth nothing if you don’t continue, and don’t even deserve the life you’ve been living for years. It’s all a waste. All of it.
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TW: explicit mention of eating disorders and sh (no measurements).
i've been through anorexia twice, both times having been forced into recovery due to my pushy parents and a near heart attack. i've just 'recovered' and gained enough weight to make the clinic happy, but not me. i'm never happy. never satisfied with my body, my grades, my control, my cuts; i need lower, i need higher, i need more, i need deeper. it's just a cycle that's not even about other people anymore. it's about the high from starving myself, the control, the feeling of accomplishment, my perfectionism, the pain, everything. i don't even want to stop. maybe i just want to die, i don't know.
the reason i'm writing this is so you know that you're not alone. no' i'm not attention seeking. what a shocker. yeah, this isn't a great place to be, but you've got me. you can message me if you need to, reply to this comment with your experiences, or do anything else that might help you. i would ask you to take care of yourself and stay safe, but let's be completely honest, we both know that's hard and what's even the point anyway? it probably won't happen. but talk to someone, anyone. it could be me, childline, a friend, a teacher (be careful with this one), an aunt or uncle, a cousin, a random person online, literally anyone. just try.
now, get some sleep, kiddo. i know you're probably reading this at 2 in the morning. <3
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I wish i could go without eating. Damg blood surger wont let me skip breakfast without passing out on class
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TW: Vent
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I can't look in the mirror, I hate what I see, I don't even know if I'm seeing the same thing that is being reflected. I know that I have a perfect body, that I'm healthy, that I shouldn't pressure myself, but this is not even about "being pretty". Eating just hurts. It makes me feel bad, whatever kind of food it is. Being with my friends it's stressful because there's always something that haunts me, and them talking about food and their bodies most of the time doesn't help at ALL, I'm tired of having anxiety attacks when I'm with them. All of my family and even relatives comment on my body, calling me "Belen", praising me for how skinny I am and even if these are compliments they just make me feel...sad. I just want to feel okay. I want to be able to feel at peace with myself.
Why can't I just feel okay with myself?
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TW///
i had anorexia then i had anorexia and bulimia, then just anorexia..and i've been binging recently and i can't do this again bro i really can't.
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The first song goes so good ngl. Currently struggling but this playlist helps me cope. Hope anyone reading this can feel better and know im here for them.
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when did my life started to turn around eating and weigh?
buying one chocolate wont hurt
drinking one glass of soda its not that bad
eating one bread cant make me fat
calories arent monsters
but then i go and eat all of that, then puke, hurt myself and say "tomorrow i wont eat anything" and then? i over-eat, again the next day, the next week and that goes on
exercise, exercise and more exercise, every day, no resting, its not like i deserve rest anyways, right?
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i have 12 disorders, i used to be addicted to taki chips and now im slowly recovering!! wish me luck girlies !
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@loli_pop99
1 year ago
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