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Top Comments of this video!! :3
when ya realize ya really cant cry anymore and are awake at 2:09am writing a YouTube comment 😅
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This is what pain is to me.
Pain is the feeling of a million butterflies in the back of your throat when you want to cry but just can’t.
Pain is the feeling of being alone in a dark room even if you're around people you care about that try to show you the light on the other side of the door.
Pain is the feeling of not knowing who you are because you can’t take the mask off even if you pull and pull.
Pain is that suffocating numbness like you're underwater that makes you feel like you don’t want to live but you don't want to die either.
Pain is knowing you can’t ever truly be you with anyone around you because how can you be someone you don’t know.
Pain is when you wake up to the sun in the morning and wish it was night so you can escape a little longer.
Pain is that feeling of nauseating sickness when you look at yourself in the mirror.
Pain is those thoughts in your head yelling at you that you'll never be enough no matter what you do.
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Does anyone miss childhood? Those days when we always had a smile on our faces, where we didn't worry about anything... <\3
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im just so shoked how strangers from the internet know us better then our friends and family.
edit: ty you guys so much for the likes never got so many like and I cant believe how much people agree with me and feel the same way as me and I'm sorry if you do and I well always love you no matter what even tho I'm just a stranger kid that is just a 10 yrs feels this way and plus I'm just very young to feel this way♥♥
from: a 10yrs stranger♥
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Man.. I'm feeling tired mentally, and this actually really helped.. I legit cried during the first song..
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its sad when no one cares about your scars, your sadness, your pain and your loneness, but they only care about your mistakes, and will always judge you
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I’m tired. I’m only 17 and feel as though I’ve lived 100 years. I wish I could just end it but I don’t even have the strength to do it. I still think about others before even ending myself. I envy those who truly live teen life’s. I sit home do nothing but waste my teen years in a shit hole with shit parents. I hate me and I hate everything. Im tired of being sad and hate how cruel life can be. I lost my friends and have dealt with a shitty past. I’ve disassociated from everything have isolated from everyone and I regret doing that. Im pressured to get my shit together but I don’t even know if I can. I seeked help and got shitty therapists who left me. I have a crappy narcissist mom who only thinks about herself and no one else. I take care of my siblings and am on the verge of dropping out of hs My dads absent and an alcoholic. I’ve been abused from every way and don’t know why. I was only 9 when it happened then at 12, 13, and 16. I’m something someone can use and throw away when done.
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I grew up way too quick. And looking back to realize, I’m only about to be 12. It hurts. Everything hurts. So I sit here writing this post tears running down my tear stained face. Growing up the oldest isn’t easy but I make it work. All my feelings are shoved aside . All my siblings are aloud to cry but I have to stay strong. The more I bottle it up I struggle more. Then she asks why “I’m so depressed?” Because I matured to quick. Because you made me like this. When YOU were supposed to be my mom I was left out in the cold. Pushed aside. So here I am, venting my thoughts and feelings too random people on the internet. Cause no one else listens. I just need someone to talk to. - Y.B.G :/ <3 edit 1 thank you for the words. This week has been hard for me as I went started sh again I’m still trying my hardest to get help and talk to more therapists but it’s been hard so far.
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This isn't the first time. I'm only 12 it's been happening even before i was ten. And its always the same person, the same results, the same problem. She's my mother. It's come to the point where every time we talk i cry. All alone. In the dark. It's funny cause people might know me for always smiling, making jokes. You could never expect a child or someone like me to be depressed and thinking about death but that's not suprising when i'm always wearing a plastic smile. I can't think of a good moment where we laugh and i don't feel bad. She's always blaming me , name calling. She had told me she shouldn't have me before. Years ago i can't get out of my head. But it's fine, i'm okay as long as no one can see what's behind my smile.
Fact: i just had a mental break down and wanted a great playlist. This is a great one. Gotta make it look the i'm fine and i didn't cry. And my Friend started doing sh i had stop her twice before from buying sharpeners. But every time i come to school she has more. I told her it isn't funny and she should stop before she kills herself.
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To anyone reading this:
I’m so fucking proud of you, you have made it so far and have not given up, I love you so much I would be so sad if you left, I care about you so much and there are so many people that care about you. Think about the amazing things that will come out of life and the amazing things that you will not be able to have if you leave, graduating, movie nights, friends, family, food, dating, having kids, listening to your favorite song, watch your favorite tv show, sports. (etc.) So please, please don’t give up! I am so proud of you! I know it may be hard to see but things WILL get better!! You have come so far, please remember to take care of yourself, try to eat and drink smt even it’s a little bit. I BELIVE IN YOU!!! :):) Much love - a random stranger <3
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You know the playlist is good when it starts with Space Song.
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I thought that having a girlfriend would make me feel better about myself, but the reality is that it only highlights my flaws and shortcomings. I see her kindness and warmth, and I can't help but feel like I'm not deserving of it. She deserves someone better than me, someone who can reciprocate her feelings with equal intensity.
Every moment spent with her is a reminder of the person I wish I could be, but will never be. The person who is confident, happy, and at peace with themselves. Instead, I am a mess of insecurities, doubts, and self-loathing. I am only doing her a disservice by pretending to be someone I am not, and the guilt eats away at me every day.
I wish I could tell her how I feel, but I'm afraid of hurting her. She deserves to be with someone who truly loves her and can give her the happiness she deserves. I am not that person, and I know that sooner or later, she will see through my facade and realize the truth.
So, I continue to live in this limbo, pretending to be happy and content, while deep down, I am drowning in my own misery. I know I should end things and let her go, but I can't bear the thought of losing her. It's a vicious cycle, and I feel like I'm trapped in it, unable to break free.
Day after day, I slowly fall deeper into the realization that I cause pain to others, but I can't seem to care. It's not that I don't want to care, but rather, I feel like I'm incapable of it. The more I see the hurt and disappointment in their eyes, the more I withdraw into myself, and the cycle of guilt and self-loathing only intensifies.
I have lost myself. Somewhere along the way, I became someone I don't recognize, someone who causes pain to the people around me. I have people around me who care and love me, but I just seem to cause them pain in return. I can see the disappointment in their eyes, and it only makes me feel worse.
I used to have dreams, goals, and aspirations, but now, they seem like distant memories, something that belonged to a different person. I don't know when I lost myself, or how it happened, but I know that I'm not the same person I used to be.
I wish I could find my way back, but it feels like I'm lost in a labyrinth, with no map or guide to lead me out. The more I try to find my way, the deeper I get, and the more I lose myself.
And it's not just me that I'm losing. I'm losing the people I care about, the people who mean everything to me. I see the hurt and pain I cause them, and I know that soon, I will lose everything.
It's like a slow-motion train wreck, and I'm the conductor. I can see the disaster coming, but I'm powerless to stop it. I can see the people around me screaming, trying to get my attention, but I'm deaf to their cries.
I know that I need help, that I can't do this alone, but the fear of rejection and judgment is too great. So, I continue to suffer in silence, watching as the people I love slip away from me, one by one.
I don't know what the future holds, but I know that it's not looking good. I have not only lost myself, but I will soon lose everything else. And the worst part is that I can't seem to do anything about it.
Thank you for listening.
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IM TİRED OF MY LİFE IM TO SERİOUS
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There's nothing wrong with your eyes.
There's nothing wrong with your nose
There's nothing wrong with your height
There's nothing wrong with your skin
There's nothing wrong with your mouth
There's nothing wrong with your hair
There's nothing wrong with your face
There's nothing wrong with your body
There's nothing wrong with your hands
There's nothing wrong with your fingers
There's nothing wrong with your teeth
There's nothing wrong with YOU
you are perfect.
I am so proud of you:)
You made it to this far.
You are amazing:)
Don't give up.
NEVER GIVE UP
you're pretty
You're precious
Don't need to be insecure abt your face.
You are so beautiful<3
Everyone out there love you:)
A lot of people scared to lost you.
I love you.
Everyone love you.
Your friends love you.
Your family also love you!
Don't listen to those hate comment.
They are just jealous of you bc you are very pretty/handsome<3
They are just jealous bc you have special thing inside you and they don't:)
You're enough<3
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Hardest thing about life is admitting it okay to not be okay. It okay to not feel like getting out of bed. But expectations and society tells you it is wrong. To whoever put there right now. It okay to feel not okay. Your free to be who you want and take as much time as you need. We all deserve time to grieve and vent.
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I’m tired of being pushed around. I’m tired that I’m the person who you can’t trust. I’m normally that extremely nice person, but I guess I’m too nice. I get taken advantage of, and when I do one thing that’s not “nice” it gets taken the wrong way. I’m sick of this. I really am. At this point I’m just thinking of how crappy my future will be. I’m just so fucking pathetic. It’s all my fault and I’m so tired.
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My exact words “are we too young for this”
I’m only 11 and I’m insecure about my WHOLE body. Sometimes I feel like my parents, friends, and family hate me, I feel like I’m taking up to much space and I should stay in my own mind. I haven’t had any huge bullies in my life, most of my insecurities come from my friends and family, my mom told me today that maybe I should put on some longer pants, I changed clothes after. I don’t care what I do to myself, no matter what I just wanna hurt, today I could handle anything, and today I’ve listened to 5 of these playlists. I’m on the way to my cousins house, and I can’t even hold myself together. I’m trying. I’m trying. I’m trying. I’m trying. I’m trying. I’m trying so hard. I’m sorry, is all I can say everyday. I feel like everyone hates me, I’m sick of life and myself. I’m afraid of myself just because I have bones and a brain and lungs. I hate myself
But I hope you know
Your worth it
Your beautiful
Your amazing
Your enough
You have people that love you
I love you
Your not worthless
Your not useless
Your enough
I love you! ❤
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oh my gosh.......i felt this all the way down to my soul😭🥺
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To whoever reads this,
i love you <3
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
(this is for anyone who needs it like i do sometimes and i hope that this helped) this is not mine but i do mean it pass it on if you want it could really help a lot of people :)
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@Heart-stopper_Freak
1 year ago
✨Time Stamps✨ 1: 0:00 -Space song 2: 5:19 -Soft Core 3: 8:46 -Daddy Issues 4: 13:00 -Two Birds 5: 16:47 -Jealous 6: 18:49 -Young 7: 21:59 -I can't handle change 8: 25:18 -Alien blues 9: 27:56 -Hey Kids 10: 31:49 -Freaks
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