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1,013,046 Views • Premiered Mar 19, 2021 • Click to toggle off description
Directed by Joe DeSantis @mrjoedesantis
Produced by WeThem.Us @wethemus
Producer/CD: Jen Sanchez @jenwastaken
CD: Nas Balgodo @http.naserin
CD: Rosco Flevo @roscoflevo
Styling: Mothica
Styling Assistant: Drew Cockrell @drewsview_
Art Dept: Ash Davis @ash_knows
MUA: Fara Conley @faradene
Hair by Ruby @ Flamingo Lounge Hair
Huge thanks to Laura Nguyen for the incredible canvas painting featured at the end.
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Views : 1,013,046
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered Mar 19, 2021 ^^
Rating : 4.983 (136/31,494 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2022-04-09T21:47:56.791457Z
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YouTube Comments - 579 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
This song will blow up. Even if it didn't mothica will someday eventually she works hard for her art and deserves the support.
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I can feel the healing already.
To other victims here, anger is normal and a healthy part of the process. Allow yourself to heal, and hell, even rage dance to this bop
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• Lyrics •
I'm a buzzkill... I'm a broken one.
I'm a victim... Of the things you've done.
I'm a phantom... Of who I thought I was.
Ever since you. (Ever since you).
I don't talk about it.
Unless I make a joke about it.
That's just what you want? Huh?
That's just what you want?
Walking on the ceiling.
Getting used to never feeling.
You still having fun, huh?
I don't trust no one.
I won't keep your secrets now.
You can't keep my volume down.
I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high.
Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why.
And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie.
Ever since you. Ever since you.
Fucked up... Haven't made a sound.
Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud.
Better watch me... Burn this whole place down.
Ever since you. Ever since you.
Know what you did. Don't let it happen again.
I pray for the kid. That calls you a friend.
You pulled them right in. Told them their sins.
Holy motherfucker.
Do you have something to say?
Cause this is the beginning.
Of the price you're gonna pay.
I won't keep your secrets now.
You can't keep my volume down.
I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high.
Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why.
And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie.
Ever since you. Ever since you.
Fucked up... Haven't made a sound.
Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud.
Better watch me... Burn this whole place down.
Ever since you. Ever since you.
Ever since you. Ever since you.
• End •
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I know I'm stating the obvious, but this is gonna be fire
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I love the parallels of channeling your anger and emotions through art and violence
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Even if you’re not able to get someone convicted, the feeling of finally being able to tell everyone “hey this is what HE did to me” and not caring who finds out is amazing and so healing. I like you showing the different sides of surviving a sexual assault. It’s not always sadness and depression sometimes it’s pure anger and hatred at that person for what they did.
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Soup brought me here GG
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really digging this cultural wave of "callouts are over we're just flat-out killing our abusers irl now. 'oh buhhuh murder is illegal' don't get caught then. go get 'em champ!" like that sounds sarcastic but like unironically i love it and i hope it scares the shit out of these freaks
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Gielinor Games Gang represent lol
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She is such a powerful human being. She works so hard for her dreams and knows exactly she wants and how she wants it. She is so creative and she deserves to be huge but also want her to be our little secret.
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Randomly heard this on spotify honestly thought it was a mega hit. Am super surprised their music video has less than a million views. Swear this shit has to blow
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GG
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💋 RED HOUR ❤️
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Found this song on Spotify and instantly loved it and the mv and artist is beautiful. Going to listen to more of her music 🥰
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This song hits me as an abuse survivor. Thank you Mothica💜
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That one dislike is probably there bc whoever saw the video was b l i n d e d by the beauty of it and pressed it on accident
No need to worry folks
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dude i can’t wait for this
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Mothica's got such a classical beauty
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I wish I could send this song back to my 14 year old self. This song is a cathartic healing experience. I've never heard a song that so perfectly captured the rage I felt after what happened. Thank you for making such powerful music, Mothica. <3
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@itsagabbfest
3 years ago
She’s pissed off 🗡 🖤⛓ They know why. Set my alarm so excited
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