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Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Feb 17, 2024 ^^
Rating : 4.982 (33/7,477 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2024-05-17T12:23:47.66635Z
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ive been told it gets better, and i say the same to everyone else who is struggling around me because im sure it does. but just for them. it has been over 5 years, im getting worse and worse, my family is fine, we have ups and down, my friends are perfectly fine, im there for them. i know exactly what i need to do to get better, but i cant bring myself to do so. i cant bring myself to stop my addiction, i cant bring myself to distract myself from thoughts. i let it happen, its like i dont even care anymore.
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When I was in 7th grade I had most of these songs in my playlist,I would listen to them while I waited for my bus after climbing out of my window because my door was blocked by trash,food,mold,dirty clothes,art stuff, and coke cans. Eventually I wouldnât get out of bed to go to should and would sleep all day and wake up to a subway sub on my bed from my mom at 8pm before she went to work. I was kicked out of school and rotted in my bed for 9 months before I was sent to a hospital and went to live with my dad. These songs were my life, and I hated living it.
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4:50 ÂŤalone nugget...Âť
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its gotten to a point i dont want anyones comfort or support or them saying if im okay. i just need a hug and someone to be by my side. i dont want to talk about it, i just want people to be here. with no talking. im so fucking done with this life and i dont know where to go or who to trust. i just.. want love for fucks sake. younger me couldnt get it, and i cant either.. i promised myself i'd be better.. now im a fucking loser who doesnt do anything but be on my internet and be a asshole. im.. failing my younger self. what the fuck is wrong with me..
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I don't talk about my feelings because I don't know how they'll react.
I don't sh because I don't want them to worry
I think I'm a monster, but they treat me like I'm pure.
I feel like I can't talk to my family, so they step in.
I stayed because of them.
I hate my life, but I know my friends need me.
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@zwodarek222
2 months ago
~ Timestamps ~ 0:00 - 3:46 Radiohead "No Surprises" 3:47 - 7:35 Mac DeMarco "Chamber Of Reflection" 7:36 - 9:38 Eyedress "Jealous" 9:39 - 14:23 Cigaretes After Sex "Apocalypse" 14:23 - 19:36 Cigaretes After Sex "K." 19:36 - 24:09 Memo Boy "Insomniac" (slowed) 24:10 - 28:24 Grimes "Genesis" 28:25 - 31:16 Doja Cat "4 Morant" 31:17 - 33:59 Salvia Palth "I Was All Over Her" 33:59 - 37:14 TV Girl "Cigaretes Out The Window" 37:14 - 39:09 øneheart x reidenshi "snowfall" 39:09 - 42:47 Guti "Girl Of My Dreams"
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