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Date of upload: Jan 21, 2023 ^^
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I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list:
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water inhen unutre thirctute the point you’re full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. hugging things
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things trying to learn a new culture
80. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
81. you weren't born to entertain people
82. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
83. arguing with 8 year old kids
84. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
85. new technologies
86. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
87. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
88. cringing at old things you've said and done
89. money
90. random shower thoughts
91. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
92. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
93. that weird funky smell from new items
94. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
95. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
96. feeling happy for other people
97. cute animals
98. flowers
99. laughing at your own stupidity and lastly, 101: me :)
This may not be mine but I still mean it. 🫵 are worth it, trust, spread this if you can 🫶
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This kind of music calms me.
It reminds me of the time when I finally realized I have a problem. And strangely, it was both the worst and best summer of my life.
I met people who understood me. Yet lost them nearly as soon as I met them.
It was the summer I told my sister I was suicidal and we began finding ways to cope.
It was the summer I lost my best friend because he cared more about his discord girlfriend than me.
It was the summer I began having gender dysphoria.
Yet also the summer my parents began becoming more and more hateful toward trans people.
Then my best friend began wanting to talk to me after breaking up with his girlfriend.
It was the summer when I'd cry myself to sleep each night because of how much I hated myself.
But what made it so amazing is that I found things to help me cope. I vented every frustration into writing and drawing. I stayed up all night watching shows, surfing YouTube, reading fanfiction or manga, talking to a friend, or listening to music. While doing those things I was more happy than ever because I felt like there really were people who cared about me. No one ever understood why I loved the things I was interested in so much. People have called the things I love cringe, garbage, embarrassing, ect. I've been flat up called names before. All because no one understood why I loved it so much. I don't care what anyone says. I enjoy listening to Vocaloid! Why do people put people down for enjoying things meant to be enjoyed? I love Vocaloid because it reminds me of when I was 12 and everything was okay. I was always happy. I never cried myself to sleep. Ever. I looked forward to every day. I felt loved by my mother. I didn't have to lie to her. I love her so much. I don't want to keep lying to her. But now sometimes I just wish it'd all go away. I just want it all to end. I have to lie nearly everyday in fear of being punished for enjoying something. Today I wanted to read one of my favorite books, but I didn't because my mother was sitting in front of me. Why? Because the book has cursing. Im a teenager, yet any book or piece of media that isn't Christian, nonfiction, or meant for 12 year olds is taken from me. I feel like I can't express myself in front of them. But that summer I had other people. I wasn't around them. I finally felt like I could be myself. I didn't have to hide anything from my friends at summer camp. But now they're gone. And I'll probably never see them again.
I'm better now though, thankfully. And I don't ever want another kid in my family to go through the loneliness I have.
I know not many, if any, people will read this. I didnt want to vent, but i couldnt help it. Please don't feel like you are too far gone. You aren't. You can get better. Just keep going and it will get better, trust me. Try finding things you can cope with, and don't let people tell you what you love is stupid, because it is not ❤
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Am i suffering or is it just me being pathetic ?
I can never be enough.
Will it get better if i wasn't alive.
I don't wanna be here but i am scared.
Why am I complicated
I wish I can be like the others just having fun and being themselves
I wish I can just be enough for her
And for me.
Why do I keep losing why does everything hurt me
Maybe its meant to be me who's suffering
Maybe i am paying for something i did
I don't wanna talk about it to anyone I'll end up being a burden to them
Can i just cut ties with anyone and live alone Ina forest?
Why do people hurt me then do good stuff maybe it's me i am blaming everyone right?
Maybe i am just being pathetic I'll be fine again
I love her more than myself fuck.
I'll regret commenting this but who cares
(Context: i just wanted to share my daily thoughts )
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Actually, this showed me 9:13 till now already, with every song playing… I‘m not tired, well that too. But slowly also accepting. That I‘m not getting the same love back as I deserve or could have. And I don’t need to give the love I don’t get back. I‘m fine, though yes it do hurts a lot. I am so in love for the first time ever. But maybe it changes, but even if not. I shall always try to remember my worth and start to accept if it’s time to let go
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This shit is getting so overwhelming. I'm trying my best every day, but how can I possibly keep that up? The world is going downhill and somehow people are still against equality across the board. I'm just a child, how am I supposed to manage figuring myself out, getting my school work done, working daily and fighting for equality so I can be myself?
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