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Date of upload: Premiered Apr 23, 2022 ^^
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I don’t know if you can read my mind but this... this is perfect timing. I just had what I call a “nostalgia attack” where I feel strong nostalgia and sentimentality to the point where I literally need to stop what I’m doing and just sit down in an empty room and just think until it wears off.
It usually happens when I see, hear or feel something nostalgic and my brain overthinks the past. Specially my childhood.
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Whenever I look to my own past, unfortunately, the almost exclusive feeling I get from it is regret. I lived in fear of doing everything as a teenager, I was ashamed of myself, who I was and instead of trying to change, I just secluded myself. I didn't live through all the teen stuff, barely had any teen romance, didn't do shit around, didn't try stuff, didn't go to parties, and most important, I didn't fail. Failing is, if anything, essential to the learning process and if you don't fail enough, you might not learn anything and that's exactly what happened to me.
I wish I tried and missed more, went through more shame, made more people laugh, so I could be more desensitized to fear. I could be more confident and show people my true self. Now I'm learning, a bit more late than I wish I would and trying to be a better me everyday, but nonetheless, feeling like you missed one of the most fun moments of your like takes a toll on you.
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As we look back with regret, with tears in our hearts that we cannot show, take some time to remember that you made it. You made it this far. When we breathe our last, our thoughts should not dwell on our painful memories. Instead, you should smile. Because despite everything, you made it. And you made it your way.
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Somos lo que somos por lo que fuimos en el pasado. Seremos lo que fuimos si no reflexionamos sobre lo que hicimos.
El momento que más me ha cambiado la vida, fue abandonar la ciudad donde me crié gran parte de mi niñez-adolescencia (desde los 11 a los 18 años) y mudarme hacia una ciudad norteña para estudiar una carrera universitaria.
Recuerdo el viaje, mirando por la ventana. Un viaje del que no habría retorno, pues jamás volvería a hacerlo por última vez. Recuerdo la sensación de dormir por última vez en la casa de mis padres, de saber que nunca más volvería a dormir en esa cama sabiendo que no tendré que irme.
Dejar el hogar atrás fue un golpe de realidad, pero no todos los golpes son malos. Ya llevo 3 años en esta ciudad, en el ecuador de mi aprendizaje.
Si alguna vez alguien lee esto, no dejes que el miedo espante tus decisiones. Yo tuve la oportunidad de estudiar otra carrera en la ciudad donde me crié, pero algo en mi me empujó a no hacerlo. Fue y es, la decisión que más importancia tiene en mi vida.
Y, en palabras de Bilbo Bolsón, vive tu vida para que la última frase que alguien recuerde de ti sea: "Y vivió feliz hasta el fin de sus días".
Me conformo con que este comentario sea encontrado por mi yo del futuro cuando, dentro de unos cuantos años, revise los comentarios que una vez escribí, casi más por soltar lo que llevaba dentro, que por compartir una experiencia con el mundo.
Mi querido lector, si ves, esto, no dudes en compartir algo de relevancia para tu vida. Si logras materializar esos pensamientos en palabras, y esas palabras en líneas y párrafos, podrás darte cuenta de lo que has avanzado en tu vida, ya sea para bien o para mal. Sea cual sea el sabor de esta acción, mejóralo. Si es bueno, disfruta y busca ser mejor persona. Si es malo, habrás dado el primer paso que te llevará a lo bueno, que es ver que algo está mal.
Si me dijesen: "¿que quieres ser cuando ya seas un adulto?", simplemente les diría lo más sincero que se me ocurre. Feliz.
JMZG
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Hello person reading this! If You want to read something while listening, here's one of my stories that reminds me of this playlist, either way, have a great day!<33
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"'Hello, James.' I say blankly, as I enter the cold room. 'I just came here to chat. It seems like I don't really have anyone to talk to.'
There weren't any chairs, but I was fine with sitting on the floor. After all, I didn't know where else to go.
'You know,' I say, 'It seems as if everyone has something they want to do with their lives. Megan has Jane and her job, Chris has Felix, Maria has Oliver, and Alexander... Alexander never truly needed anyone.'
I giggled shortly.
' It appears to me like I'm the only one stuck in one moment, right before I left you that day.'
The silence is louder than any noise I've ever heard.
'I miss you.'
And here I found myself talking to a grave. Just like five minutes ago, and just like every other day for the past months. But no, today was different. I didn't come to complain or cry in here. I came to say goodbye, maybe later than I should've.
'You should know that I've been doing better recently. I actually went on a date today. I wore one of the dresses that I used to wear before and actually felt happy for once ever since...'
I take a deep breath and get up.
'I will not be coming here anymore. I have to take life into my own hands and do something, before I have nothing left to take. I want to be able to talk to you, but you're not here. And as much as I wish you were, I have to accept the fact that you're not. I'm... I'm happy. So, goodbye. It's been one hell of a ride.'
One tear slides on my freezing clod cheek, as I put down a few flowers. For the first time, I've managed to leave this place with a smile on my face and, most of all, with a weight lifted from my heart."
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The funny thing, every time I end up overthinking I realise I did everything right in my life, yet ended up nowhere. But still, I'm not in debt, relatively healthy and can actually survive on my own, so maybe it could have been way worse. In the end, we are being told that, whether ending up in hell, we should keep moving forward. To be honest, even standing up in hell is a great feat on its own.
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@nobodyplaylists
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TIMESTAMPS / (composer/s) [performer/s] 00:00 serenade for strings, iii. élégie (tchaikovsky) [a far cry music] 09:21 sonata in b minor k.197, l.147 (scarlatti) [silvije vidovic] 12:15 adagio (albinoni) [hauser/elisabeth fuchs/zagreb philharmonic orchestra] 18:27 nocturne in c sharp minor, op. 27 no. 1 (chopin) [yulianna avdeeva] 23:55 gayane suite no. 3, iv. gayane's adagio (khachaturian) [st. petersburg symphony orchestra/andré anichanov] 28:51 elegie op. 3 no. 1 (rachmaninoff) [rachmaninoff] 33:17 string trio in e-flat major no. 1, iii. adagio cantabile (ferdinand ries) [ardinghello ensemble] 38:29 symphonic studies, op. 13 xii. posthume var. 5 (schumann) [wolfgang leibnitz] 41:53 impresion sinfonica (maria teresa prieto) [orquesta de córdoba/josé luis temes]
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