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367,918 Views • Oct 8, 2021 • Click to toggle off description
! This was made for myself and i decided to share it. Keep ur “romanticising trauma” comments to urself please !
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Sorry for the horrible quality lmao. I made this at 1am and was too tired so its bad
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Heres a trauma coping playlist i made based on my childhood. Its my first one, i hope you all like it. I use these songs a lot to help coping with shit so i made a playlist on it.
Timestamps will be in pinned comment.
Feel free to talk about your trauma/vent in the comments, this is a safespace! Just please add a trigger warning beforehand i hope youre okay, please drink water, eat, take your meds if you need to. Its gonna be okay.
Insta: michichu00
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Timestamps:
0:00 - Icarus by Instupendo
3:11 - Comfort chain by Instupendo
6:15 - Nice boys by Temporex
9:13 - All you are going to want to do is get back there by The caretaker
12:59 - Backroom Labyrinth by Oliver Buckland
15:52 - still life by sitcom
19:13 - the end of yume nikki
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Disclamer: none of these songs are mine. They all belong to their respective band/artist.
Views : 367,918
Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Oct 8, 2021 ^^
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RYD date created : 2022-04-09T18:41:28.469132Z
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I want the kind of childhood people talk about. Just being innocent and having fun. They stole it from me and I want it back
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For anyone who needs to hear it—
Your childhood trauma is NEVER your fault. The adults around you have a responsibility to monitor what you do, so even if your trauma comes from the internet, it's their responsibility. The blames lays on their shoulders.
It's not your fault.
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I feel like human scum for listening to these playlists, I don’t even remember if my trauma is real or not, and even it it is, it’s not as bad as others’.
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I can’t ever properly answer the question “Did you have a good childhood?” because the answer is both yes and no. On one hand, I had all my basic needs taken care of. I had a lot of toys, entertainment and stimuli. I had a wonderful, caring mother who would do anything to protect me. I had a bunch of good memories with the few friends I did have.
But on the other hand, I was bullied so relentlessly (by boys and girls) for my autistic behaviors, and no matter what any adults did, it wouldn’t stop. I came home crying many times, wondering what I did to deserve it and desperately wishing I could be normal. My father was abusive (sexually and emotionally) and physically neglectful. I nearly died on his hands a few times. He kidnapped me, locked me in a dark room many times, violated my body, and exposed me to things no child should be exposed to. My grandparents knew about the abuse and they covered for him. But I still loved them. I didn’t understand that none of it was normal.
When I finally figured it out, I didn’t have the courage to tell anyone until second grade. Then suddenly there were a bunch of police and people from the court interviewing me and I wasn’t allowed to see my father or grandparents anymore. I thought that I did something horribly wrong, that it was my fault for destroying my family and I didn’t deserve to live. I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was nine years old.
So in other words, my childhood was a mixed bag. When things were good, they were pretty good. But when things were bad, they were really, really bad. Just because I had a bunch of good memories doesn’t mean my childhood wasn’t stolen from me. I hope my sperm donor and his creators rot in hell.
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To anyone that's listening right now...
gives virtual hug ✨
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Funny thing is, the person who ruined my childhood is me. I was the one forcing myself to ignore my anger or if I felt like something wasn't right. I forced myself to be the helper for others who didn't do the same for me. I'm the one who forced myself to see what I shouldn't have seen at a young age. Lastly, I'm the one who forced myself to have certain emotions. Honestly, it feels like an entire war between myself and another me. It's annoying, but as I've been told, it's my fault and it's only me that did it.
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Shout out to Amino for giving some lasting friendships and a whole load of triggers! :D
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TW!
Remember when we all had freinds to play with during recess? When we had freinds to share their lunch with us? Remember the time our parents use to watch cartoons with us and laugh when we did? Remember when our parents fought in the living room while we were in our room crying? Remember when our Freinds left to go play with different people, and we thought nothing of It? Remember..when they didn't come back and no one was there for us...?
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The Yume Nikki ending bro.... that hits HARD when you have childhood trauma and have played Yume Nikki. Thank you for this wonderful playlist...
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This hits hard, my dad scared me into thinking everyone was out to get me, and that everyone on the internet was way older than me.. now I get scared when A car passes by me, when it gets dark, or when a grown up stares at me. Everything feels fake in my life, even me. (TW)
I vividly remember riding my bike home, and a white truck kept passing me, I got to a spot where it was only side walk and road going up. There was a chain fence with a hole in it (keep that in mind) when I got to the beginning of the sidewalk and was going to head up the truck passed by me and slowly started to turn around.. I was going to be kidnapped. I took my bike into the dance with me and once I was on the other side of the fence the car sat in front with tinted windows, I acted like I was crazy and they drove off. This scared the living shit out of me, grown men scare me after that experience.
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Wanted to specify cause some people in the comments were feeling that their experiences meant less compared to others, but remember trauma isn't about what was done to you, but what it changed in your belief system. What did those people teach you, show you, do to you, and make you believe about yourself that ended up doing you harm? It can sometimes be the smallest moments that are seemingly harmless that do the most damage.
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Vent!!:
I don’t have a lot of trauma, just can’t remember much from my childhood. I think it was Normal for things to be like this. My parents would fight a lot. And I mean a lot. Which ended up with my having access to the internet at an age that it too young. It hurts knowing I had to come to terms with life so quickly. I wish I could go back to when I was happier. I didn’t know all the shit I did. Every time i hear one of my parents raise their voice I think they are fighting again. I hate it. I may not have had the worst childhood but it was taken away from me too fast. And I am so sad because of it.
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tw!!
thank you to my male dance teacher for taking my childhood away and replacing it with an ED, trauma, abuse, and more than that thank you to the girls in my public school for welcoming me into the class by throwing food at me and writing horrible things on my desks, but most of all thank you to the girl and group of boys who cornered me in the park and jumped me, ripping out my hair and telling me how they’d kill me. thank you so much for taking away my childhood :)
(it felt so good to get that out. thank you for the playlist.)
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When you realize that you might have trauma and your parents might go through a homophobic parental arc bc your bi and you are also semi Christin, you have internalized homophobia for yourself, you have a fear of yelling bc of that possible trauma. Wow. You don't even want to get into the school stuff- you have other fears caused by things that have happened to you, those are fun! And being extremely paranoid is really helping you through all of this!
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Tw…When I was born my dad was a drug addict. He left me at random peoples house of smokers. My mother never knew what house I was in. At one point he did stop. Growing I had a eating issue. I could not gain weight and need to be at hospitals at all time. Into middle school I was bullied for being the only hispanic person at school. I was groomed by another student and a cousin. The teachers did not believe me nor my parents. I was touched by my sick uncle. A teacher picked on me till I cried everyday because of my weakness of always being sad. Starting high school I moved to a different house and school. I had a boyfriend who raped me. I tried od and my mother wasn’t there. I was nervous to get a first job. I used to have drama with everyone because I was easy to pick on. I was told “I know your not innocent”. I recorded and had screenshots of everything just incase. That boyfriend i told you about cheated on me and other girls. I have all the proof to ruin his next relationship. I have proof to ruin anyones relationship but pick not to. Now I have cancer, hypothyroidism, anxiety, and insomnia all diagnosed. My uncle that touched me passed away. My cousin has a daughter now and lives 8 hours away. I got a second job and saw the student who groomed me. He touched me and almost raped me in the restroom. I meet the teacher again and she acted as if nothing. My mother and father now show love and support. Nothing gets better. I now sexualize myself for the attention I always wanted. I worked at a chicken plant killing my body with work and school with only 2 hours of sleep to impress my parents. I am creative tho. I use new hobbies to allow myself to live and enjoy life. I write, read, crochet, and paint. I just started crystal, tarot, and getting into clay. No matter how life gets bad it can always get worse. Everything that goes down has to go up. But what goes up has to come down.
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for those who don't know what trauma core is: Traumacore also known as Usedcore is a kind of aesthetic that is a bit dubious because it is related to trauma, abuse, religion or innocence. But why is there traumacore?
Let's get straight to the point.
Traumacore is a therapeutic art where the artists of this movement use all kinds of elements where they can express a traumatic feeling or event in their life. Many of these artists use Hello Kitty images, text and effects as glitches.
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The last song really got me out of nowhere. I was listening to this playlist without looking and I assumed it ended until I see this.
It hurts but it helps get the emotions out.
Heh, the music kinda sounds like sirens.
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(Trigger Warning)
Remember back before the world was truly aware of the dangers of the internet...where everything could just run more ramped. where you were younger and everything was new and you had just started every thing. and the people on your old brick of a tiny phone with the little cherry blossom case with the tiny bee on it you loved so much where your only friends. they were just people who were depressed and just needed cheering up~? they played all your favorite games with you and loved roleplaying stories somedays they asked questions you never minded the just wanted help. remember the first time you lost one of them and couldn't explain it to your parents because people on the internet are not real friends??? remember how the request started changing as you tried to help more people cause after that you wanted no one to have to go through that loss again?? remember the day your mom found your phone and was so upset and you couldn't understand why cause you were so little?? Remember the day you lost all your friends and no one could explain why? Do you remember a time before Groomer was a term? and now are you sitting her at 22 slowly figuring out everything unpacking that trauma maybe even older??
Know your not alone and you survived the real monsters that hide in closets and outside in the dark you were so scared of as a small child. know your mind can recover and you can learn from and help people still from living like this.. and most importantly know your not alone.
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kudos to my family for ruining my childhood, i got used to it after enduring the suffering silently for fourteen years,
things i've witnessed those past years wont be forgotten by me and the feeling of my ankles and wrists getting broken and bruises and my tongue almost getting cut with my mom holding scissors while i get held down, life sucks a lot, and as of now, i still feel empty, i rarely react to things and even if things changed, i still can't even if i wanted to
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@Michichuu
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｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ。 ｡ﾟ ﾟ･｡･ﾟTimestamps ʚ🎀ɞ 0:00 - 3:10 Icarus - Instupendo ʚ🍼ɞ 3:11 - 6:14 Comfort chain - Instupendo ʚ🧸ɞ 6:15 - 9:12 Nice boys - Temporex ʚ🧴ɞ 9:13 - 12:58 All you are going to want to do is get back there - The caretaker ʚ🌸ɞ 12:59 - 15:51 Backroom Labyrinth - Oliver Buckland ʚ💉ɞ 15:52 - 19:12 still life - sitcom ʚ💓ɞ 19:13 - 21:32 Yume Nikki - the end Thank you for watching. i really appreciate it <3 Edit: Thank you all so much for 500 subscribers. I really appreciate it. It breaks my heart to read all of your stories in the comments. You are all so strong <3 keep going! You can
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