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1:12 dandelion hands - it's all in your head
2:54 Hisohkah - School Rooftop
5:00 dandelion hands - wren's lullaby
6:55 OMORI OST - 004 Spaces In-between
7:54 dandelion hands - self harmageddon
11:31 Six Forty Seven loop - instupendo
16:53 may roosvelt - memoir #2
18:52 reidenshi - november 8
21:28 karamel kel - aglow (intro)
25:44 Yoshi Island Ending Theme
Views : 131,836
Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Feb 4, 2024 ^^
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
Traumacore is the perfect example of dissonance as it combines seemingly cute images (like cartoon characters, Sanrio characters, pink shades, childhood photos, sometimes even images of nature) with heavily disturbing topics like abuse (emotional, physical, s*xual, etc), neglect, pain, fear of being abandoned, religious themes and other similliar topics. And based on my personal experience, you get a few different feelings as you look at these images.
There could be Sanrio characters on the image with words like "Why did you do this to me?!" or "I feel so much pain" and at first you take a look at that Sanrio character and think "Oh, the image is so cute!" but then you take a look at the words (and backgrounds around them) and think "Oh...". You get a totally different feeling.
In my personal experience its a feeling of wanting to help the character in the photo - you want to get them out of here, to comfort them, to give them some sleep, to give them some comfort food.
But wait... There's a catch.
Characters in the images represent the people behind them. You start to think deeper. What happened to them? Who did this to them? How did this happen? And most importantly... How are they?
You wonder how are they now, days, months, years after creating these images. You don't know them personally, and yet you want to let them know that... Well, things might not get better overnight, but they're not alone in their situation. That someone could relate to them.
And again, you don't know that person, yet you want to give them a hug or a high five. Its a confusing feeling, really, but that's just what i feel when I see this type of images.
Well, im leaving this essay here. Just sharing my thoughts.
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please never remove this, it's so comforting.
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Listening to these familiar tunes and seeing the images, to then legitimately seeing someone vent about their life and wanting to end it, I can't help but feel like a ghost watching something i can't fully comprehend. I cant stand here and watch knowing that i can make some kine of positive impact, even if its not much due to me being a stranger.
For what its worth, to anyone reading this and is going through a hard time, you are not alone.
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To me this is really relaxing in a kind of depressing way. Like you’re just sitting there feeling empty, just accepting all the shit that’s happened, feeling numb.
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i hardly remember my childhood but when i can remember a couple things
its either
my mom yelling
playing outside with my brother and my cousins
going for walks with my mom and brother
my mom being drunk most of the time
arguing
maybe other things too i cant remember
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Why can't they understand that traumadosent just come from parents?jst because I have wonderful family dosent mean I haven't been hurt....
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The thing I love about a lot of these images is the meaning is ambiguous enough that you can project your own meaning and insecurities onto them
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Being autistic is so fucking hard and I hate it and nobody gets it but I'm just DIFFERENT and I hate it. I don't feel human. All my life I've worried that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. And in my loneliness I delve deeper and deeper into vivid daydreams to occupy my mind within my emotionally empty life. Every day I sit on my bed and dream for HOURS about being somebody skinnier, prettier, and more femme than I'll ever be. Her name is Karmavania Veilaris and She's all I think about. He's all I am. And I get lost thinking about her, becoming him in my frequent casual delusions. And I've been doing it for a while. I've created a vast number of characters, magical abilities, and villains for Karma to fight! And i have friends who need me and rely on me and are perfect and beautiful and I love them. They're all I think about. For hours and hours I sit there and every thing is beautiful. Until its not. Until I'm not Karmavania Veilarris. I'm me and I am miserable. I hate this body and the organs that operate it. I wish I was small. So small that I could fit into the petite clothing adorning the mannequins at hot topic. But im not tiny. and im not strong and im not capable and im not loved and im not a girl. I am not Karmavania Veilarris.
so i sit here, and i dream.
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i really just can’t take it anymore sometimes
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I’m so sorry god please forgive me I don’t know why I sin. Why am I told I sin for showing skin, speaking up or against, rejecting, regretting, forgiving, wishing, and being willing. Father I’m so sorry please forgive me for being impure. Why must you bring me into this world that I wish to escape from. What is your plan for me?
Maybe in another universe my destiny wouldn’t be linked to my “loving family” I don’t even know them. Who am I?
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This playlist (in my point of view) conveys the feeling of a person who is trapped in a nostalgic world. Both in the sense of going there and wanting to leave there. I deeply feel the anguish through the images and disconcerting song. I've been to that place and I can totally relate to it.
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I used to think I didnt have trauma so I only came to traumacore bc it reminded me of liminal spaces and to comfort people
and later realized a thought came to me about the internet and I realized I was being gr00med. . .
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I have no strength to even vent but I thank everyone who can because it shows me that I'm not alone 💓 it's been so hard
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I.. I don’t know why my head feels funny and my heart feels heavy listening to this
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worst thing is that i feel safer talking to strangers in the internet instead of real life men and my parents and brother, honestly something went wrong with me, i dont know at all, im just being dramatic most probably.
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I used to have a negative stance on this kind of thing. but i was wrong, and didn't realize how much it actually helps. it feels weird, but it helps.
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I still feel his touch on me. Hearing his voice genuinely repulses me. Theres nothing i can do to feel clean again.
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its so weird i cant recall anything from my past but this feels oddly comforting. Like being alone in an opened mall.
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i feel like this playlist perfectly represents some of the things that people cover up. another comment was talking about how traumacore was a perfect example for dissonance and how at the first glance you think everything is adorable but when you look deeper then you go "ohhhh.."
as someone who struggled with depression and sh the last few years, people were all shocked to discover that i had been struggling so much, even the people who lived with me. but that's just because i covered it up so well and everybody took the one glance at me before patting me on the back and moving on. i was basically JUST the sanrio character of sorts to the people around me, and they did not see the words or disturbing backgrounds that were added to the image to give it a deeper meaning.
to anybody who may be covering up anything about their mental health, my darling, don't let yourself push down everything just so you look okay to the people around you. you deserve so much more than to say, "i'm fine."
people were made to have trials and tribulations, it is a natural course of our life. however horrible things may be, you deserve to live to press on and see how things will turn out for you.
there are professionals out there who are so willing to help you get better, and i know it's hard to believe that they really care, but they do. if they didn't care about you and your mental health, they wouldn't actively be working the job as a therapist/psychologist/etc.
as someone who has journeyed through the biggest lows of my life, take these words to heart for a second:
you will NOT be your personal punching bag.
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@ultraviolencegaming4155
3 months ago
I dunno where this came from but the word "traumacore" was a word ive been looking for to describe a variety of content that affects me deeply. I spend my entire life looking through rose tinted glasses, but the lens is cracked and the frame is bent. I have nothint to be nostalgic about
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