Dark Thoughts is specifically about the struggles men experience when trying to seek treatment for anorexia. As I haven't experienced male anorexia first hand, I did a lot of research into it and watched videos of talks and personal confessions. I ended up feeling so angry, frustrated, and upset at the difficulties men have in being diagnosed and getting treatment.

Even though I still don't feel like this song does the subject justice, I hope it can help to raise awareness of the issue, and we can work towards male anorexia becoming just as recognised in society as female anorexia.

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PLEASE NOTE: With my music, I aim to reflect the hidden inner struggles of psychological disorders by externalising the internal. Please use caution if you feel you are easily provoked, and please always take care of yourself.

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Lyrics:

He was,
Ashen, ashen,
With his pale, sunken face,
And he had,
Dark thoughts, dark thoughts,
Mirrored in his empty gaze.
And he was,
All alone, so alone,
With the nightmares creeping in,
But he’s,
Screaming, screaming,
Just dying to be thin.

‘It must be a phase’, their voices just blur into one,
‘It’s a girl’s disease’, but oh, they couldn’t be more wrong.
These dark thoughts, they are my own,
I fade away right to my bones,
They didn’t help,
They couldn’t know,
Can’t do this on my own.

His body’s,
Wasting, wasting,
As he’s restricting more and more,
He likes the,
Feeling, feeling,
Of being lighter than before.
And he felt,
Broken, broken,
And didn’t know if he could cope,
And he was,
Falling, stumbling,
With no light at the end of the road.

‘It must be a phase’, their voices just blur into one,
‘It’s a girl’s disease’, but oh, they couldn’t be more wrong.
Stoney faces, judging gazes, ‘why can’t you just eat?’
[BOTH]
Just 'cause I’m a man, you think my pain is obsolete.
Just 'cause he's a man, you think his pain is obsolete.

Well these dark thoughts, they are my own,
I fade away right to my bones,
They'll never help,
They’ll never know,
I'll do this on my own.

‘It must be a phase’, their voices just blur into one,
‘It’s a girl’s disease’, but oh, they couldn’t be more wrong.
These dark thoughts, they are my own,
I fade away right to my bones,
They didn't help,
They couldn't know,
Can't do this on my own.

He was,
Ashen, ashen,
And he had,
Dark thoughts, dark thoughts,
And he was all alone, so alone,
But he’s screaming, screaming.