So Low is a song from my album Beauty In The Darkness about the dark, isolated, and confined world of living with depression. As I experienced depression as part of my eating disorder, I've included elements of anorexia as an undercurrent within the lyrics.

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PLEASE NOTE: With my music, I aim to reflect the hidden inner struggles of psychological disorders by externalising the internal. Please use caution if you feel you are easily provoked, and please always take care of yourself.

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Lyrics:

So low,
I’m so low.

Sunlight flows in round the drapes,
So close I can breathe it.
Reach out with my fingertips,
And still, I can’t feel it.
Disconnected,
From the world,
Blankness fills my eyes.
People trying to make plans,
Better just to lie.

I don’t wanna go outside,
I don’t wanna live this life,
Self-loathing it burns inside,
So I keep on,
Staring at my bones again,
Measuring my waist again,
Pinching at my skin again,
Feeling something pull again,
Carving up my arms again,
Craving emptiness again,
Won’t stop 'til I’m feeling high.

I’m screaming, screaming,
Dreaming, scheming,
In this hell of mine,
Someday, someway,
I know, I will change,
And lead a normal life.
But does anybody really care,
Or are they just pretending,
Locked up inside these four walls,
The darkness is descending.

Please don’t keep on asking why,
I prefer my darkened sky,
Self-loathing it burns inside,
Messing with my mind,
So I keep on,
Staring at my bones again,
Measuring my waist again,
Pinching at my skin again,
Feeling something pull again,
Carving up my arms again,
Craving emptiness again,
Won’t stop ’til I’m feeling high.

But I’m so low,
I’m so low.
I’m so low,
Feeling so low.
I’m so cold,
I’m so cold.
Falling below,
Just let me go.
So low,
I’m so low.