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Date of upload: Mar 10, 2024 ^^
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When I was 21 I was heartbroken and felt betrayed. I realised in all of my sorrow, that more than anything I had to work on myself. I had to work on how I perceived the world, how I saw myself, how I loved, loved life, loved the people around me, loved myself.
So. I started working. I started going out in nature, I started going to the cinema, I started going to the forest, I started going to the library, all of it by myself. When I started exploring I suddenly found what I had longed for all my life. I found what I had searched for, but I didn't find it where I had searched. I didn't find it in other people. I'd thought that someone loving me, all of me, required me to love them with everything I got. I thought it required for me to soothe my own wishes and preference. I thought it required for me to suppress my inner voice. To make them feel loved, I suppressed my inner voice, my own wishes and needs, as an act of love. For them to feel loved. The only way I thought all of me could be loved. If another person loved me. But as I was there, in the park, listening to calming music, looking at the lake behind the tress, I heard it very quietly. There it was. What I had searched for. My companion. My inner voice. I knew I had to keep working to keep it by my side. I knew I had to show it all the love and kindness and tenderness I had waited my whole life to show another's soul.
As time passed and my visits to the park, to the forest, to the cinema, became more, and I heard it, my inner voice, louder and clearer.
I decided that till the day I turned 23 I would give myself the privileged of feeling incomplete. I needed time to get to know this new companion of mine. I had to give myself time to learn. Every moment I felt incomplete, I would tell myself I had yet to turn 23. That way there was no reason to worry about my incompleteness. All I had to care about, was making my companion feel loved and welcome by my side.
As the month passed the voice grew and it stayed. It became the norm to have it by my side, just like the love and tenderness I showed it.
The summer I was to turn 23 I felt it so presently, that I stopped thinking about it. My companion had become a part of me. A part of me I'd lost in my wish to show others love. To be loved. But here I was. Complete. Completely loving my companion, the way I had been longing to be loved. For the first time in my life I didn't long for love. Love was now rooted in me.
That summer I met a boy. A boy that made me feel safe and calm. A boy that made me feel like I had never felt before. He made me be present. He made me not worry about the future. He made me feel. He made me feel that to be myself, was the most normal thing in the world. As if I hadnt spent my whole life worrying about letting myself show. Letting myself feel. Feel the world, and feel who I was. Instead I had felt for everyone else. He made feeling be a good thing. But without my companion I would not have been able to meet him there. I would not have been able to show him the love that my companion had brought me. And I would not have been able to feel myself.
I only realised that true love does exist, when I found it in myself and another person. Now everyday I'm thanking the universe for my love's existence.
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Even though my comment might seem like a small ripple in the digital sea, if it's reached you in any way, then it's more than just coincidence. Here's a comforting thought - these words are a reminder of your worth and potential. Embrace life's challenges, safe in the knowledge that you can overcome them with grace and resilience.
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I accidentally clicked on this video and it made me cry.
When I was 20, the person who I trust the most left me. We were friends for 9 years. We were dating for 3 years and planning to move out together. However, as I noticed later, I was the one who tried to made it all work. I believed that this heartbreak was my fault. But you should understand that every single relationship could fade away if one side don't work for this bond. You can't make bond for two on your own. After that rough experience I tried to start another relationship but another partner went crazy in our first conflict. I decided that I can't take another aggressive treatment so we broke up. I decided that no one can give me enough love if I can't love myself, can't stand for myself.
Now I'm doing my best. I go to psychotherapist every weak, I keep working, I try to make myself loved and happier. I met someone, who cares about me, someone I can trust again, someone I can argue with knowing this person won't hurt me anyway, won't be mad at me. I choose to be loved and realised that I'm falling in love again. And now I believe it is not just amorousness. It's something stronger. This is a bond for two.
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It truly feels like a spiritual experience reading comments under dark academia playlist videos. Everyone has so much to say and so many experiences to share. Reading people talk about what they know about love from their own experiences really makes me happy. I feel we don't talk enough about love on a deep level these days so, I guess I really appreciate the input given here by others.
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If you were the night sky and your flaws were the clouds, stars, and the moon would you hate yourself because of your flaws? It is indeed the unique flaws that we all posses that makes us, us. Each day the sky gets a new pattern, each day we change. Each change is as beautiful as the previous one, the new clouds might always not be a flaw, it might become a beautiful trait of yours. Love exists in you, in me, and in the sights we see.
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8:52 When I came here, I fell into a big void and what I experienced came to my mind. My disappointments, my waiting, my efforts to find hope, my efforts to hold on to my love... I felt very different while this piano was being played.
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I long to remain here eternally. All of this is healing me from within. I've finally started to see where I'm going wrong in life. I'm not loving myself enough; I'm punishing myself for all the pain inflicted upon me. I'm longing to be loved deeply, yet I strangle myself every night in frustration. I'm in awe of the beauty outside me, but why do I fail to see the sparkle in my own eyes? Why do I deny myself the comfort of a tender touch? Why am I the faint whisper of hope in others' ears, the shoulder to their aching body, the praise to their ugliness, the cold comfortable pillow to their restless nights, but a bed of thorns, the rough beatings to my gentle body, the poison in my food, the anxiety in my heart, the cruel master to myselfβto this scarred little kid?
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@divyanshdubey25
1 month ago
I recently realised, If you aren't happy from within then nothing from outside can make you happy. And to be happy from within, self improvement, working on yourself and being thankful for everything is the key.
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