@egnato1165

3 years ago

Heh. It's funny. Every time I click on a dream pop/shoegaze compilation, I always find a few comments about "finding someone who loves this music as well". In my case, I guess it was the opposite. Last year, I met a girl. Took us a while to really start conversations and get to know each other, but we end up doing so, talking almost on a daily basis. At the time, knowing how my brain processes feelings, I was almost afraid I would start to really like her, and yeah, after a couple months, that's the outcome. I guess she became my "crush" back then, although that fucking word kinda gets on my nerves, but I get it. So yeah, we keep talking, blablabla, and after some time she tells me about this "dream pop" thing. Me, being one of those assholes who thinks everything related to the word "pop" is automatically garbage, I just forget it. I'm into metal, electronic music, maybe even some orchestral pieces, that's it. But at this point, I really, I mean, really like her. I don't use the word "love" easily, but yeah... She kept talking about it, so being the simp I am (Guess I fit the definition), I gave that music genre a try. And fuck's sake, hooked from the first song. First one I heard, Yam Yam, by No Vacation? I love that song. So simple, so relaxed, so hypnotic. I start finding more songs I like, start saving playlists to play on the background while I read at night. And, funniest part, something in my brain is constantly telling me: "You only like this music because you like her. Because you wanna have more in common with her", and I just accept it. Well, fast forward to, uh... Just last month, I think. I finally find the courage to tell her how I feel (I could have easily told her via message or something, but I've made that mistake twice, one of them ended in friendzone, the other one in a relationship which didn't last long and shouldn't have). And, well, let's just say she was incredibly nice about it. Yeah, she rejected me, so to speak, but she didn't even flinch, she was like "Oh, ok. I'm sorry I don't feel the same way about you", and when I told her I would try and move on and forget about this, she just said "Don't worry, take your time". It was technically a "friendzone", but didn't feel like it. We still talk a lot, have our inside jokes and stuff. She's great, even if we don't get in a relationship, I still like to hang out with her. Anyway, so i though that, after the rejection, I would just forget about this music, and move on. Nope. Still hooked. I still listen to some groovy electronic music, some hard metal, but whenever I'm sitting down, specially at night, and my mind feels like having a break for a while, I just click on a random dream pop song from my playlist, close my eyes, and let myself go. Which is... nice. And definitely didn't plan on typing this much. Anyway. Have a nice week, everyone. Hope you're doing great. Edit: Hey, thanks for the kind words everyone. I do write short stories from time to time and I plan on writing a novel, so I have some experience telling stories, but I'm usually bad at telling anecdotes and you guys liked this one! Appreciate it a lot.

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