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Date of upload: May 15, 2023 ^^
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So.. homeless once again, typing this at a shelter on terrible wifi.
I've pretty much given up, my fiance left to go live with her parents who hate me, my family moved away and just left me here, it's taking everything in me not to end it all, I've lost more than anyone should ever have to. Lost my son to organ failure, lost my ride or die bff in a car accident, lost my Nanny to spinal cancer, my pets to either wild animals or old age, and slowly losing all will i have left. To whoever reads this, it's a cry for help. I doubt anyone will care or offer to get me out of this situation, therefore i don't think I'll make it through the week. My son was my life, my Nanny was my support, my fiance was my reason to smile, and my family was my reason to live.
I hope whoever sees this has a better life than i did.
Be safe, stranger.
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Today is 4/25/2024, we broke up in 23 february, and we ve been toghether since 1st of september 2023 .5 months, and you probably think ''it s not even that much'' .There was only 3 nights we didn t sleep toghether, or in a call .5 months and we've been through so much together .5 months and yet not even a quarrel .Everything was perfect, like i was living in a dream .THen suddenly, she lost feelings .I could sense that from a mile away, a week before we broke up .Everytime i asked her, she said she was tired of work.We was at the gym, and i got into a fight with one of her friends .She knew her for like 3 or 4 months .Before going to the gym, i stopped the car in the middle of the road and told her to kiss me if she loves me anymore and if she loves me like she did in the beggining .She did .I came home from the gym, I have apologized to her, and she hit me with a long break up text .That moment i lost it, i had a panic attack, alone, in my room .She don t know .I begged her in tears to not leave and she did, like i was nothing to her .She told me she can t have a releationship right now, and she want to be alone for some long time .2 weeks later, she was with a boy .I came home, i smiled to my mother and told her i m sleepy and i m not hungry, went to my room and burst into tears .She don t know .A day before I got a tattoo, with a quote she gave me on 14 february saying "Kiss me under the stars and make us last forever" .We loved to watch the stars toghether .I promise her i will tattoo a phrase from her favorite movie, Three steps above heaven .I did .She don t know that .She doesen t know anything i m going through right now, after months since we last spoke to eachother .I m trying to get over it, but for some reason i can t.And i m tired .I understand that we will never speak to eachother again, i m never going to hug her, not even for a final time .I just want to forget everything, and be normal again .
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Tomorrow, my mom will have been gone for one month. She passed away 2 weeks before her birthday, and six days after my brotherās. I blame myself, that I could have done more, that I could have stopped it. That day, we worked together, she was happy, I came home with her, and she was excited for her new side job, and I was the last person to see or speak to her that night. I miss her. Sometimes I forget and go in her room to say hi, or go to the pharmacy to bring her snacks and chocolate, but sheās gone. And Iām left alone with all of the expectation, hope, and work. I donāt know how to do this without you Mom, you were always there and helped me throughout my entire life. But Iāll keep my promise. I wonāt give up, Iāll live for you
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Two years ago (2022) I met a boy... he is the cousin of a friend of mine and seriously... he is a dream or was for me...We didn't know each other much, but just looking at him from afar made my heart palpitate, my pupils dilated and I felt butterflies in my stomach so strong that it felt like I was on a Rollercoaster...after a few months, almost at the end of the year, in October. He told me he liked me...and fuck, I swear I almost cried. But I honestly didn't want to ruin the moment, This is the moment I wish would happen all year long. Then, we started dating, on Children's Day (merely "weird" perhaps?). We dated for a whole year.Until November 2023, not long ago... he was always affectionate, companionable, kind, cute, he is literally the boy every girl wants He always made me gifts by hand on all our birthdays (of months of dating) He gave me chocolates because he knew they were my favorite sweets, he called me nicknames that he knew made me look silly...However, this all happened without my parents knowing... and then, they ended up finding out because of an incident at school (the only place where we could see each other, hug each other, and the place where we met...) Unfortunately, my parents' reaction wasn't very good... and we can't be together, but he promised me that he would talk to my father when time passed and in the meantime, , we were going to keep in touch with each other...but...he became strange...he didn't call me by nicknames anymore, the words even if they were written were now cold, he didn't respond to me via messages, And he used work as an excuse...he became distant, and even the I love you that we still said to each other...there was no more love...that's when he decided to break up for good...and after that, a week after , he started dating a friendnof mine...and my heart doesn't accept it...I still cry, suffer, and miss him...Everyone told me he was an asshole to others, he only cared about himself ,But with me....ahh...I was like a queen, and he? He did everything to cheer me up when I was sad, to wipe a smile off my face... he probably does all that to her too, everything what he did to me too... I hope he is very happy with her, and that he gives the moon, the sun, the stars, constellations, the entire universe to her... like one day he promised to give it to me ...
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this playlist sounds like the feelings of watching my younger sister grow up without me or mum - only being able to share pure moments together through a screen. Money is tight, never know when we will gather up as a family again. As an older sister, Iāve always wanted to sit her down and brush her hair while telling her about my day. Due to heavy family issues, we were separated 7 years ago, she was 2 and I was 7. Thereās a lot that goes through whenever I think about her, a little girl who never got to experience girlhood. :(
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To whoever is reading this, I want you to know that youāre incredible, seriously you are. If youāre going through anything right now Iāll be by your side the whole way even if we havenāt met in real life because I care about you. You canāt go through shit on your own love, it slowly kills you and I donāt want to lose such a talented, beautiful, kind, and amazing person. I donāt want you to lose yourself because of a few words that someone has said to you because Iāve been there and you feel absolutely hopeless but love, try your hardest to escape this darkness and look for the light. Itās okay to cry, itās okay to be upset but itās never okay to suffer in silence. Talk to someone love, talk to me, Iām right here. Ending things is not worth it babes Iām so proud of how far youāve come and how youāve stayed so strong through everything thatās happened to you. You deserve to feel loved and cared for. This is a safe place angel, I love you more than words can describe. You honestly deserve the world gorgeous youāre more than enough I promise. Donāt beat yourself up over your regrets and past mistakes because everyday is a new day. Donāt let your intrusive thoughts get to you, you are worthy, you are NOT useless, you are NOT ugly, you are NOT fat or too skinny, you are NOT unwanted, you are NOT a problem, you are NOT annoying, you are NOT dumb, Iām so glad that YOU exist and that you are here on the faces of this earth. Donāt give up on life just because you think it is for the best, itās not trust me. Donāt spend your life wishing you were someone else because YOU, YES YOU are one in a million, you are worth more than any type of currency in this world. I need you to keep going in life and donāt give up, for me, please promise me :). I wish I could hug you right now and tell you that it is going to be okay, I would much rather have you ranting to me for hours than losing you, youāre the most precious person in the world, I need you to believe me. Your feelings, opinions, and thoughts are all valid my angel. Donāt be afraid to use your voice and stand up for yourself. You know you have some great music taste, right? Music helps you get through anything, am I right? You relate to those lyrics, donāt you? Thatās okay beautiful, you will always be worth it. Your smile brightens my day instantly love, I hope you know that. You are not a burden, I love you forever. Iām so sorry that no one has noticed that you cry yourself to sleep each night, Iām so sorry that no one hears you, Iām so sorry that youāve lost yourself because of everyone around you. I hate to see you so hurt and broken, I wish I could take that pain away from you. Take a deep breath, you're doing so well. Drink some water and eat my angel, take care of yourself and your mental health.
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We were an amazing couple.. always communicating and loving each other, he was so gentle.
He started having a sharp pain in his chest and stomach area. Went to the doctors and was only asked questions and did little blood work and gave him a prescription without a proper check. He was misdiagnosed and a little less than a month my baby had a horrible sharp pain again and was rushed to the hospital in which he passed away 2 days later. He was cold, hungry, dehydrated and in pain the whole time. My love didnāt deserve the ignorance and racism given by the doctors. He was only 17.
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Its hurts to think about how now someone else will feel her warmth , the pressure of her lips , the joy of looking at her laugh , they'll be able to comfort the person that I'm in love with while she fell out of love with me ..........
And even after all this i cant help but wish her the best knowing I still love her ............
Love really is the worst isnt it ..
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El pasado 4 de noviembre (2023) mi hermano Raul falleciĆ³ en un accidente. Ese dĆa perdĆ un pedazo de mi alma, una parte de mi corazĆ³n. Mi mundo y el mundo entero perdiĆ³ a un gran ser humano: un excelente doctor, amante de los gatos, un conductor de motocicleta altamente responsable. Un dĆa antes lo vi y casi ni platicamos. No hay dĆa que no me arrepienta por no haber hablado mĆ”s con el, por no pasar mĆ”s tiempo con el; el dolor es tan grande que a veces siento que mi corazĆ³n se va a partir. Te extraƱo Raul. Si cuando yo muera, en donde estĆ©, me dieran la oportunidad de renacer, sin dudarlo ni un momento, pedirĆa que fueras mi hermano otra vez. Te amo Raul y seguramente nos volveremos a ver.
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I walked away from the love of my life. He was my one true love. It was the single most hardest thing I could've ever done but it felt like something I needed to do. 4 years together and I felt the only option I had left was to leave. It's been about a year since we split. I tried finding love in someone else, but it only left me feeling more empty and sadder. He tried finding love in someone else, but he had reached out to me. I don't think he fulfilled with the love he tried finding in someone else either. I did this to us. I let go. If it's real love, please hold onto it and work at it. I wish I would have. I'm leaving in a few weeks to the military. I felt like I had nothing left keeping me here. He reached out to me and told me he doesn't want me to leave. I would give anything to go back and stop myself from leaving that day. But it's too late. Don't let it be too late for your love with the person you love. They are worth the pain, the struggle. What you built wasn't for nothing. It's better to work through whatever it is then wake up and realize everyday is going to be a struggle, is going to be painful without them. Keep your love sacred, special and safe.
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Yesterday, Dec 13, I lost the girl that I loved. We haven't talked for a couple of weeks, she broke my heart really hard, and I just stop replying her messages, I couldn't. I remember that the last time she texted me was "I'm so sorry" and "Please don't hate me". I didn't hate her, I was in love with her, but she didn't want to stay with me anymore, so all I could do was get away to not hurt myself even more.
She died yesterday in a car accident, and I could never say that I forgive her and that I never hated her. Now she's gone and there's nothing I can do anymore. I'm taking this guilt to my grave.
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@Mikki_lin
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I am haunted by thoughts that I will not pass the exam and disappoint my parents and teachers at school. I want to cry, I'm so weak because I can't cope.. I don't leave a text about my problems on the Internet, but can I trust you and do it at least once here? This place seems safe (I am surprised that so many people have written me a text as a support. I am pleased that there are kind people who give advice or just support. Its very nice) thanks to all the people who wrote comforting comments for me under this comment
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