@sayuri3342

9 months ago

I have never felt enough, ever since I can remember I feel the guilt of my existence, I always feel that I have to prove that I am allowed to exist, I always feel that I am so replaceable, I always feel that I must do something so that others can love me, I always feel I feel a burden, I always feel angry with myself because I don't give everything I have to people who have done so much for me, I have never had the opportunity to feel accepted, I have never been able to feel good about myself because I feel that what I do is never enough. It scares me so much to think that I will be left alone that I don't even try to get close to people anymore, it scares me every day that everything can end in a moment and I will be left with nothing or nobody even though I deserve it because I have never been enough, I could never be someone important, because totally replaceable, because I constantly see that everyone has so much success, happiness, things in their life and when I turn to look at myself I only see failures, hindrances and shame, I have never deserved everything I have, because I never give enough, because I I am not enough and that is why people change me for better people, because spending time with me is not worth it, because being someone close to me is a waste of time, because loving me is a waste of love, because I have never been enough for no one, because I never should have existed.

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