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0:00 Lana Del Rey - Yes To Heaven
03:35 Taylor Swift - Enchanted
09:27 Girl In Red - We Fell In Love In October
12:34 Lord Huron - The Night We Met
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I’ve known him for 10 years, I’ve been liking him for 6. First love? I’m not sure. But for the past 6 years, every love song was all about him.
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We met in 8th grade, 2016. I remember being this rebellious preteen; always breaking dress code, coming in late, always walking alone, and just your typical 'angsty' and cringey middle schooler. He was the exact opposite; outstanding grades, kind of a dork, anime and games were his life, and just your typical asian guy. No one wouldve guessed our connection was going to be so strong, the way it was. I remember he ran all the way back to me to give me back a simple blue pen. We sat together in english and history AND P.E. As you can imagine, those instantly became my favorite classes because we'd talk and laugh together. In pe he became my cheerleader almost; always rooting for me to keep running and such lmao. One night i finally decided "okay, hes my crush. Im gonna let this happen and im gonna let myself fall." And after 3 months, became 4, then 5, then a whole school year. He'd walk me to where I waited for my ride to get me, we'd look back at eachother when walking away from class, catch glances at eachother from across the room. Oh, but the jealousy that would settle in, held such a grip on me. Thankfully i never let it become so obvious in front of him. But wouldnt you be jealous and sad of someone you really liked showing interest in someone else? The first time he got in trouble was with me, i led us down this route we werent supposed to take (around the gym) and walked to class. And we got caught but let off with a warning. I caught him smiling to himself and we both just laughed. He'd come visit me at my table during lunch just for an excuse to say hi or tease me. Eventually we would continue talking on intagram and i was over the moon because now i could be close to him afterschool. We'd stay up talking for hours but one thing about him was he would jump to so many different topics in a conversation. He'd use these dorky pick up lines on me and cute emotes and then the next would be "so i ate steak and eggs today" LIKE WAIT GO BACK WE WERE SO GOOD. i asked him out to the end of the school year dance for 8th graders and he said yes :). "I can tell you wanted to ask me" Like shut up and take my hand -.-. And let me tell you I WAS SUCH A WANNABE TSUNDERE so me falling apart for this guy meant a lot to me xp. I remember dancing with him, being too shy to get on the dance floor as he danced with some of his friends..i shouldve taken that dance. But by the end of the night, he took my hand for the first time <3 and walked me all the way to my ride. And just before letting me go, he pulled me in for a hug and held me so close i felt my entire soul slipping. Months after dreaming about this moment with him, my slow build romance, and to this day i find myself smiling and falling all over again on that car ride home. The last day of school came and we hugged again and i gave him a birthday present that same day. I remember him being so surprised at my hand drawn Ahri from League (even tho i hated the game xp) and the stuffed lion i got him from Disneyland. During summer break, we'd text all the time, nearly everyday, and he'd told me nightmares he had and fears of losing me. Just knowing how he was this stone cold, dorky, asian guy, to now becoming so vulnerable with me; sending me songs that remind him of me, using pick up lines of me, to telling me "I dont know what to do. I want to hold you again. I just some something to hold." And the response i gave, omg i wanted to slap myself. "Well you have your pillow with you? Cuddle with that maybe?" 2023 sienna wouldve bitch slapped 2017 me. Because that sent him to bed right after :(. High school orientation came and we saw eachother again. Each of us smiling so wide. I remember before parting to go be back with my friends, he held onto my hand before letting it slip away with me..Little did i know that was the last time i would ever see him. He would end up going to different high schools than me. The first day of freshman year i was devastated. I remember crying after school. The day came when i said "Ryan, i like you a lot. Dont you feel the same way for me too? You say all of these things, do all of this stuff, and yet why?" And he said "i dont know..I dont know sienna." I felt cheated. A whole year spent on what i thought was a waste of time. I was furious and heartbroken. So much that i deleted out chat, everything. And stopped talking to him for weeks...the weeks woukd turn into months and ofc i never blocked him. I would jump from relationship into relationship since then. 2019 i felt this immense guilt in my heart thinking "maybe he said it to shed me from possible heartache. If we ever date and we broke up, he would lose me." And yet he still lost me in the end.. I was always the one going back to him for small convos. We'd catch up, see how we were doing and ofc he was always jumping from topic to topic. Fast forward 2023, we still never talked about it. That day. What we had. How i left things. They always say you know you were good to them once they keep coming back. Ive always had exes coming back to me. And yet he was the only one i ever ran back to first. I truly believe he was the one that got away. And the fact I still think about him to this day after so many years; makes me pray that one day - we'll find our way back to eachother and Ill get to apologize and tell him i was wrong for what I did to him. And that he meant far more to me than anything else in my entire life. Ryan, I doubt he will ever find this. But know that I hope you are doing well and that life has treated you kindly since me leaving. You will forever cherish and hold a special place in my heart and soul.
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100 reasons to stay alive:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you
75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships.
76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person.
77. Joy and happiness in the little things.
78. The power to inspire others.
79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression.
80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life.
81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet.
82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family.
83. Learn new things and develop new skills.
84. Create a legacy that will outlive you.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Cuddles
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person. Life is so beautiful. l love you <3
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I heard the first 5 seconds and already fell in love with this Playlist 🩷😭
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He had a place in my heart no one else could have.
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she was so pretty , and smart, and I cried. not over her, but over myself. I didn’t want to like girls.
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I wrote about 3 books just for him. A poem, a little story, a message, that I want to say it loud to him, but all I can do just write. Then, I decided to stop writing. Just like I decided to stop loving him. He was special to me.
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I was in my sophomore year of college, and we first met over the summer at a state carnival. I went with thirty other people for this joint organization hangout planned by the most popular kids in my universities department. Out of 20 other boys he stood out, not just to me but to everyone. He was a breath of fresh air from all the carbon copy guys at UW. He was four years older and in his graduate program. He was the kind of guy that everyone fell in love with, he was gorgeous first of all but he had this warm, charismatic aura that drew people in. Random senior citizens would approach him for help because he just had such a kind look. He was goofy, pioneering, generous, and overall such a hard worker.
We officially met a couple months later at a Halloween party and hit it off. We wore matching costumes by coincidence (we showed up in business formal and said our costumes were "drunk Japanese salarymen" ) and told everyone at that party we had actually known each other for years and planned this in advance. We hit it off and spent the entire night getting to know each other. He was, at the time, the most interesting person I met. We started talking after that night. Humor, tastes, interests, it was all there. The only differences we had seemed to complement each other, for the first time I learned how it felt to love someone. I knew infatuation but it was the first time my mere existence felt validated. The thought of him alone motivated me to be a better person, to work harder, study harder and really explore myself. For the first time, I wasn't seen as just a pretty face. He pushed me to pursue my real passions and introduced me to mentors, different creative programs, and boot camps.
The next few months were an absolute dream, I saw every date, every phone call, and study session as if it were a movie. Everywhere we went the lighting was pensive, the right soundtrack was playing, and the shot composition was immaculate. I saw the world through warm grainy film and I still remember it that way. It inflated my ego to know that a guy who could have any girl he wanted, decided to be with me. It also inflated my ego to hear people say things like, "They suit each other," or "It makes sense he's dating her"
Sometime later, things grew stale. He owned this start-up company that blew up overnight and all his attention was on it. He eventually decided I was no longer a priority, I don't blame him. There was nothing I could do to help him, and there wasn't anything I could give him to lift his mood.
"I wish you were older" was the last thing he said, I broke his heart by saying something along the lines of "I only see you as a learning experience." The whole car ride was silent. After he dropped me off we never spoke again. I was too stubborn to apologize, tell him that it was a lie and that I saw the potential for more, and that I only said that to protect myself. Two weeks later, he dropped out of grad school and moved to LA. In even less time, his birth mother got sick and he moved to Korea to be with her.
This was such a blow, I always thought he would just be there, and that I could apologize anytime I saw him again in person. For a year, I couldn't go to parties without sobbing. I couldn't walk around Chinatown at night, and I couldn't ever enter movie theaters. I obsessively replayed our last conversation in my head and thought of what I could've said or done instead.
It's been a few years now, and I wasted some time becoming the woman he wanted me to be just to spite him. I've dated around but I couldn't ever find that same warmth with anyone else. I always found myself comparing my partners to him or trying to find people who resembled him. Most people remember their first love fondly because it's exhilarating and youth is fleeting. You don't ever really forget, you just start to think of them less and less. The older you get, the more jaded you become. Eventually, you will meet better people and learn what proper love really is outside the butterflies and rose-colored glasses.
At random times like these when I stumble upon a random playlist I'll remember him and remind myself how much I grew since then. I don't really miss him anymore, I'm just grateful
edit: Omgg, everyone is so sweet! I'm glad I was able to entertain everyone who gave this a read. We did end up reconnecting a few weeks ago. It was casual, we just caught up. He's off still grinding work and traveling the world like he always wanted to do. I think we both know there's no chance of getting back together, he's over it, I'm also very much over it. We never addressed how things ended or got closure from each other, I guess we both didn't feel the need to.
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this is cringe but i just want to write this
he was silent and soft spoken but when he speaks, i don't hear anything else but his soft voice. even if he is quiet most of the time, when he leads, he shines, puts a lot of effort in everything he does.when i first heard him laugh, i felt like i was listening to the most beautiful sound i have ever heard. i was enchanted when i first heard him sing if feels as if he is the only person in the room. his voice was soft and gentle just like the way he is. his smiling eyes makes me freeze in place, the way it glows in the sunlight. every time our eyes met, i don't want to look away.
when i found out he dreams of someone else, i tried to convince myself it is just a silly crush a naive 7th grader has. i can't bear to look at him suddenly becoming lively and i cant bear to hear the way his laughter sounds different when he's with that girl. but at the same time, im glad see him slowly coming out of his shell and becoming the happiest person. and thats the last time i ever saw him.
these unspoken feelings are kept in the back of my mind for years and the song he sang before just reminded me of how beautiful he is.
i moved on but i will never forget the happy memories i had with him
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I've fallen in love with the concept of a person. Not a real person or even a fictional character, but the concept of someone who doesn't exist in any way shape or form. I have not met my first love, but I hope I will in my next life. Maybe my concept of a person will be real, then.
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Since everyone is writing their first love story i am going to do it too.
So first of all, this guy I met in 8th grade was known as the "unusual kid" or the "loner". I never knew why he was called that. He just seemed to me as an misunderstood kid, that needed a friend. So i befriended him. "Wanna go and chat with us?" I asked him. He was sitting in the corner, all alone with his book. He smiled at me and asked "are u sure I can chat with you guys?". "Of course, why shouldn't you?" I responded. His mouth brightend that day. Since then we were inseparable.
2 Years later we're still best friends, but then came the 13th of December.
We were laying in his bed and we talked about star constellations and many theories about the universe. "Why aren't we together?" He just asked. I looked furious at him. "Uh idk, we're best friends isn't that enough?" I said to him.
He looked disappointed as I said that. "Are you ok mag, what are u going to say?" I asked. "Well, would you like to be together with me?" I was shoked. He was my best friend and I thought about everything. Will it destroy everything if we did? Is he the right one? But then I realized, nothing speaks against a relationship. He was kind, mature, sweet and such a good human. And after all, i had a slight crush on him.
And I said "yes, i would like to be."
And boom now we're 2 months in a relationship and it's perfect. My dream relationship happened. I love this boy with all my heart. Everytime I go to his house I hear over 30 times a day "i love you" he respects my needs, buys me dark chocolate when I am on my period ,respects me when I need time alone and buys me a pink rose on valentine's day. Two 15-year olds who need to fit in in this horrible world, make this world shine a bit more every day. <3
I love you
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He was the first person I actually fell for I hope he knows this because I truly loved him not only because of his looks but because of his personality. His smile, his laugh, his jokes lighten my day, he's perfect everything I've been looking for and everything I've ever wanted but I met him at the wrong timing, when I first saw him I slowly fell in love. Everything abt him amazes me, he's good at everything he's just perfect in every way possible. I hope he knows that he's perfect in my eyes and in every way and if I'm gonna be honest rn no words can explain how I like him
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the fact that he never knew he was my first love
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For those who is listening to this music, you’re not alone, you’re so beautiful and deserve a beautiful life. If you want to cry, just cry and tomorrow it will be a day full of sunshine. Don’t let those negative thought kill you. You’re strong!!!
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okay this is going to sound so stupid, but i’m gonna tell y’all a story abt the prettiest boy i have ever seen and how he was just out of my reach. i was at theme park at the time. me and my friend just got off a ride and we were going to get our stuff out of the lockers. as we were approaching the lockers i saw a group of teenage boys around my age. they were all good looking but i didn’t think that much of it. i went to the locker i rented out and got my stuff out. my friend was having trouble getting her stuff out so i went over to help her. and that’s when i saw him. surrounded by the good looking boys. but he was different, more lyrical, poetic, i felt like i could write a whole book about him and never get bored. he had soft chestnut curls that fell in beautiful fluffiness around his face. his sun kissed skin sparkled in the light. and oh my god. his eyes. his beautiful, stunning, curious eyes. they were the same green as a piece of glistening sea glass. god i couldn’t stop looking at them. then he locked those indescribable eyes on mine. my heart stopped, my breath hitched, i seemed to stop working completely. he must’ve thought i was weird looking at him with that much awe and intensity but at that time i didn’t care. all i could think about was how i loved him. i loved him so much that my heart throbbed. our lives seemed to flash before my eyes. us holding hands, his warm embrace, his loving stare, the little handmade presents i would give him, us baking cookies, play fighting, going to college together, getting married, our little brown haired green eyed kids laughing and running around, our last breaths together. i seemed to be in a trance as i helped my friend get her stuff out of the locker. i wanted to know everything about him. the sound of his name against my lips, if he was good with kids, his laughter, his smile, everything. what i felt that day, i had never felt that before, so i knew it was love at first sight. i kept looking at him and he kept catching me, it was like a game. i was so nervous, cause what was special about my brown eyes and auburn hair? like there is no way he felt the same about me. then when i tried to steal another glance at him him and his friends were walking away. i felt a pounding in my heart i wanted to go talk to him, i wanted to meet him, at least get his phone number. i could’ve bumped into him on accident and asked him if he was random name and could’ve started a conversation. but no, i was too scared. what if he thought i was weird or what if his friends started to snicker. i regret not saying anything SO MUCH. if only i opened my stupid mouth. great, now i’m crying. you probably think i’m really weird for loving someone i just looked at, but i don’t care. i love him and will never stop. even if i don’t know anything about him. thank you for listening to my rambling and if you are somehow that random boy that i saw at universal studios in orlando, fl, on thursday february 17th 2023, please try to reach out to me.❤️
edit: y’all are so nice ty for the support 😭(also would y’all be interested in a mini paragraph of my story?)
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i dont think im in love with him anymore, but the feelings that used to tingled my heart whenever hes around was good while it lasted
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I don't have a first love yet .....only got crushes , some because of looks ,some because of humour and some because of personality but i never felt what lana expresses through her voice and words .....hope i could also find something like this feeling
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I'm in love with her for 6 years now on. I used to watch her from the school hallways and she used to stand near the windows and give me a smile. I wanted to keep her to myself and give my all to love her but her dreams are huge and i respect it very much . Now she lives far away from me . I hope she's living her best life . I just wished to be a part of it but maybe it is the way it is.
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Lyrics-,
[YES TO HEAVEN]
If you dance, I'll dance
And if you don't, I'll dance anyway
Give peace a chance
Let the fear you have fall away
I've got my eye on you
I've got my eye on you
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
If you go, I'll stay
You come back, I'll be right here
Like a barge at sea
In the storm, I stay clear
'Cause I've got my mind on you
I've got my mind on you
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
If you dance, I'll dance
I'll put my red dress on, get it on
And if you fight, I'll fight
It doesn't matter now, it's all gone
I've got my mind on you
I got my mind on you
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
Say yes to Heaven
Say yes to me
I've got my eye on you
I've got my eye on you, mm
I've got my eye on you
I've got my eye on you
[ENCHANTED]
There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is, it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?"
'Cross the room your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is, I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up
2 AM, who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
And now I'm pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say, "Hey"
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is, I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
That this night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again
These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
[WE FELL IN LOVE IN OCTOBER]
Smoking cigarettes on the roof
You look so pretty and I love this view
We fell in love in October
That's why, I love fall
Looking at the stars
Admiring from afar
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my girl
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my world
My world, my world, my world
You will be my girl
Smoking cigarettes on the roof
You look so pretty and I love this view
Don't bother looking down
We're not going that way
At least I know, I am here to say
We fell in love in October
That's why, I love fall
Looking at the stars
Admiring from afar
(My girl, my girl, my girl)
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my girl
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my girl
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my girl
My girl, my girl, my girl
You will be my world
My world, my world, my world
You will be my girl
THE NIGHT WE MET
I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I've been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met
And then I can tell myself
What the hell I'm supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh, take me back to the night we met
When the night was full of terrors
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Oh, take me back to the night we met
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met.....
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@nikhilaaahhh
1 month ago
First love is not the first person you love, first love is the person who makes you feel what love is🤌🤍
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