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00:00 a story I rarely tell
02:26 my first admission
03:39 a troubled history
07:45 the other people there
10:02 what happens after?
12:22 my 2019 admission
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
"Half of us are gay, Susan!" š I loved that comeback.
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I lost my little sister in 2020. She was one of the few members in our family that we didn't think we needed to check in on. The "People will notice. People will miss you." line is so, so real
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i was sent to a mental hospital, and all of the patients were really nice. The nurses, however, clearly viewed us as sick and hardly even people. I wasnt clearly struggling, and one of the nurses looked at me and said 'it must be hard to be surrounded by all this sickness.' When I was interviewing for partial the lady who was interviewing me treated me like a child. People really dont understand that a lot of the times its not the patients who are the scariest part about psych wards.
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āSeeking help doesnāt make you a burden, it doesnāt make you a attention seeker your not being dramatic or over sensitive what your feeling is real its sad and its scaryā Really made me burst into tears
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This may have been one of your best and most important videos. Youāre an incredible person, Illy. ā¤
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My great grandmother had schizophrenia and she spent her life in and out of hospitals. She had horrible treatment, and our family believes my great aunt was fathered not by my great-grandfather, but a worker at one of the hospitals. She was a wonderful woman according to my mum, not violent just troubled. She just heard voices, she loved her family. She passed when I was a baby, but Iāve been told her funny stories my whole life. Iām proud to be her relative, what a strong woman she was and how the cards she was dealt were so cruel.
She spent her last 10 years of life hospital free, comfortable and surrounded by family.
Iāve been quite depressed lately, and I remind myself of how my family has fought through mental health again and again. She found happiness, and so can I. No shame in being admitted, but I know thereās strength within me.
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As a survivor of attempted suicide, I can really relate. Iāve stugged with depression since I was ten and suicide since eleven. Always know that people do care, and donāt be afraid to call 988 (aka the mental health line) and talk to a professional about anything you need. There are always people that love you. Stay strongā„ļø
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as someone who ended up in the psych ward after a seriously damaging suicide attempt, I thank you, illy. keep spreading your kindness.
edit: thank you all for your concern, i'm doing much better now! remember that you are loved. ā¤
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As someone whoās also been admitted several times, itās very comforting in a strange way to know that I am not alone and that one of my favorite YouTubers has a similar experience to me. I know this must be extremely difficult to talk about, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing and making so many people feel less alone. This feels very de-stigmatizing and again, (I know I sound like a broken record,) thank you, you amazing person!
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I love watching Kallmekrisās videos of going into āhaunted buildingsā like the old asylums because she always shows so much respect and compassion for the people who were taken there.
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Remember tho, itās only been around 13 years or so that many pscychiatric hospitals stopped treating patients like animals. Around the 80ās - 90ās In Brazil for example, a man called AustregĆ©silo Carrano Bueno was locked up in a psych ward by his parents for smoking weed and was abused by the staff. He went through shock therapy, he was not allowed to visit his family, he was beaten, thrown in the solitary on many occasions, given medicine he was not prescribed for etc. This is an actual event that happened to an actual human being less than 50 years ago. His story was documented in a movie called āBicho de 7 CabeƧasā so if anyone wants to learn more, thatās a nice way to go. He also published a book called āCanto dos Malditosā, so thatās also a really good way to learn more abt his case.
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āseeking help doesnāt make you a burden, it doesnāt make you an attention seeker. You are not being overdramatic or too sensitiveā
thank you, thank you, thank you. Cried through the second half of the video, currently still crying. Thank you
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I almost cried when you said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know." I needed to hear that!
Thank you for helping to destigmatize mental health hospitals, and for having the strength to tell your story! You seem like an amazing person! ā¤ļø
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This is an INCREDIBLE video. I went to a pediatric psych hospital after a s*icide attempt in 2008, and I still remember it fondly. Thank you for spreading this word.
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My first intake, the nurse kept demanding to know why I was crying the whole time and wouldn't accept "I'm scared" as an answer. Ducking Susan.
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I hate them being called insane asylums. It makes them seem scary and a horrible place. I had to spend quite a bit of time in a mental health hospital and for the first few weeks, I was terrified because I kept thinking to myself "everyone here is crazy and could lash out at any moment". In reality, they are just like regular hospitals but for people with some issues. No psychopathic cannibals strapped to chairs or screaming people ripping themselves apart. Just a place to help people get better
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"if i wasnt clinically troubled before i definitely was now" i feel that. i went to a GOOD hospital and i still came out more traumatized than before.
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I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression and as a result I have been to the psych ward a couple of times. It was tough being away from the people I loved and in the end I became stronger than I was at the start of my sojourn in the psych ward. I just wanted to give my thanks to Illy for shining some light to people who only think of psych wards in the context of horror movies. Thank you for being such an incredible person Illy
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Yeah but also the truama hmm let me list a few of my experiences :D
* Restraints for no good reason
* Booty juice
* The screams
* Not being allowed to speak
* Told Iām faking for attention
* Talking shit about me with other staff IN FRONT OF ME
* Watching fights
* All the codes
* People sharing their trauma giving me anxiety and fears
* Being put on 1 to 1 for no reason
* Locked in the padded room for a seizure attack
* Almost being attacked many times
* Leaving me on the floor alone during seizureās thinking i want attention
* Watching someone attempt and staff had to perform life saving measures as paramedics ran in and we were shoved into another room
* Stripped and searched on the weekly and just randomly
* Alarm sounds and staff running ro other units not saying what was going on - almost daily
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Skyland
* Not allowed to ho to therapy, locked in my room
* Stripped and patted down
* Being refused medical care
Anchor
* Being dragged across the floor
* Physically attacked
* Verbally abused by staff
* Told i was faking
* Far to small food rations
* Denied to use the bathroom
* Rats and shit everywhere
* Watching kids punch through a wall to escape
* Staff Giving wrong dosing of my meds and sometimes refusing to give me them all together
Rose Crance - best of them all but shitty still
* left alone on the floor during seizures
* Being SAād and everyone thinks I lied
* Refused medical care
* Told i was faking
* Watching bad fights
* Being forced to say chants before doing anything
* Forced to shower in front of staff (they would stare at me)
General ER
* being ignored
* Waiting for hours
* Denied anything to do
* Doing nothing while i screamed and cried in the corner
* Not listening at all
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@samantha14843
1 year ago
When Illy said, "People will care if you disappear one day, they will notice, they will miss you more than you will ever know" I actually burst into tears, I really needed to hear that.
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