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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Apr 17, 2024 ^^
Rating : 4.971 (3/417 LTDR)
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Everyday, I tell myself, "I can do better". I avoid one problem today, but it hunts me tomorrow. The past has threw grudges into my head that when I try to forget, I can only remember. The more I try and tackle it, the more it tries to consume me, for I'm merely a smaller part of something much larger. When I try acknowledging my actions, one part of my mind thinks otherwise, and that confusion throws me off-balance. Am I someone who deserves life?, what am I doing wrong?, is life even.. what I thought it was? Anyway, I knew Suicide wasn't the answer, and when it came in-between life or death, life really is something I had to be patient with., no matter what happened, because a book doesn't end halfway. When I wanted to be someone/something that stood out from others, I knew there was someone who thought the same. Everything I did, I knew someone had already done, and I no-longer feel special, but feel as if I'm just an ant, following in another ant's footsteps, headed toward the same miserable path, with the end of the road being death's door. No-matter what I accomplish, I'll never find what I truly want, everything's just canon at one point. I have but no choice to accept this reality, since I can't live the impossible, and wait for death to come to me, that's just Life. Everything I'm saying right now, no one cares, and it's not like it'll change my problems, it'll only cause more. Hate me, though the both of us are of the same species and are both headed toward what's unknown. Let's pretend this never happened, laugh, drink and eat, influence others, keep our thoughts to ourselves, and die with no one in our debt., let them figure it out themselves, and they'll repeat the endless loop, just as our mother and father hoped to do for us. Rather keep it peaceful, than let them hurt their selves, only to blame others around them for the less. Why?, Because it's hopeless... I'm glad I'm not Immortal because I won't get to see another sad ending.
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We live eachday, a cycle until you draw your last breathe, yet i cant find the right people that love me, i wanted to be a footballer but i dont think thati can make it that far, each night i picture myself playing professionally until i wake up for it to be a dream, i dont know what to do anymore, no matter how hard i try to to my school work its too hard even with lessons, i dont think I'll ever be who I'll ever want to be in life, i just dont know what to do, i listen to this type of music bec im lonely and got no one to really talk to, i only smile at everything while my pain and sadness just creep up on me each and everyday, i almost committed suicide once, but that wont be any better bec i wont go to heaven so i just exist watching everyone being happy😪😓💔
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