ImmersiveAmbientModecolor: #ae8f6c (color 1)
Video Format : 22 (720p) openh264 ( https://github.com/cisco/openh264) mp4a.40.2 | 44100Hz
Audio Format: Opus - Normalized audio
PokeTubeEncryptID: dbcb0220d7c67e3b9b93883df080ef5e35f125a58ee875311f2da9f344a005ec62357ecd791ac3dac716c413c1e83a19
Proxy : usa-proxy.poketube.fun - refresh the page to change the proxy location
Date : 1714319946535 - unknown on Apple WebKit
Mystery text : anNYemZRWEpuSG8gaSAgbG92ICB1IHVzYS1wcm94eS5wb2tldHViZS5mdW4=
143 : true
24,745 Views ā¢ Apr 21, 2023 ā¢ Click to toggle off description
LISTEN HERE: ffm.to/7k9j7z8
Stream MOMMY ISSUES HERE - laylo.com/julespaymer/i5uAU
BE FIRST FOR TICKETS HERE: laylo.com/julespaymer/1uWHu
GET MERCH: laylo.com/julespaymer/NGCLA
ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ JULES PAYMER ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦
Spotify: ffm.to/7k9j7z8
Instagram: instagram.com/julespaymer
Twitter: twitter.com/julespaymer
YouTube: youtube.com/julespaymer
TikTok: tiktok.com/@julespaymer
Directed and edited by Talia Stewart
Cinematography by Kevin Clark
1st AC: Jake Wolfert
Color by Connor Bailey
Talent: Hazel McFall, Serenity Lindemann
LYRICS:
Sheās pretty
And always says please
Thereās not a bone in her body thatās mean
Itās a pity
Cause I was 15
The last time that she felt like me
Bet her parents tell her theyāre so proud
I donāt ever really hear that now
She lives like a ghost
In my childhood home
Sheās setting the table
While wearing my clothes
Yeah maybe Iāve lost it
sheās everywhere I go
I think Iām being haunted
By the daughter that my mother wanted
I used to steal
My brotherās clothes
Wish our mother wouldāve bought me those
Instead of a dress
Like one that she owned
Swear she wanted me to be her clone
Iām so sorry she doesnāt exist
Sheās not real but damn it, it feels like she is
She lives like a ghost
In my childhood home
Sheās setting the table
While wearing my clothes
Yeah maybe Iāve lost it
sheās everywhere I go
I think Iām being haunted
By the daughter that my mother wanted
Just like me but sheās dishonest
The daughter that my mother wanted
She lives like a ghost
In my childhood home
Sheās setting the table
While wearing my clothes
Yeah maybe Iāve lost it
sheās everywhere I go
I think Iām being haunted
By the daughter that my mother wanted
Views : 24,745
Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Apr 21, 2023 ^^
Rating : 4.95 (19/1,493 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2023-12-04T02:51:53.379366Z
See in json
YouTube Comments - 164 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
Man, the story telling in this. This so perfectly captures the strange nostalgia of being that kid who doesn't fit in, knowing that something isn't right with the way you feel about yourself, but not knowing why or how. I didn't know what dysphoria was, or why I was feeling it, or that I would be able to put a name to the feeling. I just thought I was really awful at being a girl.
Thank you for writing this song. There's a side of being trans that people don't talk about enough, and this hits home so hard.
77 |
loved sharing our story together <3
32 |
Thank you for this song it is so healing for childhood me who felt like I had to be the perfect "daughter" and couldn't express myself
79 |
this made me actually lose my shit. Iāve never been able to articulate this part of being trans. The daughter that my mother wanted<3 happy to honor her today. Thank you
80 |
So freaking good!! I love the storytelling.
āsheās like me but sheās dishonestā chills!
10 |
Hayley Williams shared your song! Itās so nice
8 |
you are so special as an artist! i canāt wait for you to blow up because you can verbalize this huge mutual hurt we all collectively have from our mothers and just this full experience especially for the queers!!!
27 |
I'm so glad Hayley brought me here. This is astonishingly good. I'm sobbing. Wow.
7 |
Beyond honored to bring this to life with you both ā¤
17 |
Nothing is more powerful than giving a voice to those who canāt. The way youāve been able to articulate and express these kinds of feelings on these specific subject matters that are so hard to find-. It means the absolute world to me, you have no idea how incredible it feels to have music like this. Thank you so much, Iām so excited to see what else you create over the years.
8 |
your voice and mikiās fit together so well! love this songš„ŗš
7 |
Hi I'm gender fluid /trans and i was also adopted after my moms miscarriage and can def tell she would of rather had her, relate to all of this.
16 |
I loved all of this. But those last four shots were just achingly beautiful
3 |
not only is this song amazing, but the video is fucking perfect
10 |
I have two daughters that I never want to feel like Im the obstacle standing between who they really are, but the spring board to their truth. This is heartbreaking as fuck.
2 |
I found this on Hayley Williamsā story. This song is so beautiful. The lyrics are so strong. ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
6 |
Oh Iām never recovering from this am I. Shit well thatās a convo for my therapist and I. Beautiful song.
3 |
Thank you for articulating this. I feel seen
4 |
This song gives me chills omg it's so beautiful and the song and the video portraits the feelings so well it feels so realš.
5 |
@LeonSunderland
1 year ago
This is amazing. As a trans man this hits so hard for me. The story telling is perfect and shows exactly how it feels knowing your mother will always miss that little girl that you arenāt anymore
65 |