@EniWear

11 months ago

31/05/2023 Im 16 years old, 10th grade, im in love with a girl from 11th grade, we ve been talking to each other since February, when i first met her, i was in love from first sight, it was the first time i ever experienced true love, i fell in love so hard. I started searching for her socials, so many friends of mine helped me to find her and after like 3-4 days i finally found her. Ive been struggling to text her for several days, until my friends encouraged me to finally do it. 9th February was the day i texted her, we had such a great conversation, we spent almost the whole night talking about everything. I fell in love even more and started changing as a person, to be a better version of myself for her, i started picking up good habits, some of her hobbies even, like reading. She is a huge fan of Taylor Swift and i started listening to her too. We had a very good relationship since February, but recently ive been getting tired more and more. She stopped being that active in conversations, i was trying so much but it was all useless. She doesnt seem to want to talk anymore and it hurts so much. I often think that it may be cuz of her exams, but im not really sure if they are playing any role here. I sure do hope something changes after her exams end, but with everyday it seems to be unlikely. Rn im being ignored on some socials and idk if we will ever talk like we used to do. She asked me a month ago if i can dance waltz with her and for a whole month we were rehearsing it. Today was the last day of school and last rehearsal, tomorrow will be her prom and i dont know if i will ever see her again after that. I sure do hope that we will talk like before again and i will be able to confess my feelings. She had such an affection on me, i became so much better than i used to be and talking to her always made my day so much better. If nothing changes, i hope i will be able to go on and continue living my life, but rn i cant even imagine it, she became such a big part of my life and routine. To future me: dont give up and try once more!! She is such a great person, her smile, her look, everything about her is so charming. She is the best girl i ve ever known and i wont forgive you if you give up. I dont think there will be anyone like her in my life ever again, she seems to be so unique and perfect.

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