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Lyrics:
I always smile but it doesn't reach my eyes
And Iām forgetful but I promise that I try
Itās a curse and a blessing
The way that Iām never resting
My minds always moving much faster than my mouth
I know what to say but it never comes out right
You know what I mean right
This party is too loud
The noise makes me stressed out
I know
Oh I know
Iām a mess
But it doesn't make me less than you
Iām naive
But still I wish the best for you
And I may make mistakes
That I shouldnāt at my age
I know I'm not incompetent
But damn you make me feel that way
Sometimes my own room is the safest that I feel
And nothing around me feels like its real
I sit alone in a panic
Thereās always something Iām forgetting
I always remember the strangest things Iāve said
When Iām alone at night in my bed
And my head is a choir and my only desire
Is for silence
And my thoughts are racing
The fear I keep chasing
I know
Oh I know
Iām a mess
But it doesn't make me less than you
Iām naive
But still I wish the best for you
And I may make mistakes
That I shouldnāt at my age
I know I'm not incompetent
But damn you make me feel that way
Views : 108,739
Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Premiered Sep 22, 2023 ^^
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YouTube Comments - 145 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
As a teenage girl with gifted ADHD who has spent most of her life feeling utterly alone Thank you
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If anyone asked what ADHD and or Autism felt like, I would show them this song. This song is great, I was surprised when I found out this is only one of your first public songs, lol. I'm looking forward to more :)
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You know one of the many reasons why I love this song so much? I've never been in a relationship before so I can never relate to the countless mushy love and crushing heartbreak songs that are out there. But this? I relate to every single line, every single word.
I am currently self-diagnosed with ADHD and likely will never have the money to get a proper diagnosis and medical treatment, not to mention my mom thinks "everyone has a little bit of ADHD in us, you're just lazy and undisciplined." Not to mention I was homeschooled growing up and don't have very many friends, so I never had any emotional support circle to help me with my ADHD symptoms.
I cried listening to this song for the first time, because for once, I know I am not alone in the world. Thank you, Peggy, for blessing my ears with this magical song and for opening the door into a community of people who DO understand. <3
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Your song is AMAZINGGG!! I have ADHD and this lyrics are very relatable to me. Sometimes I feel Iām a mess, and before I was diagnosed I used to think I was dumb and compare myself with another kids bc I had a lot of dificulties doing my homework. And your voice is very very very beautiful too ^^ (sorry if my English is a little bad, itās not my native language š§š·)
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As someone who has ADHD and Aspergerās, this is perfectly how I wish I could express myself.
Legit cried over this song for 15 minutes. Amazing song!
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I've been waiting for this song ever since last week when your reel showed up on Instagram. I love this song!
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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I always smile but it doesn't reach my eyes
And I'm forgetful but I promise that I try
It's a curse and a blessing
The way that I'm never resting
My mind's always moving much faster than my mouth
I know what to say but it never comes out right
You know what I mean, right? (You know what I mean, right? No)
[Pre-Chorus]
This party is too loud
The noise makes me stressed out
I know (I know, I know, I know)
Oh, I know
[Chorus]
I'm a mess
But that doesn't make me less than you
I'm naive
But still I wish the best for you
And I may make mistakes that I shouldn't at my age
I know I'm not incompetent
But, damn, you make me feel that way
[Post-Chorus]
You make me feel that way, you makŠµ me feel that way
You make me feel that way, ah
Ah
[Verse 2]
SomŠµtimes my own room is the safest that I feel
And nothing around me feels like it's real
I sit alone in a panic, there's always something I'm forgetting
I always remember the strangest things I've said
When I'm alone at night in my bed
And my head is a choir, and my only desire is for silence, shh
[Pre-Chorus]
And my thoughts are racing
The fear I keep chasing
I know
(Oh, I know)
[Chorus]
I'm a mess
But that doesn't make me less than you
I'm naive
But still I wish the best for you
And I may make mistakes that I shouldn't at my age
I know I'm not incompetent
But, damn, you make me feel that way
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You just wrote the anthem of my life. Especially the second verse. My family doesnāt understand why I stay in my room so much, itās my own little world! Itās my little place where I can go and dream up stories and characters and the worlds they live in, I can organize things the way I like and no one disturbs it. I can read the books I like and listen to the music I like. It really is my safe space, and I donāt use that term very often. š
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The wanting your head to be silent, is so accurate š
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I've been listening to this on repeat since hearing it yesterday. I've spent my whole life feeling incompetent and like I dont belong. I'm now, at 28, being assessed for autism/ADHD after a year of realizations.
This song hits so hard and makes me feel so much less alone and empowered to be more confident in myself.
Thank youā”
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I'm so happy to finally hear the full version of this song. it's even a better representation of ADHD than I thought it would be. this is my new anthem. I do also love the thing you did with the piano and the percussion, it made my ND brain very entertained <3
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I was recently diagnosed with autism and ADHD, but I have suffered all my life and it has affected all areas without exception. The lyrics to your song are exactly everything I said at the therapist appointment. I don't feel ashamed of my diagnosis, I just feel like it's hard to deal with making mistakes I shouldn't at my age. It's also a different feeling to understand who you are after years of thinking you're flawed.
Hugs from Brazil, you've made it this far!
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I wish I had my teacher record it, but for our Shakespeare class we had to pick a song, not sing it, but perform along with it and this was the song I choose. It came out so epic! I may have to recreate it sometime.
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love this!!
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I am sharing this with my Youtube and facebook followers. I have never heard a song that so perfectly captures ADHD and autism for so many to who experience it. THANK YOU!!!
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Thank you for this song. I'm beating myself up so hard because of my past mistakes and I don't know if I should forgive myself for that because I can't forgive those who hurt me and the wounds are still fresh 10 years later
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sheesh im glad I doom scrolled enough to find your music. love your work ā„
4 |
LOOOOOOVE this new neurospicy bopā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
3 |
Ugh this song is so GOOD, and like I feel so seen, I hadn't realized I'd been made to feel like this until this song came out
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@poplopisepic
7 months ago
I love this it makes me feel recognised as a girl with ADHD it's so relatable. The music video is so cute as well!
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