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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered Jan 12, 2022 ^^
Rating : 4.977 (1,055/182,067 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2024-04-28T16:59:34.591847Z
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Like everyone else, here's my interpretation. This encapsulates living with functional depression perfectly, at least in my experience. To keep yourself from wanting to die, you start to give yourself something tangible to live for, like an event you want to go to, a goal to achieve, etc. This unhealthy cycle repeats, once that event has passed or that goal is reached, you have this need to find something else to live towards, because without it, you can't give yourself the need to live. Eventually, there are no more goals to strive for and nothing new you want to do, you've done everything that is worthy enough to give you the reason to live. That is when you move onto people. Having someone as your reason to be alive is so incredibly damaging to both parties, not just yourself anymore. "I need you to love me more" suggests that this is person is your romantic partner, of course, but how the chorus continues illustrates how burdening it can be to have a persons love be why you live. The repetitiveness of the lyrics along with the seemingly chaotic piano and increasing tempo gives this anxiety and urgency to the listener, much like how you'd feel if this person does not love you more and more and more then you'll lose your reason to live and you'll be left with nothing.
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The Lyrics <3
If I keep myself at home
I won't make the same mistake
That I made for fifteen years
I could be a new girl
I will be a new girl
I wish that this would go away
But when I'm done singing this song
I will have to find something else
To do to keep me here
Something else to keep me
Here's my hand
There's the itch
But I'm not supposed to scratch
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Love enough to fill me up
Fill me up, fill me full up
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Love enough to drown it out
Drown it out, drown me out
How do other people live?
I wonder how they keep it up
When today is finally done
There's another day to come
Then another day to come
Then another day to come back to mine
We'll pretend it ends tomorrow
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Love enough to fill me up
Fill me up, fill me full up
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Love enough to drown it out
Drown it out, drown me out
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Love enough to clean me up
Clean me up, clean me up
Clean me up, clean me up
Clean me up, clean me up
I need you to love me more
Love me more, love me more
Mitski is life ā”
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This song is beautiful because it functions on so many levels. On the one hand at face value itās about a relationship, wanting someone to be so in love with you, with such an outpouring of emotion, that it āmakes you wholeā or fills you up, and drowns out your insecurities. On the other, itās about needing to love yourself more. The entire video she is interacting with iterations of herself: sheās driving herself on the motorcycle, sheās asking the doll her to let her in, sheās mimicking the poses of her drawn self. She wants to change via self love, but doesnāt know how.
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I feel like she is speaking directly to us, her fans. She is grappling with trying to improve her mental health and finding healthy ways to ease her crippling depression while also being a performer and dealing with her adoring fans that shower her in love which can de-rail the healing process as it is an extremely potent but temporary high that leaves you empty when the curtains close. Truly healing is hard work, it is tempting to just bask in the artificial love of our parasocial relationship with her but just like drugs, its a cycle and the high is never as good as the last so you keep chasing that first high, practice poses you've performed a million times, you're a puppet on a string going through the motions. The solution? Love me more audience! MAYBE if you love me more it will be enough to drown the emptiness out. But at the end she shows she is self aware and all though the words are saying "I need you to love me more!" she is staring into the camera, shaking her head no, telling us, her fans that that's not what she needs, "Please don't do listen to me. This song is my Ego speaking but my trueslf knows the only true happiness comes from doing the hard work to find love internally".
But depression is the thief of motivation and self-care is hard and draining. So she's back at square one, depleted of all energy to work on herself so you see her getting back on that motorcycle, the cycle begins again and she surrenders herself once again to the sacharrine, hollowing, conditional love of her fans.
not sure how much of this is projection through the lens of my own crippling depression and how much is actually what she's trying to say but this is my interpretation.
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āIf I keep myself at home I wonāt make the same mistakesā always makes me feel so much. I was bullied my whole life at school and got pencils thrown at me, got punched and pushed around and called ugly and fat. I started staying home so I didnāt have to Be there. I always thought it was my fault I was picked on and I always stayed home so I didnāt have to make āmy mistakeā
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the way i see it is the song is directed at us the fans, I think itās about the pressure of being an artist, you constantly pour your heart out to the world never knowing how people will take it, when it goes wrong it ruins you but when it goes well itās still never good enough, not for yourself because you see all the flaws. All you wanna do is progress, youāve worked so hard when will the day come when u can wake up and be able to stand with ur idols?, when you can unlock the door to success, when ur not underrated, when people see you, when people love you.
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@sal4950
2 years ago
SHE'S AN ICON, SHE'S A LEGEND AND SHE IS THE MOMENT
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