@IX-ex7ce

2 years ago

It’s funny because I keep seeing that “name one person who kept their promise an stayed” thing. I read the comments and saw almost half of everyone saying none only the voices in their heads. But when they left me I lost everything and my suicide thoughts came back but the thing is when they broke me, I made sure that when I make friends they will stay friends until they earn my trust, my respect and love. The one person who stayed is the one who is taking care of me, and when the other people broke me I learned to never take for granted when it comes to friends. Now I cherish this one friend with my whole heart. I will do anything to protect them, I will be there for their darkest time, I will drive them during 3 am to get food. I will watch them be happy, I will do anything to make sure they deserve to be happy. I sometimes wonder if I fell in love with this person but I didn’t. I just am not taking for granted for that person. I cherish them because they stayed. If they need money I will give them money. If they need blood I will give them my blood. If they need a limb I will give it to them. If they need a heat, I will die in order for them to be happy. Because I don’t want them to become as broken as I am. They deserve the love more because they aren’t the one who isn’t passed saving. I know I am no longer able to be saved because I know how my story ends. So until it does I will give then my respect, my trust, my love and my time. If they ever left me.. I know I will be dead before fate decides to kill me later. I know this because I shared everything to them so if they left now I wouldn’t survive this battle. I fear they leave but I know they don’t want me to leave because they said so and proved so. Thank you to that one person for staying by my side. I hope you get your happy ending. I will guard you for the rest of my life until my story ends. Goodnight my friend, my ride or die, my bestfriend, my brother, my sister, my family, the one who stayed, goodnight.

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