@shadowykitty5588

2 years ago

Had it since I was 15, (almost 27 now) and was doubled over sweating, vomiting, shaking, crying, feeling like I was being ripped from the inside out. My mom used to joke with her friends that I was so naive about my first period that "she thought she had cancer" and I actually went to the ER. They all just laughed and said I just wasn't used to periods yet, and then over the next 2 years the jokes stretched on about me being "overdramatic" or "just needing to suck it up like everyone else," and "Its just a heavy period, it wont kill you." Curled up in bed unable to move I remember hearing my mom yell at me to get out of bed because "no woman ever let a period stop her," so I needed to do my chores and go to school but I remember my fucking vision blurring due to the waves of pain. Tylenol, Advil, Aleve, none of it worked. The pain burned right through it... so I started secretly buying more of it to take more instead of asking my mom for hers... I was up to taking 5 Advil at once and STILL feeling the pain... but all I ever heard was the same shit "You'll never hold down a proper job if you spend the whole day in the bathroom! Get over it!" Even other women would berate me "you're too young to be complaining," "wait until you're my age, then you can talk," and I felt so damn defeated... Finally prayed and God put it on my heart to get my tubes removed right before I turned 26... they said they found it EVERYWHERE... my intestines, my ovaries, my liver, my bladder, EVERYWHERE. Luckily none of my organs aside from my fallopian tubes needed removal, and the damage is healing... I used to spend my first day of my period clinging to a toilet or passed out on the bathroom floor (sometimes I slept in the tub), and then I would bleed for 10-15 days after that, and they were random as hell... sometimes I'd get two periods a month or one long one that lasted almost a month... it was exhausting. My cycles were between 15 and 48 days, meanwhile I'm fighting ADHD, BPD/Bipolar disorder type 2, Anxiety, Depression, Interstitial Cystitis (sensitive bladder syndrome), and undiagnosed Fibromyalgia. When they called my parents and left a voicemail saying they got rid of the scar tissue and all the confirmed endometriosis they found, that they had tested it due to the size of the lumps but found no cancer, my mom broke down in tears and apologized profusely while my dad just sat in shock... it was insane... now my periods are 2-6 days long, my cycles are somewhat regular (between 25 and 33 days now), and I'm finally able to have sex without pain and vomiting too! I'm so blessed!

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