in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Hi everyone! 👍
For the last few days I have been seriously flopping! 🙁
Yes, Iv had an injured shoulder which has been keeping me up all night AND I have been really struggling with something on one of my cars.
HOWEVER, neither of these are valid excuses at all!! The last few days have shown me that I am nowhere near worthy of a happy and successful life. I am simply not trying hard enough.
I am currently in a reclusive state where my mind is filling my head with negative thoughts, and I am thinking of ways that I can escape from the reality I am in. None of these thoughts involve intoxicating or harming myself though, and I know that I can pull myself out of this hole very soon and start working towards being a stronger human being! 💪
I will be releasing a video this evening that was supposed to be released yesterday.
I havn't even picked up the camera yesterday or today. This is unacceptable! I must do better! 💪
I hope you are all having a great weekend 👍
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
I have finally turned a corner with regards to getting up in time and attacking the day BUT I cannot get complacent. The recent negativity in my mind was DESERVED because I was not trying hard enough! Similarly, the positivity in my life now is DESERVED too. Life is VERY fair! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪 (should have been uploaded yesterday evening)
Its fair to say I have been utterly failing lately in terms of getting up early and attacking the day. As a result my mind has found it easier to fill my head with negative thoughts about giving up. In this video I describe the evolution of those thoughts and how they try to distract me from what I am doing.
https://youtu.be/A522StNzIhg
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
My mind will often try to drag me back to past times to make me feel bad, but I am not the person I was then. As long as I continue on this path of self improvement, the negativity relating to my past is no longer relivent to me. I am not who I was. This new life is someone I am, NOT something I do! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovementquotes
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NEW VIDEO! 💪
Most of the problems I have got myself into in my life revolve around having 'fun' or trying to 'relax'. When I am fully focussed on working (whether it be business, fitness or learning) I don't seem to have any problems at all! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
To progress at anything in life you MUST be willing to embrace discomfort. Challenge yourself daily and acknowledge when your mind is trying to make excuses to keep you in comfort! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
Whenever I have a dream where I am taking drugs, I always wake up so relieved that it was just a dream. When it happed recently I was in agony because of my neck injury BUT Id still rather be in pain and unable to sleep, than be living a waste man life again taking drugs and being a degenerate!💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
My injured neck has been holding me back a lot the last few days but I'm determined to not let it stop me completely. Iv got myself back in the gym and actually made myself feel ill by going super hard! I used to make myself ill by taking drugs, which caused me shame. Making myself ill in the gym however, causes PRIDE! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
My opinions about using (or not using) painkillers have been strengthened thanks to finding a cure for my neck pain. It seems that doing nothing makes it worse BUT exercising, and generally getting out and about to get stuff done, has helped ease the pain MASSIVELY! 💪
#drugaddiction #recovery #ontrack #mentalhealth #selfimprovement
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NEW VIDEO!! 💪
A lot of people find it hard to believe that I am naturally very introverted and shy. I am in fact seriously socially awkward, I never feel comfortable in situations where there are lots of strangers , and I always feel weird filming at car meets etc. BUT I understand that 'natural' personality traits are not real. They are just part of the story our mind tells us, which is all just learnt behaviour based on past experiences! 💪
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Hello! 👍
My name is Marcus Hayes and I have spend years learning ways to improve my own mental health, and my life in general. During a recent relapse from my recovery from drug and alcohol addiction, I felt that I had a duty and a calling to share everything I have learnt over the years.
On this channel I will be open and honest about my own issues, and describe the methods I use in my life to keep myself as sane and happy as I can. Hopefully this information will be helpful to other people out there, and making these videos will also help me focus on keeping my self on track. 👍