I have been asked what I have been doing???!! 💫🐣
well,
here's a snippet of today
rainy and sunny day
sitting in the car at the harbour
inner dancing with the rain drops and sparkles on the water surface 💛
and making a pouch
a yellow pouch of course
I recently sold my sewing machine
and explore creating using the least amount of equipment
it's fun
it's playful
all but perfect
so me 😂
but honestly
... at first there was frustration and denial...
... there had to be acceptance
of needing glasses to thread the needle first
so I could truely enjoy this with my legs up - my style 😂
now, please tell me what are you doing (in your-style)? 🌱🦋🌻💛
12 - 4
Being misunderstood
And treated unfairly
Has been a theme
Like a solid underlying foundation
Upon which seemingly
My entire life was build
Lots of healing work in young adulthood
But still
It was there
Silently
Like a program running in the background
Unnoticed?
Slowing things down?
A heaviness
All too familiar
And then for no apparent reason
You see clearly
You see through this
Being understood, understanding others
Understanding as a theme
As a story or concept
Loses its grip
And so
The foundation
Dissolves
Yet life remains
untouched
🌻💛
9 - 2
The cutest viewing
Can you spot the platypus??
Not a great photo, but I was so absorbed watching that i forgot to take photos. This is the only photo from about 1 hour watching this platypus swimming and diving.... so cute
I was mesmerised 🥰💛✨️
Nature is nurturing in a special way, isn't it
7 - 0
Peace within and around....
Letting go
6 - 0
💛
6 - 0
Still waters in front and wild ocean behind 💫 I LOVE it!
It's grounding and peaceful spacious...
Like my whole system gets recalibrated 💛
Where do you go to for this?
11 - 2
Melancholy, chronic sadness, feeling down and depressed
Is mostly seen as “wrong”
Like there is something wrong with me, my brain, my biology, my nervous system…
Or something wrong with the way I live my life (i.e. food, exercise…)
Something wrong with the way I think…
You can’t quite point your finger on exactly what “it” is
But know for certain - something is wrong!
That is frustrating and confusing
So you get busy with
More work, cleaning, gaming, gym, drinking, eating, watching youtube videos….
This moves the “sadness” to the background
Unresolved
Lingering
It doesn’t take much to bring it back to the foreground
(a disapproving look from a coworker, someone ignoring you or not replying…)
So you quickly get busy again with one of the above activities (watching tv, eating…)
That temporarily ease the pain or heaviness of the “sadness”
When you keep doing this
Eventually your body starts to get sick more often
Perhaps a cold, migraine, IBS,... flare ups
So you get busy managing those “symptoms”
Once again
Pushing the “sadness” to the background
All the above “activities” to seemingly manage the situation are distractions
Sadness in the background is like a little child
Craving attention from the parents
Craving a little love, kindness and appreciation
Craving to be seen
All the cravings echoing in the void
Unattended
No one there
Where are you?
Sadness is waiting to be seen and accepted by you
To be welcomed by you rather than pushed away
And treated like an unwanted guest
What would happen if you welcomed sadness with
“Turned” toward it with
Love, kindness, gentleness or your undivided presence?
Why not explore?
13 - 2
One foot in
One foot out
Indecisive
Doubting
Contemplating
Waiting for the right moment….
It’s uncomfortable, right?
Feeling indecisive and doubtful
Questioning everything
Feeling disappointed with life, others, the world
Feeling deeply dissatisfied
And perhaps even feeling guilty for feeling dissatisfied
Afterall you are not living in poverty, starving, homeless…
That’s Emotional layering
Crippling
Impossible to get “ahead” or
Make a “good” decision or
Feel at peace
While having one foot in
And one foot out
Adding layers and layers of reasoning marinated in emotion
Is it a decision that needs to be made right in this moment
Or is it just a way for your mind to torment you?
🌻💛
5 - 0
Still waters
Like magic
Synchronise
Shift
Ground
Harmonise
Energetic turbulence
Appearing in the
Apparent within and around
Surrender
Be the still waters
Spacious
Delicious
💛🌈🌈
4 - 2
Sunrise walk and spotting platypus in creek
Magical 💛✨️
8 - 2
“There is something missing” was a constant sense for me.
Changing careers every few years.
Qualification after qualification - all the way to PhD in Internal Medicine.
Decades of studying brain science of trauma, therapy approaches, mindfulness and meditation, anything to do with healing and inner growth – yet that sense was still there.
Finally everything "fell into place" or disolved (hard to put into words)
The simplicity of it all still makes me giggle - none of the above was necessary
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