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Date of upload: Nov 30, 2022 ^^
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3 years. Itās been three years since he died, the only boy iāve ever loved. I thought that with time, the unbearable pain would go away that i will stop feeling this way but i was wrong. I met him when we were both at the hospital, me for a surgery and him for health and psychological problem. When i met him, i immediately knew, we understood each other without even talking, he knew me like no one else could ever know me. We supported each other during covid, when it was just us in the hospitals. I never directly told him that i loved him even when he told me that he loved me but he knew. However i still blame myself everyday wondering what if i had just told him ? What if he died not knowing. how much he mattered to me. One night i had to travel to the south of the with in ambulance to meet new doctors before getting another surgery. I remember very well this night. He texted me a sweet message saying how much he loved me and i didnāt get it at first. As i always do, i joked about it saying try not to die without me even if i know that itās too hard for you. Little did i know that the morning right after, he had died. I didnāt understand why he would not answer so i had my surgery and when i woke up i saw all my friends and family around me. I started joking saying what did someone died? They all looked at me with a blank face, i just woke up from a 8hours surgery so i was more than confused. My mom decided to let everybody leave and i couldnāt help it but get angry at her, without any reasons except the pain that my surgery was causing. After a long discussion she finally told me that thomas was found dead. After that i donāt remember a lot except falling in my bed, not screaming, not crying just staring at the wall. I couldnāt and refused to believe it. I waited 3 weeks convincing myself that he was still alive and that when i will get back at the hospital after my surgery, he would still be there even if everybody was trying to tell me the truth. 3 weeks later i kept texting him about how happy i was to come at the hospitals. When i arrived, i ran into his room even tho my mom was trying to keep me away from it. When i entered, i felt the a cold wind, as i sat my eyes on his bed seeing that someone else was in it i finally realized and i passed out. I kept on crying screaming at everyone when they did not do anything wrong. And for weeks, months i was just not myself. Now iām a bit better but everyday i think of him, dream of him. When people said grief was the hardest thing to deal with, i did not realize because as naive as i was i thought well the person is dead so move on thereās nothing u can do about it. Now i know that even when your brains know that, your heart just wonāt accept it. With time the pain wonāt go away, youāll just get used to it and u will find yourself doing the whole day without thinking of this person even when u thought it was impossible.
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Everytime I listen to this piece, it overwhelms me with peace yet it hurts me somehow. It feels like watching the sunset with your best friend on a beach, it feels like falling asleep in your motherās arms, it feels like the ending of a āright person wrong timeā story. Memories that will be tainted with a hint of sorrow. Sometimes I just wanna cry to this song, toast to all the joy and pain peopleās love had brought to me. There are so many layers to the emotion that this song provokes in me.
Thanks for the loop. It feels like a warm embrace.
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This is such a paradoxical piece of of poetry, it feels like a breath of fresh air, a relief , a calm morning, a cosy evening and emotions that can be put in lexicons all at the same time, it's amazing what a beautiful job the artists has done, truly astonished by the humans and their capabilities
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Whenever I read these comments, it makes me realize how much we all hurt. Somehow this audio makes us sit with that hurt, together yet apart, and gives us the comfort that despite it all, we will be ok. And weāll get through it. Iāve cried many times not just for myself but at how the world has hurt you and I. For anyone whoās reading, maybe it was a little special moment just here and now. But I hope you share this feeling with me, as a friendly stranger across the world.
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As I sit here, pen in hand, I can't help but feel a heavy sadness weighing upon my heart. Today is the day I must bid farewell to the girl I have loved for so long, the girl who never knew the depth of my affection. It's a bittersweet moment, filled with both relief and sorrow.
For countless days and countless nights, my heart yearned for her, silently whispering its desires into the abyss of unrequited love. Every stolen glance, every accidental touch sent my spirit soaring, fueling a hope that one day she would see the love that overflowed within me. But atlast, that day never came.I held onto that flickering hope like a flame in the wind, nurturing it with dreams of a future where we would be together. I painted vivid pictures in my mind of shared laughter, stolen kisses, and intertwined hands, all the while knowing deep down that it was nothing more than a figment of my imagination.Time passed, seasons changed, and life moved forward, yet my love for her remained steadfast. I watched from afar as she blossomed, her smile captivating every soul it touched, her laughter like a melody that echoed through my dreams. But with each passing day, the reality of my unrequited love gnawed at my spirit, leaving behind a trail of silent tears.
And now, as I prepare to leave her behind, my heart shatters into a thousand fragments. The realization of our paths diverging, never to intertwine, feels like an unbearable weight upon my shoulders. I can't help but wonder if she ever knew, if she ever sensed the love that radiated from within me, or if my emotions were nothing more than a ghost haunting the depths of my own heart.Yet, despite the pain that engulfs me, I know it is time to let go. It is time to set my heart free from the chains of this one-sided love, to heal the wounds that have festered for far too long. The journey ahead is uncertain, and the road to healing will be steep, but I must find solace in knowing that I gave my heart fully, even if it was to someone who couldn't reciprocate . As I leave her behind, I carry with me the memories of what could have been, the dreams that danced on the edge of my consciousness. I will mourn the loss of a love that was never truly mine, but I will also find strength in knowing that I had the courage to love fiercely, even in the face of unrequited affection.
Farewell, my love. May life bring you the happiness that you deserve, even if it means I must find my own happiness elsewhere.-ARG
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Life is confusing and itās not easy. Iām proud of all of you for living and feeling. Not everyone can do it, but youāre here and youāre doing it. And I am so so proud of you. Itās so easy to spread hate, so difficult to love. I love you all and I hope you feel my love through ur stupid devices ! ;) please stay and letās enjoy the little things for now. This life is an experience, letās go through it together. Together weāll grow
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@cuestyles
1 year ago
If no one has told you today.. or in a whileā¦ I love you and Iām proud of you, keep going , youāre almost there ā¤
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