@sanjanacs4309

1 week ago

I woke up to a 5a.m fog , fogging my memories of the person I so loved until yesterday . I still love the person but I wish that this fog would fog every one of memories that I spent with them . I get out and disappear into that thick fog , I can't see anything , just like how they couldn't see my love for them . I tried to shake of those thoughts , I wanted those memories to fade away just like how they made me fade away . I felt suffocated in there so I come to a place , so called a home by the others . I went to take a quick shower , to shake off the rust but it got more worse . It was a torture . Like how a metal would rust in water , my feelings rusted more . I remembered the time we spent together on the first day of summer and the time when I confessed my feelings for them on the first snowfall . I remembered the time when we went to a cherry blossom and search around a lonely forest . As we searched for lonely animals to rescue in the lonely forest , you left me like a stray animal . Now I am all alone in the very forest . I didn't want to think about it but my mind keep sending these involuntary messages that hurt me deep inside leaving a void in my heart . There's nothing I could cover it or close it with . I have a big hole in my heart that can't be fixed , all thanks to you . The memories burdened me so much that I sank further deep into the ground with every drop of water that was pouring above my head . I sing myself a lullaby so I could sleep but its never enough . Even though I am trying to hide , even though that I have a feeling of wanting to get back , I hold unto the memories like I am stabbing myself with a knife right at my heart . But I can't help it . I know we'll never meet again so I'll just hold unto the memories even though its painful , even though you forgot about me long ago .

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