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Genre: People & Blogs
Date of upload: Sep 11, 2022 ^^
Rating : 4.958 (19/1,794 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2024-04-18T11:47:37.586643Z
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
Im so mentally drained ,and tired, I wanna leave this place, I wanna run away from the toxic household of mine ,it doesn't feel safe , it is just so tiring and I can't take it anymore ,I'm trying my best to keep everyone happy I want this place to be a little quiet and calm but all there is chaos ....
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I have nothing to be sad about but I can’t help it. It becomes numb most nights. And during the day I am too busy to let my mind take a break but it keeps me from drowning. Am I ever going to be okay?
What makes it worse is that my parents only believe in mental illness if you have been through war, are homeless, an addict, orphan, or have had an absolute nightmare of a life. But I feel like im slowly drowning.
Anyways, thank you for your time. Have a good night/day 😊
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My family doesn’t believe in mental health. Ive tried to talk about therapy because i cannot talk to them. I get hit with the “You should be happy you have a roof over your head and food and water” but nobody knows all ive eaten in maybe 3 days is a yogurt. I lay in the darkness so i dont need the lights. All i have is a numb feeling and all of these thoughts on constant replay in my mind.
I just want it all to stop.
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2:37 is called 'Scared to be Lonely' actually <3
Great playlist, btw! Not even my sister, who is very nit-picky with her playlists, had anything negative to say about this one. Fantastic work haha :D
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Today, a guy in my school tried to kill a teacher. I was not that far of the scene and it was a big shock for me. The teacher is no longer in danger, and I hope that she and the people that witnessed the scene are going to recover mentally and physically. I was really touched and hearing this playlist reassured me, so thanks for making it :)
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I know nobody cares and probably no one is gonna read this, but I need to get this out, I'm sick of my life, I cannot do it anymore, I don't wanna do it anymore, I feel sad at least half of the day, almost every fucking day, I dunno what to do anymore, I've tried talking, no one heard me, I took meds, it didn't help, I tried yoga, excercising everyday, doing box, drawing, singing, I'm dessesperate to find a way to feel better, I can't even cry properly when I want, I try to tell my mom how I feel, she "listens" but then complains or interrupts me, cause she feels tired of me, it have always been like that, my father is an asshole, but I love him, it hurts so much watching him doing all that bullshit and just stand there without complaining, my mom also knows this, but she chooses to ignore it, when I cry they pretend that I'm not there, that I'm not crying, but when they are mad or sad I always listen, I always offer them a safe place to get out all that bullshit, even tho it really hurts me sometimes and I'm like "Why ? Why can't you just pretend you actually care about me ? I just need someone to listen to me, I don't need anything else" I feel so fucking lonely, I don't have friends cause I'm homeschooled, I have deppresion and probably a lot of other shit, I just don't know what to do, I feel good while I'm busy, butinthe moment I get a break or I'm doing nothing I feel all this stupid feelings coming back, they all lie to me, you know what is the worst ? That I knew it and gave them the chance to tell me the truth, guess what, they didn't.
I'm frustrated, I'm sad, im feeling impotence and all of those feelings just make me feel numb as hell and it's not funny at all
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13:01 is actually called “runaway” :)
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I'm just so tired. I hate my job, I'm struggling in dance, I'm starting to let my perviously straight A grades to slip. I feel stupid all of the time now. I can barely understand anything I'm doing and I have like 3+ missing assignments in every class. I'm so physically and mentally drained and exhausted. I need a break.
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@fictionallove_2416
1 year ago
People think I'm weird. Talking to myself is honestly a way I can escape reality rather than dreaming or crying during the night. Schools are putting a lot of pressure on myself lately. I feel like I've lost a part of me, and that part of me feels like I just wanna give up. I live for these playlists, they comfort me in a way no words can describe the feeling. Thank you, and have a good day <3.
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