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Director: Justin Moon
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Lyrics:
When youād yell I would stay silent
You never noticed I was quiet
I was taught that speaking up was talking back
Always first to say Iām sorry
Cause I wanted you to like me
And I thought thatās what it took to make it last
Itās a lose lose
That I donāt choose
But you donāt always choose the ones you love
I shouldnāt have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workinā
Itās always up to me
Even though it shouldnāt be
Iāll take the blame the way you want me to
Cause thatās what I do for you
I was half of this dynamic
I was stable you were manic
Without you or with you comes with a cost
I got used to the excuses
And emotional abuses
We kept moving the lines weād never cross
Itās a lose lose
That I donāt choose
But you donāt always choose the ones you love
I shouldnāt have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workinā
Itās always up to me
Even though it shouldnāt be
Iāll take the blame the way you want me to
Cause thatās what I do for you
I always think itās over
But it never really is
Cause I canāt get the closure
When youāre like this Can we switch
Maybe this time youāll be the bigger person
Cause Iām gettinā tired of bearinā all your burden
It should be up to you
But you wonāt admit the truth Oh
I shouldnāt have to be the bigger person
How come I have to break to keep us workinā
Itās always up to me
Even though it shouldnāt be
Iāll take the blame the way you want me to
Cause thatās what I do for you
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Views : 6,420,277
Genre: Entertainment
Date of upload: Jul 13, 2023 ^^
Rating : 4.978 (401/72,887 LTDR)
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YouTube Comments - 2,046 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
15 year old here. I realized at the age of 7 I needed to learn how to work around my mom and dads emotions. I had to learn how to not trigger them. This song hits hard.
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Even as an adult now, I'm still a child who has to make excuse in order for my parents to be at peace with themselves. Thank you so much for this song, we shouldn't have to be the bigger person <3
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Iām only 12 going on 13. This shit has gone on all of my life. The internet is the only thing comforting me and keeping me alive at this point. Thanks, Ms.Lauren. For your beautiful music. It helped me get my emotions out that I havenāt let out in awhile. Sending virtual love and support <33
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I'm LOVING the recent rise of songs by adult kids to their parents. We out here healing ourselves the way we always have.
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Iām 29 and I have never had something encapsulate my relationship with my father more perfectly. Thank you for writing this, for making me feel not so alone in this struggle.
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"i was taught that speaking up was talking back"
... Powerful
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Jesus Christ loves you
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The part "can we switch" just gives me goosebumps and i feel an ache in my heart but after she starts singing in a low tone voice the rest of the song it feels like my inner child gets huged by the now me.
This song is such a masterpiece.
Thanks Lauren for this song.
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I've never felt this emotional from a song.. I relate too much that it's unhealthy.
Lauren, I don't think you get how relatable your music is. You make people feel heard and not alone. After getting out of several toxic friendships, this hit home. I was (and still am) a people pleaser and kept trying to make everyone happy while getting manipulated and hurt, not knowing it just because I didn't want to let anyone down, but this makes me feel some sort of comfort and helps me get my emotions and guilt out. Seriously, this song makes me tear up every time....
Every piece of this song is just... relatable.. there are no words in the english dictionary that can explain the emotions I feel.
Remember, anyone reading this right now, you may be a stranger to me, but I just know you're amazing, loved, and most importantly, you're not alone ā¤
Edit: yall are making me tear up š„¹š¢šā¤ļø
Edit 2: Guys, stop making me sob š I hope yall are okay ššš
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This is my first time listening to it and I honestly feel that this song is relatable for the oldest child/daughter and I relate to this so deeply.
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i'm not exaggerating when i say i literally cried the first time i heard this song. i don't think i'll ever find one more relatable than this, bc if there's one thing i can never put into words, it's my relationship with my parents
thanks lauren, for speaking the words that some of us can't ā¤
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"cause i'm getting tired of bearin' all your burden"This song really got through meā¤
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I literally waited just to hear this song š„ŗ,this is how I feel about my father
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I had been hearing clips of this song on Facebook and decided that I would finally listen to it all the way through. I am the oldest in my family and the oldest daughter. Listening to this brought me to tears. This really hit the nail on the head with my relationships with my youngest siblings. Life seems so perfect and glamorous on the outside, but no one knows how dead and broken I feel on the inside. They think its me and that I victimize myself, but they never saw all of the olive branches I extended, the things I sacrificed, or how I changed myself so that they would like and love me. Now they see a shell of what I once was and wonder how I got this way. In the end, I am what they made me.
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Iām crying right now because of this song
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This made me think of my parents š¤§ I still canāt think or talk about my life growing up without crying
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Im 31 years old and this shot me through my core. Thank you for singing the emotions I've had for so long.
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Social media really helped me to find out that Iām not alone in this world. This is the most relatable song Iāve ever heard. Honestly, this hits home.
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I know this is meant more for parent child relationships, but definitely can be applied to loving someone who is an addict or alcoholic. Thank you for creating this song!!!
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@maddiehupp5693
9 months ago
Why isnāt this more popular?? So many of us are traumatized by our parents abusive cycles this needs to reach more people!!!
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