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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Nov 16, 2022 ^^
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RYD date created : 2024-05-21T15:11:44.536112Z
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
My dad took his life when I was almost 11yrs old.
Watching my mum deal with the aftermath -- the crying her eyes out, the drinking, the cursing his name, the questioning why -- and then her trying to handle my depression as I grew up... It's been the only reason why I haven't given in and "followed in his footsteps" despite it being the only thing I've ever really wanted, even now almost 13 years later.
Lately I've felt so isolated and upset with my mum and her choices that it's been a struggle to resist that desire but this song reminds me why I'm here. While that really hurts, it's better to be here and in pain than to be just a painful memory for someone to deal with.
Thank you, Jessie. My mum and I owe you a lot.
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Some things, they're solid, they're built to last
Some things, they fall apart, they break like glass
Sometimes it's scary what they call "Love"
And how fast "What is" can turn to "What was"
Waking up this mornin' and I'm drunk again
Without you here
Went outside and I lit up a cigarette
And it made me think
If I died last night in an aeroplane
In a pile up on the interstate
If I closed my eyes and went up in flames
If I took too much and I suffocate
It would tear me apart, it would haunt me forever
So much you'd never get to know
If I died last night
If I died last night
Can't stand the thought of you getting that call
Dropping your phone, running down the hall
Blaming yourself for when shit hit the wall
And drowning my memory in alcohol
If I went to heaven, it would still be hell
Without you there
If I died last night in an aeroplane
In a pile up on the interstate
If I closed my eyes and went up in flames
If I took too much and I suffocate
It would tear me apart, it would haunt me forever
So much you'd never get to know
If I died last night
If I died last night
I'm sorry, I hate this
I've never felt so alone
I need you now, so come over
I just want you to know
If I died last night in an aeroplane
In a pile up on the interstate
If I closed my eyes and went up in flames
If I took too much and I suffocate
It would tear me apart, it would haunt me forever
So much you'd never get to know
If I died last night (if I died last night)
If I died last night
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Having dealt with depression my entire life and the only thing that kept me from ending it all at 11 being that I was in love, this song hits an old yet open wound I never knew anything could reach or anyone could understand. Especially knowing that I am now 30, still alone and that young child would've never stopped himself if he had known that I'd never know what it felt like to be loved.
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@mthriilverremiix
8 months ago
I'll leave this comment here so that someone likes it and it will remind me of this song 😢
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