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12,806,408 Views ā¢ Jun 13, 2019 ā¢ Click to toggle off description
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
twitter.com/danielhowell
instagram.com/danielhowell
facebook.com/danisnotonfire
And subscribe to my channel! youtube.com/subscription_center?add_user=danisnotoā¦ (lol)
Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to youtube.com/AmazingPhil for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka twitter.com/swatercolour
Soundtrack:
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saƫns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com/
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. Itās also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didnāt specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I donāt tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:
youngminds.org.uk/
www.samaritans.org/
papyrus-uk.org/
www.stonewall.org.uk/
www.hrc.org/
www.thetrevorproject.org/
www.trevorspace.org/
switchboard.lgbt/
minus18.org.au/
www.glaad.org/transgender
www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/
Views : 12,806,408
Genre: Comedy
Date of upload: Jun 13, 2019 ^^
Rating : 4.826 (48,990/1,078,978 LTDR)
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YouTube Comments - 123,973 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
dan: says something incredibly dark and sad
two seconds later
fireworks and fingerguns
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āNo one stood up for me when it mattered most. And it almost cost me everythingā
š
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I love that it starts out with white light and then goes through the colors of the rainbow and ends at white again. Even the illustrations have colorful outlines that match the rainbow with each chapter. So much thought was put into this. It's like a work of art <3
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dan upgrading from normal black clothing to sparkly black clothing is like going from windows 8 to windows 10.
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ok dan talking about how phil was so accepting during that dark time and how he's genuinely his best friend is literally the purest most wholesome thing i've ever heard
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This video was already important to me when it came out, mostly because I was so proud of Dan and how open he is about his mental health. Since then I realized how queer I am and I feel so seen and validated. Dan is the representation he and we all needed, Iām his age and up until our early twenties there was no representation anywhere. This video is so fucking important.
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he is genuinely an incredible speaker wow
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Dan:/leaves chat for a year
Dan: casually uploads 45 minute video
Dan:/leaves chat again
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The way he talks about Phil makes me cry because he deserves his happiness
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I frequent this video. Itās just so beautifully made and shows a story that many of us can relate to.
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RIGHT
IN THE MIDDLE OF
PRIDE MONTH
crying
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but when the world needed him most
he vanished
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I genuinely cried at the email from your grandma. Been around since 2012 and honestly, been amazing to watch you grow and so happy you felt you wanted to share this with us all
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Dan, I just wanted to say how much you have helped me. Through basically my whole life I have been coming to your and Phil's channel to make me happier. With all of my bad days, and sadness, you and Phil have always managed to put a smile on my face, and I truly thank you for that.You helped me come out to my family, so thank you for being such an amazing person!!!
Once again thank you so, so much,Love you Dan,
-Sky
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When Dan said he peaked at age 5, I felt that on a spiritual level
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āim so glad i failed.ā we are too. thank you, daniel.
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This video means so much to me. It's so well put together and laid out. Dan really is a great communicator, and it takes bravery to speak so openly about all this. Also to make people laugh and cry in the same video... comedy gold my dude. Can't wait to read your book :)
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I was one of those people who speculated about Dan's sexuality (before this video). For a while, I genuinely felt that Dan was letting his viewers down by not coming out, because him coming out could make such a difference to others. I really felt that he had some sort of moral obligation to his fans to show his support for the queer community. This was years before I knew I'm gay, but even then, I knew that my family would be supportive of me no matter what. So I didn't understand at the time how stressful/scary it would be for someone else to come out. I had no idea how harmful it was to be speculating on Dan's sexuality. I think I speak for a lot of Dan's fans when I say, I'm so sorry. I had absolutely no concept of the trauma this was causing (to Dan and others). I think Dan explained it really well in this video; what was an interesting piece of trivia to me, was totally undermining Dan as a person, and just incredibly disrespectful. I understand now that - while ultimately, being able to be yourself is best - no one should feel forced to come out or pick a label, just because other people are nosy. And no one should have any obligation to reveal something personal about themselves, just because it might help others.
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4 years ago
a n d t h e n h e d i s a p p e a r e d -
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