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12,801,250 Views • Jun 13, 2019 • Click to toggle off description
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
twitter.com/danielhowell
instagram.com/danielhowell
facebook.com/danisnotonfire
And subscribe to my channel! youtube.com/subscription_center?add_user=danisnoto… (lol)
Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to youtube.com/AmazingPhil for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka twitter.com/swatercolour
Soundtrack:
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com/
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:
youngminds.org.uk/
www.samaritans.org/
papyrus-uk.org/
www.stonewall.org.uk/
www.hrc.org/
www.thetrevorproject.org/
www.trevorspace.org/
switchboard.lgbt/
minus18.org.au/
www.glaad.org/transgender
www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/
Views : 12,801,250
Genre: Comedy
Date of upload: Jun 13, 2019 ^^
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
dan upgrading from normal black clothing to sparkly black clothing is like going from windows 8 to windows 10.
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as an ace, i think ace phobia is kinda funny, like why u so mad that im not getting laid😂
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he is genuinely an incredible speaker wow
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this is the video form of sending a risky text and throwing your phone
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“In almost every way, I literally peaked at age 5”
That’s it, that’s my senior quote.
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“No one stood up for me when it mattered most. And it almost cost me everything”
💔
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I'm 15, in a homophobic household and a part of the LGBT community, this mde me cry so hard. Thinking that I've been through similar things, and when he said that he tried to commit, that really hit me here. This gave me so much hope, thank you
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dan: says something incredibly dark and sad
two seconds later
fireworks and fingerguns
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notice how the world went to shit after he left
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"i attempted, and i told nobody" hits extremely hard, i tried to take my life a couple years ago, no one was home, didn't have any actual friends in real life to worry about me, and i also greatly failed.
at the time, i told absolutely no one for about a month or two. i told a couple friends eventually, but i guess i told the wrong person. they told their friends, and i only found out when i was in class one day. my teacher was reading a short story that was meant to be an allegory for the act, and every single time she said the word, this group of people across the room would look at me and chuckle to themselves.
i'm also incredibly happy i failed, i met the girl i intend to marry, i've been able to socially transition almost completely, and on a lighter note, ive been around to see all of the creators i loved watching start making content again. i've lived to see the day where i'm happy again, and where things are going pretty well for me.
i didn't magically become enlightened after trying to end it all, it still took like a year for me to be comfortable with myself, and for me to be happy again. but at least it helped me realize that taking your life is fucking hard, and too much trouble for what it's worth lol
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fuck it, gonna get my life together.
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Wait, you're 27? Phil's hair isn't naturally black? This is a lot to take in.
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When Dan said he peaked at age 5, I felt that on a spiritual level
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I was one of those people who speculated about Dan's sexuality (before this video). For a while, I genuinely felt that Dan was letting his viewers down by not coming out, because him coming out could make such a difference to others. I really felt that he had some sort of moral obligation to his fans to show his support for the queer community. This was years before I knew I'm gay, but even then, I knew that my family would be supportive of me no matter what. So I didn't understand at the time how stressful/scary it would be for someone else to come out. I had no idea how harmful it was to be speculating on Dan's sexuality. I think I speak for a lot of Dan's fans when I say, I'm so sorry. I had absolutely no concept of the trauma this was causing (to Dan and others). I think Dan explained it really well in this video; what was an interesting piece of trivia to me, was totally undermining Dan as a person, and just incredibly disrespectful. I understand now that - while ultimately, being able to be yourself is best - no one should feel forced to come out or pick a label, just because other people are nosy. And no one should have any obligation to reveal something personal about themselves, just because it might help others.
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I’m coming back to this video three years later because I’ve finally realized and accepted that I am a lesbian. I still have a lot to learn about myself, and I’m still quite terrified since I haven’t come out yet. But I’m glad that I’ve had YouTube to make me feel better about my sexuality journey
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Ok but he could literally do a TED talk. Please can he do a TED talk
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"I literally peeked at age 5."
Same sis.
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This video was already important to me when it came out, mostly because I was so proud of Dan and how open he is about his mental health. Since then I realized how queer I am and I feel so seen and validated. Dan is the representation he and we all needed, I’m his age and up until our early twenties there was no representation anywhere. This video is so fucking important.
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Back for my yearly rewatch and I’m finally out of the closet as a lesbian <3
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