@Teapottotty

9 months ago

From a lifetime journey of healing from psychological, emotional abuse as the scapegoat of a dysfunctional & narcissistic family, I know how hard it can be to shake off trauma. These experiences stick like glue, especially if trauma occurred in your formative years as a child. Having spoken to many other people, I know I am not alone. Often the most traumatic experiences are in our childhoods. Even an angry parent can cause trauma. We are all traumatized children, never feeling like we quite fit in because we weren't good enough in someone's eyes, when we are trying to find our feet in the world. From a spiritual point of view, I'm sorry but I don't agree that we are born as sinners. From what I have been told this part got lost in translation, and it was meant to say that we are born into a world of sin. We are born innocent, from a place of love and safety, into this world. And therefore trauma is inevitable on the journey, even if it is a loving mum missing the step and almost dropping you. That's trauma, and as we know there is much worse still. My healing came when I began to meditate and to realise that I had spent most of my life running away from how I felt, because how I felt was scary and I didn't want to let myself go in that direction. So what did I do instead? Get stoned, party, distract myself, run away! Then it was too painful to be 'in it' so I wanted to be 'out of it', anywhere except in my head. But now I find it's the other way round, and too painful to be 'out of it'. Being 'out of it' just delays the inevitable. The best thing I found was to learn to lean into it and feel it. Yes, it's painful at first, and that was usually the part I ran away from, but you will find that if you face into it and let yourself feel how you are feeling, the pain only reaches so far before it subsides. Think if yourself standing on a raft navigating the sea, bracing each wave that comes. Feeling the wave is the only way you are going to learn how to navigate it. You have to let it in, embrace it, accept it, and remember, there's a bloody good chance you are justified in feeling the way you do! You have the right to express your feelings, you can cry and get angry, but I strongly recommend you do those things creatively, in journal, digging the garden, beating dough and only wringing the neck of your dishcloth, and not destructively, because then that sets up a vicious circle of being bad, feeling bad, which isn't good if you are struggling with a low self-esteem. There are plenty of creative ways to get it out. The most fun part is getting rid of sticky trauma that clings in the body. One of the greatest ways I use get rid of stuff is by dancing and shamanic shaking, put some tribal drumming dance on and go for it, shake it out, and while you are at it add some NLP and hypnotic suggestions, and shake the 'shit out', tell the negativity to scram, say 'how dare you!' and mean it, throw off all that criticism, rejection, bullying, condescension, abuse and trauma, flick and kick it off! Do it with gusto and really get into it. Shake it and dance it off! Did you know also, physics experiments demonstrated that an object vigorously shook lost weight, albeit a smidgeon on the scale of things, but then over time, regained it's original weight in chunks, packets, or quanta. So I also remember this when I dance and shake, knowing that I am releasing the negative stuff weighing me down, and what's coming back is healing and positive. We need to realise more that we are masters of our minds, and what we say goes. Showers are also a good way of washing away the grime! I would also like to add to ask your Higher Self to help, once you begin doing that you will be amazed at what happens.......it was when I started calling on higher help things changed dramatically for me, practically overnight I stopped smoking, drinking, felt so much calmer and at peace & could actually feel the negative energy lifting off me. It is a gradual process of releasing that will take some time, just let it happen, let it go & say thank you. You might feel tearful at times, like there's a big bubble inside you shifting, just go with it & trust the process. Your Higher Self knows what is needed.🙏

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