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YouTube Comments - 1,145 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
This is such a human video. It is tragic, confusing, happy, sad, existential, yet beautifully relatable and inspiring.
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he pushed the boulder to the top of the hill guys. he did it.
keep going, ben.
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"To be perfect is to not be myself."
This one hit home.
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Literally me
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āLove and fear cannot coexist. I fear myself therefore I cannot love myselfā as someone who has constantly made huge mistakes in my life and am now living in fear that Iāll make another one, I felt this on such a profound level
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This is what art is, what you've made right here. Pain into beauty. What a beautiful person you are. I know some of your pain, I've been there. You aren't alone and you are beautiful inside. This outer expression is a shining beacon of your suffering and triumphs in spite of it. Thanks, man. I'll revisit this for years.
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Dude your voice is so unique. Just something about the way you say things makes me feel a certain type of way. āWho I am is not a problem to be solved but a mystery to be experienced.ā Holy banger.
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i loved someone who struggled in a similair fashion as you did. to think they were worthless yet wanted everyone else to love them to prove herself otherwise. and when people saw through her, she pushed them away, thinking there was sumn wrong w us. she's self aware but she struggled to word her frustration, which led to even more frustration.
i wasn't strong enough to withstand the brunt of her (self-)destructive habits; not for long at least and left. but in hindsight i think this video really helps convey her frustration.
idek why i'm writing out this comment haha. no one's going to find it. maybe it's my characteristic optimism, she called it delusion. but maybe deep down -- i hope if there was only one stranger who scrolls into this it would be her. not just because i want her to remember me, but because if she found this comment, she'd have also found this beautiful hour long video that i think captures how she feels. along with the hope that this video provides her w any form of solace.
so i guess really, algorithm do your thing and push this to her ty lmao
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A meditation on radical acceptance
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I never went into these videos expecting to get healed and my problems fixed - So I have never been disappointed by a Sisyphus 55 created video.
The endless speculation and deep dives into the psychology of man has and is still, endlessly entertaining and enlightening - and never portrayed as the absolute truth, just digging around to see what's what, and in that way you can never not come away from one of these feeling slightly more robust.
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just 10 minutes into the video, and i can tell you, this is relatable to a scary degree.
Especially considering i'm from Buenos Aires. I know all the places you've shown on the screen.
I'm going through a similar problem. I get desperately lonely unless i have the attention of others. I can't conceive myself as worthy of love for a myriad of reasons, all of which i've been working all my life to try to "fix". And here i still am.
I no longer hate myself, but it's hard for me to say that i am happy with who i am. I try to, from a more logical side. I can quantify all my achievments, i've done a lot of good things, but they're not enough.
I'm afraid of making others uncomfortable, to the point where i can't tell a girl that she's beautiful, let alone ask her out.
I keep on in an infinite cycle of throwing solutions to my problems, and eventually giving up. I'm trying my best to be at peace with myself, but i feel like i need to be ashamed of who i am.
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ive always felt a lot of your content isnt just to the viewer, but also to yourself, a reinforment of things learned and things still trying to understand, i always love that about your videos, the feeling that you are pondering with the same thoughts you present.
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Hi. I really like this video. Thanks for cr8ting it. Iām an alcoholic in recovery. I am an artist a single mom of 2 toddlers, survivor of domestic violence. Iāve been alone with my kids for 3.5 years. I relate a lot to your videos. And June 2023 I spent bathing in cold water bc I couldnāt afford to pay gas. I work for Amazon flex and back in college to be able to work as a k-12 art teacher. I like ur channel and your sense of humor. ā¤ I relate to a lot of how you feel.
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seriously the best man. iāve been watching your stuff since college. iām 25 now making pizza in vermont. i have other aspirations, but iāve been slow kicking them into gear, but thatās okay. i feel not so alone when i watch your stuff. itās been really fun watching you and your channel grow. whether this is your last video or you continue to do this for 20 more years, iām glad i got to experience your art and perspective on life. much love
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This is maybe the only youtube video ive continously rewatched and its both horrifying and enlightening to see how much i relate to this. Thank you for putting this into the world
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this is awkward i thought i was the main character
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Iāve felt so many of these conflicting thoughts in my life. I usually cap off my internal dialogue with āIām overthinking it and should be ashamed of being so self centeredā and it undoes all of my progress to find my sense of self.
Iāve been accused of being overly pretentious, wordy, and melodramatic.
Having my thoughts echoed through words makes me feel happy, in a more simple way. Thank you, ironically, I saw this video as completely selfless of you
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Thank you for being articulate and helping others like myself understand things that we normally never would. Sometimes its so hard to tell what's going on inside but you surveil it with ease <3 Thanks buddha homie
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You have helped me. This shit made me cry, there's a reason the comments are always saying this feels personal. This shit was so personal and thank you, you've made me realise some things about myself.
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@crissssseee
9 months ago
one must imagine sisyphus happy
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