@robertblahnik7685

2 months ago

When I was in 4th grade, my math teacher of all people used to have us students sings songs while she played the piano. She first started out having us learn cords or notes, whatever, because she said, "everything was numbers, even music". Then she got us up to singing songs. She was a wonderful teacher. Every parent wanted their kids in her class, but it was done by draw as there were 5 other math teachers. Anyways, she said she always heard one voice that stood out but I would sing under my breath and hid my face encase she would call me up to the front. At home I could truly sing and my mom and granny encouraged me to take lessons, but I never would. The school was putting on a 3-level play and the teachers needed to find kid singers. So other kids snitched on me during the try-outs, and the teacher kept me after class and told me to sing a song she would play. Then she told me to stay put and brought in several more teachers. I had them all crying. Immediately she said go see the principal, she's expecting you. She gave me an order to have my parents call her. She needed to speak to both of them and asked to be on speaker. She asked about me and asked for permission to allow me to sing in a play they were throwing. My dad said, "if you can talk our boy into it then he's all yours." I would have to go the auditorium during the last hour of school but I would have to still do homework to make up. I was nervous every day because they gave me a lead part. I was easy on the eyes people said, all believing I would be a star some day. So everyone was looking forward to seeing me the following night. My granny, my cousins, my friends, the newspaper and of course all the teachers. There were about 10 songs in the musical and I was to sing 2 and to perform a duet during the last scene. However, I got up early the next morning with insane chills, aches, and pains and I knew it wasn't anxiety because it just couldn't be. Then I couldn't breath easy and now I was just scared out of my mind. My dad pulled out his flashlight and took one look at my throat and said, "we are off to the ER. Now I'm terrified. They rushed me to the hospital feeling worser by the minute. Finally a doc said, "yep, you got Strep Throat. It was 5am when the nurse came back in and gave me a shot and said, "you should be feeling better by the time you get to the car. However, no talking, and gargle with salted water every hour." They told my day that I should not be in that play for at least 3-4 days. Though I felt fine by the end of the day, I sounded froggy, which meant no play. So my mom informed the school for infectious reasons and called everyone who was going to see me. The principle told my parents that it had been going around the school but not enough to call attention to it... They had replaced me and I was being called a coward by all the bullies and kids were being mean to me. I was a leper because there was a few judges there and our school didn't place. So they even blamed that on me. So I just stopped singing for years after that, not even while I was alone. Then when I was going through puberty my voice changed but I tried to let out a few cords but it sounded forced so I stopped it all together... Later in my 20's I tried to pick it up again because my friend said they needed a singer on their rock band. He actually was there when I was chosen for the play. But I told him I don't know. So I went into a big closet surrounded my jackets and tried to sing a bunch of songs for days and days. So he gave me a recording of their band with it's singer and without. So I had my brother listen to me sing it and the original sound track and he said that I sounded forced, which I agreed with so that was it. And that was 50 years ago.

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