@Elizabeth-de9pm

4 years ago

This reminds me of my late boyfriend Chris. He passed away from suicide and the last I saw him was in December. The last I kissed him, hugged him, felt his presence..He lived with an abusive father and had no mother because she had lost her battle to suicide when he was in middle school. He cried for a mother and craved that bond and love. I was the only on to keep him afloat for years until the one last fight he had with his father..he just couldn't take it anymore. The last thing I got from him was a message at 1:38 a.m. “ i love you so much .. and don’t ever think i don’t” i woke up to a flood of messages asking if I had heard the news, am I okay, and if I’m alive.. I thought it was one of those late night messages, but his best friend called and he said “Elizabeth, promise me you will be strong but.... Chris..shot himself last night” and i hung up Immediately. I couldn’t process it , my heart wasn’t beating, my hands were shaking and i screamed like I’ve never screamed before.I called him well over 40 plus times but..he never answered. He passed away on January 5th 2019. He had a polaroid camera and i have a picture of him at the lunchroom and I keep it at my bedside at all times. When he was laid to rest they buried him with a suit that he wore when we went to our last prom,the guitar necklace I gave him for Christmas that December and finally the polaroid picture he took of me at the lockers and they had put it in his pocket close to his heart. I’ll see you soon my love,my goofball and all. This song goes out to you Chris and to all who suffer loss but are brought together out of love. 🌻

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