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Genre: Education
Date of upload: Oct 22, 2021 ^^
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RYD date created : 2022-04-09T17:10:33.389601Z
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I was at home at night and sat at my desk watching a documentary of an oil drilling isle. I was warm, had a cozy bed, a full fridge, a loving family, couple of communities, wasn't broke. In the documentary I saw a group of men working under the most miserable conditions imaginable. They were dirty, grimy, freezing half to death, yelling and roaring and drinking and cursing. I was horrified to sense a deep and genuine envy for what they had. My mind immediately retaliated against me with guilt for such a profoundly ungrateful sentiment, but I could not help it. I think it was the yearning for a sense of purpose, of stakes, and a primitive drive for brotherhood that caused my reaction, and I felt that each and everyone of these men had all of that. I knew full well they would likely have envied me just the same.
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As someone who suffers from bipolar disorder 2... having gone through (spiritual) psychosis... I know one of the biggest issues for me mentally is the structure of our current society... the obsession of of the material... that you have to be obsessed with the material world in order to be considered successful... this mentality has never aligned with me. And I was on that journey for a while. I am still in the process of finishing my degree for computer science (almost done) but I began to really question why Iβm seeking this degree... what itβs worth... and spiritually it means nothing... It is only valuable to me in the sense that society forced its material value onto me. We are a society obsessed with meaningless material to the point that it clearly harms our mental and spiritual side.
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I used to work in a psychiatric emergency. After ALL of the folks I saw coming in that just couldn't cope with not being where they expected to be in society, I decided that I didn't CARE one bit what anybody else thought of me, or what I was supposed to be or achieve by a certain age. I travel, work in different trades, meet people, and DON'T force myself to talk to mean or selfish people anymore. I only aim to please MYSELF now. I am happy with my lot in life (not too bad, not the greatest, just a sane average). Before, I felt tons of pressure from my family and my exes. Now I live FREE of all of that. I'm lucky I live in a country where you can still get educated and have healthcare without going bankrupt though. It frees up the rest of your life. It's actual FREEDOM.
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The last 2 years I've been slipping away into deeper psychological problems. The global crisis gave me time to think about my past and future and in weeks I was completely lost. I went from being an occasional weed consumer to a full addict in a matter of months. Right now I am in such a deep depression that I sleep or stay awake for days, plagued by personal trauma and the complete loss of connection with the modern society. I feel like we are collectively are destroying ourselves and our surroundings. That causes a feeling of helplessness and dissociation.
Just to put this in perspective. Before all of this I was positive minded. You could throw piles of garbage at me and I'd still find the positive part of the situation. I was motivated, extroverted and I loved the direction my life was going in.
Everything is the complete opposite now.
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