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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Oct 30, 2019 ^^
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My dad kĀ”lled himself by dr*g over dose and I found him when I was 12 years old. He was my best friend. Listening to colson talking about putting his daughter to bed and trying to do the same made me break down in hysterics. My dad put me to bed and that was the last time I ever spoke to him, I found him the next morning blue, cold, with no pulse and covered in vomit. Something about hearing the tone in colsons voice just triggered the memories of my dad and how badly I wish I could have helped him. Itās been 8 years and I still canāt live a day without blaming myself or replaying him laying there lifeless in my head over and over. I used to be able to hear the soft sobs of my 3 year old baby brother saying āwhereās daddy? Whereās daddy?ā come from down the hallway at night. Thatās sh*t is something you canāt get out of your head. It taunts you every waking moment. Every time you hear a scream, every time you hear a siren. Every time you see something in a movie you have to walk out because you canāt stomach seeing it happen, even if itās not real. Hearing this come from him just broke my f*cking heart. Colson if you see this. PLEASE take care of yourself. For Casie. And for you. For us. Iāll never get to see my dad grow old. Iāll never get to talk to him when I need him the most. I canāt even remember the f*cking sound of his voice. It kills me. Every second of every day. Part of me died with him. He wasnāt there to see me graduate, and he wonāt be there to walk me down the aisle. He wonāt be able to see me become a special education intervention specialist next year when I complete my degree. Colson, you have done so much for me. I just wish I could do the same for you. You have pulled me out of the darkest times of my life and I hope you find peace in what youāre going through. Iām praying for you harder than Iāve ever prayed for anything. I love you Kells. I lost my dad. Please donāt leave me too.
You have a beautiful mind, and you are so talented. Your music is a craft. Itās art. You ARE art. You were meant to be on this earth doing what youāre doing. You have helped so many people stay alive in this world, and your fans just want to do the same for you. You love hard and you give so much to others you forget how to tend to yourself. Youāve got this Colson. Never forget how beautiful life can be. Remember that there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Remember why you started.
Side note: If you want to see the tattoo I got in my dads handwriting itās on my Instagram from this summer it says āI am very proud of you. Love dadā thereās also some pictures of him and I when I was little: shipsterthehipster
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When this came out I was homeless, on drugs, and then jail. I now have a house, job, and husband. This song and āClover Cage - Heart Of A City Boyā are the two songs that helped get rid of my depression. I just want to send love to everyone and I want everyone to know things will get better. We are in this together..I love you š
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The ironic part is where he talks about putting his daughter to bed and attempting to commit suicide and then thereās his new song āPlay this when Iām goneā where heās basically saying goodbye to his daughter, feels like he wrote that one right after this song. I hope heās doing better.
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@kylerroberts602
3 years ago
Shit hits harder when youāre depressed and heartbroken. Only living for my son now, gotta give him a better life than I had
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