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in today's video i discuss OCD as a whole, my personal experience with OCD and getting diagnosed with it, and also how it is misrepresented in the media, and how it can actually cause harm to those with OCD. xoxo nikki nasty
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I hate the fact that now "intrusive thought" has lost so much meaning that when someone expresses an actual intrusive thought, everyone thinks they're disgusting.
Edit: damn, lots of likes lol. I'm glad this comment could help people talk about their experience, even briefly. Conclusion: intrusive thoughts and impulsive thoughts aren't the same thing. Intrusive thoughts aren't "normal", but it doesn't make them wrong or you a bad person, you can't control them. Get diagnosed if you can, it may feel like it won't help but believe me, it does. And if you can't, get in touch with other people with OCD. Community helps a lot!
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as someone who is NOT diagnosed with ocd, nobody talks more about their âocdâ than people who most certainly do not have ocd.
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gabbie hanna saying she âwashes her hands obsessivelyâ resulted in her skin being clearer indicates to me, someone with ocd tendencies, that sheâs not actually washing her hands obsessively. i used to wash my hands so frequently that they were cracked, dry, and swollen. to obsess over something is to turn a rather innocuous activity/thing into something that unhealthily dictates your live and plans.
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As someone with diagnosed OCD the one I truly hate is the intrusive thoughts joke or whatever it is theyâre using it for. I saw a girls video where she said âomg my intrusive thoughts won and I cut my bangsâ another one was âmy intrusive thoughts made me bake cookies and eat them at 2 a.m.â
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The intrusive thoughts aspect of OCD is something that I REALLY wish people understood more. It isn't "uh oh I yelled a bad word in class guess the intrusive thoughts won haha". It's genuinely horrifying shit that seriously wears you down into fatigue and anxiety
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My largest ocd issue is about being a bad person or being secretly evil, and I so appreciate you acknowledging that part/type of ocd in this video. I was in deep, deep denial about my having any mental illnesses, in part bc of a tlc âmy strange addictionâ style special on a lady with ocd that was so extremely stigmatizing I immediately thought âEw, ugh that could never be me, what a weirdoâ and that lead to years and years of denial until I was forced to admit something had to be done when I was a sophomore in highschool.
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I've never heard anyone talk about POCD before (fear of being a p*dophile and having intense unwanted intrusive thoughts about hurting children s*xually) so I'm grateful that you brought it up.
I'm very scared to talk about this and it will be very uncomfortable, but I will, just in case others feel the same way.
I'm not a p*dophile and I know that, but I am terrified of being around children and I'm afraid that I will hurt them in some way from just being near them. I'm bisexual so I'm a part of the lgbt community, so when I hear homophobes say "you're all groomers and pedophiles" it really fucks with my head.
I'm scared of having kids because I don't want to ever have to touch them or interact with them so I don't hurt them or accidentally be inappropriate. Especially in media right now, theres a LOT of talk about p*dophilia because its the internet and there are a lot of those on here because its easy for them to interact with minors that way.
So theres a lot of youtubers talking about it and a lot of people being exposed, and also theres a lot of that sort of thing in horror and unfortunately i enjoy horror. So I'm being constantly bombarded with the very thing I'm terrified of and I'm so scared of being a bad person even though i know deep down i didnt do anything wrong.
This is just a small part of what I'm going through with this and I don't want to talk about it any more because it's extremely uncomfortable but I thought I would take the opportunity to maybe give other people a chance to relate if they also have this specific type of OCD.
You're not alone, you're not a bad person, and you're not actually a p*dophile. Please go to therapy if you haven't already, it can help you overcome these fears and be able to interact normally with people and children so if you want to be a parent then you can have kids without that extreme fear.
I want to talk to a therapist about it but im scared of anyone knowing about this because i dont want to be accused of anything because that will just reinforce my paranoia. But I'll find the courage eventually. Hopefully. I want it to stop.
Thank you for listening if you did. Hopefully I'm not alone. I mean, i dont want other people to have this, but you know what i mean.
Edit: Thank you very much for the kind and understanding comments, as well as your own experiences. I was really nervous about posting this comment but you all are really sweet so thank you, and I wish you luck on what you're going through and I hope you find the peace you deserve.
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i am so so grateful that she talked about her extreme fear of pregnancy. itâs something that iâve been struggling with since i was really young and i thought i was actually insane.
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I suffer from intrusive thoughts, and the amount of anxiety and paranoia they've created for me is insane. There are times where I genuinely feel like im the worst human being in the world, or that the people around me are all awful and grotesque. I hate it so so much and im terrified of telling anyone because people automatically assume that those thoughts define who you are and represent your actual self
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I feel for you! I have diagnosed Agoraphobia. I wonât get into details but my own family was like âeveryone is a little nervous outside of their house.â And I realized that people just donât get it.
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Two people close to me have been diagnosed with OCD. Both of their initial responses were "But I'm not tidy". OCD is so misunderstood that even people who suffer to the point of severe debilitation don't even think they have it, while other people who just like to straighten things up here and there are going "OMG, I'm soooooo OCD!"
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I dont have ocd but I do have autism and I often get the comment like "well you're smart" or "you're not autistic you just haven't matured yet" that's not what it is. it's a serious problem that I have to struggle with my whole life. thank you for shining light on your experience with having OCD because even though its not the same disorder I struggle with it still shines light on so many other things and is relatable in a way that hits close to home :) thank you
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It's so refreshing to see someone being so open about their OCD. It's been a struggle the last two years but it seems like the dialogue is opening up about it. Thank you so much, Nikki for making it less scary and isolating.
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my mom has told me that my "craziness" is probably OCD. She did study psychology. Never believed her because of how OCD is portrayed on the media. After watching this video and hearing the more negative sides of it - I relate to it. maybe ill talk to my mother about it.
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As someone who suspects I have OCD but havenât been able to get diagnosed, you mentioning all those types of intrusive thoughts almost made me cry. I can relate to almost all of them, but of course Iâve never talked to anyone about it. You really made me feel seen in a way I havenât before so thank you so much for making this video. And thank the algorithm for randomly recommending this to me enough times to feel compelled to watch it lmao
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OCD ruined my childhood. Before I got on medicine, I was an emotional wreck. My intrusive thoughts were terrifying and I feared almost every day. My anxiety was CRIPPLING. I was a child and literally thought ANYTHING would kill me (even my own mom). I wasnât diagnosed until high school, but when I told people I have OCD and then explained what my OCD was likeâŚyou know what their response was? âOh, wow, your OCD is so creativeđ¤Šâ WTF. Now ppl online are talking about intrusive thoughts as if they didnât make my life a crippling anxiety hell???? đ¤ we need to start talking about mental health in schools bc come onnnnnnn
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As someone diagnosed and who suffers from BPD I totally understand the struggle with misrepresentation. My favorite show of all time was crazy ex girlfriend for the portrayal of BPD. Seeing Rebecca struggle with the disorder and how her trauma works into it really resonated with my experience. It sucks how my disorder has become a fad on the internet. Itâs not quirky to have a disorder, its miserable.
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My ocd does make me wash my hands constantly and unlike what gabbie is saying, it is definitely not a good thing to have cracked bleeding hands and be unable to touch things without fear of contamination to the point where I canât function as a human or clean my surroundings only making it worse -but thatâs just me, Iâm so happy gabbie is glad she washes her handsđ/s
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As someone diagnosed with a grab bag of anxiety disorders (OCD, PTSD, GAD, Panic Disorder) the constant rumination can be extremely debilitating. It's gotten to the point where I've had to delete social media entirely just because it really feeds into my issues. Hearing someone else's struggles helps to not feel alone đ
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I saw a tweet that said âyour intrusive thoughts are just the intuition that society tells you to rejectâ and I thought âwhy does my intuition keep telling me I need to brush my teeth three times in a row or my mom will die?â
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