Views : 3,338,274
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered Sep 22, 2022 ^^
Rating : 4.974 (399/60,105 LTDR)
RYD date created : 2024-04-30T20:01:57.897993Z
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i'm not okay"
You can kiss my love goodbye
Your lipstick stains washed with tears I cry
For the first time in a while
I can see through the lies, bringing secrets to light
How could I be
So naive to
Think I had you
Maybe I'm just
Dumb
I'm a fool
So naive
I wish I woulda known
You don't love me
You don't love me
Maybe I'm just dumb
Down, bad
All my friends say u the worst
Down bad
But I can't see it, vision blurred
I know I look
Kinda crazy, ooh yeah
But I'm feelin good
As of lately, ooh yeah
I let you live in my brain
Cause I kinda like the pain
Breathe breathe
I'm not okay, yeah I'm broken by you
I'm not okay, but that's ay-okay with me
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I think this song perfectly captures what it feels like to know youāre stuck in a toxic relationship but unable to get out. It starts out with a sad piano melody and him saying āyou can kiss my love goodbyeā, suggesting he is done with the relationship. His lover has likely just hurt him again, and heās feeling like he can no longer sustain the hurt that comes with loving this person. He continues to reflect on how he has been deceived in the relationship and wonders how he was so blindly in love, āso naiveā. He continues to say āI wish I woulda known you didnāt love meā, maybe if he knew sooner that this person didnāt love him, he wouldnāt have let himself fall so hard and deeply in love only to be deceived. He starts to blame it on himself, saying āmaybe Iām just dumbā. Then the song picks up and the tone of his singing changes from sad and reflective to a more chaotic and dreadfully delightful kind of tone. He admits heās down bad for his lover and that heās aware that all his friends think this person is not good for him and yet he ignores it, his vision is blurred and he canāt see or at least accept the truth. He knows he looks kind of crazy but he feels good as of lately. This change in tone, in my opinion, represents the high that comes from being in the presence of the person you love in a toxic relationship. Ironically, the person that hurts you and makes you feel sad like the singer in the beginning of the song is the same person that brings you back up and makes you feel good. When youāre in a toxic relationship, you fall into a cycle of being deeply hurt and feeling as if you canāt take anymore, but every time you think that youāre done, your partner brings you back up to that high and you feel so good that you donāt want to leave. Eventually, as this cycle repeats, you become aware that this relationship is causing you pain, but as the singer says āI kinda like the painā, you take it because the pain also comes with some amazing moments. He continues with ābreathe, breatheā as if to pull himself together and go on enduring the pain. He knows he is not okay and that his partner has broken him, but heās okay with it because they still make him feel so amazing at times. Being in this situation, you realize that you are being hurt, but if you leave the relationship, you will still be left with that hurt and no longer get the highs, so you feel like you might as well continue to take the hurt if it means also having those temporary good moments. It takes so long to fully wake up and be strong enough to break out of this cycle, and I feel for anyone who relates to this situation as I have myself. I hope you find the strength to do what you know is best for you, itās going to be extremely difficult and will take time to heal, but I promise youāll be better off in the end.
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1:28 we need an extended version of this
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@Zevil
1 year ago
JVKE is one of, if not the best upcoming artist. His music is so calming and relaxing, his style is unique and so fitting of his character and his songs are just amazing! I love every piece of content you've put out, man! I really can't wait to hear this next song!!
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