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Date of upload: Oct 27, 2021 ^^
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âOn that tour I was a mess quite honestly. This was the peak of Nine Inch Nails newfound rocket ship of fame. It distorted my personality and became overwhelming: to deal with having everyone treat you different, to going from not being able to afford a gas bill to show up to arenas full of people, who kind of think they know you. The line starts to blur between the guy onstage and the person you used to be. My way of dealing with life was to numb myself with drugs and alcohol because it made me feel better and more equipped to deal with everything. My career was skyrocketing, but the scaffolding that was holding me up as a person was starting to collapse. I wasnât fully aware of how bad it was getting, but I knew in my heart that I was on an unsustainable, reckless, self-destructive path.
When I met David he had been through that. And he was content. He was at peace with himself with an incredible wife, clearly in love. There were a number of times where the two of us were alone, and he said some things that werenât scolding, but pieces of wisdom that stuck with me: âYou know, there is a better way here, and it doesnât have to end in despair or in death, in the bottom.â A full year later, I hit bottom. Once I got clean I felt a tremendous amount of shame, of my actions and missed opportunities and the damage that Iâve caused in the past. And I thought back to the time when we were together a lot and I wonder what that could have been like if I was at 100 percent. The âIâm Afraid of Americansâ video falls into that category of me at my worst â out of my mind and ashamed of who I was at that time. So when I see that, I have mixed feelings â grateful to be involved, and flattered to be a part of it, but disgusted at myself, at who I was at that time, and wishing I had been 100 percent me. And it nagged me.
A few years later, Bowie came through L.A. Iâd been sober for a fair amount of time. I wanted to thank him in the way that he helped me. And I reluctantly went backstage, feeling weird and ashamed like, âHey, Iâm the guy that puked on the rug.â And again, I was met with warmth, and grace, and love. And I started to say, âHey listen, Iâve been clean for âŚâ I donât even think I finished the sentence; I got a big hug. And he said, âI knew, I knew youâd do that. I knew youâd come out of that.â I have goosebumps right now just thinking about it. It was another very important moment in my life."
⸺ Trent Reznor
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@Stephuzz
2 years ago
the quality is so good that makes me think that David is still with us, and is still that young.
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