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Date of upload: Feb 25, 2021 ^^
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I donāt know if Iām just forcing meaning onto a song, but this one just hits. Last year, my best friend got into drugs. I watched it absorb her and change her entire persona. Things spiraled, and spiraled fast. Soon, she became just the name, just an imprint, of the girl she used to be. She used to be this smiling kid who laughed in the face of lifeās challenges, hands at her hips, stubbornly being happy. The light, the happy, it all faded from her eyes. She had this way of taunting life, almost as if saying āwhatās next? I can take it.ā We were joint at the hip, almost literally. We planned to run away to New York, so I got a job to save up for us. We planned to grow old together, to build a cottage in field by the sea in Maine. She made me smile harder, live harder, love harder, than anyone else on this planet. Nothing, and no one, will be able to top her almost unearthly beauty, inside and out. Then, I sat there, and watched the drugs eat all of this away from her. She transformed into numbness pulp who cannot go a day without a puff. Being high causes her to become angry, and thereās never any filter. She started saying things that didnāt sound like her, starting accusing me things that I had never even mentioned, let alone done. The drugs fed her paranoia and fatten it up, and with every single high she poured it all on top of me. I just became so tired, and so helpless, that I couldnāt bare it anymore. Thereās more to the story, I can promise you that. I am in no way perfect, and I donāt have any right to pretend to be a victim. I just wish she knew how hard I held on. How much I love her. How much it still hurts that I had to say goodbye. Two years ago, she told me that I deserved to be selfish. That I can start living my life for myself, because I earned it. In the end, those are the very words that caused me to leave our friendship. It became a burden, rather than a part of my day that made living easier. I tried sticking around, I tried making it work even to the last minute. Every time I did tho, Iād get hit with the memories of who she used to be. Iād stand there realizing sheās a walking corpse, the dead remains of who she was.
Yep, in the end, we crashed. Not a day goes by where I donāt miss her, but in the end, I know itās for the better. Sometimes when Iām on my last leg and the thought of having to be without her for the rest of my life becomes too much, I just think this; āin another life.ā In another life, weāll run off and write that movie together. Weāll get that summer job together, and Iāll get my drivers license 8 months before you and drive us to Colorado because we feel like it. Maybe not this one, but in another life.
Edit: you guys have made my entire year. The support means the most, you have no idea.
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Since last June, I didnāt feel like myself. I was depressed, and every time I tried to escape from feeling like a failure it only got worse. I asked my parents to take me to a therapist when I thought things couldnāt get any worse. But it did. Last week, I was diagnosed with depression. I couldnāt go to anywhere if I tried to, and keep on cancelling plans with people made me anxious and worried if people would see me as a failure too. But still, I just couldnāt do anything. I felt terrible. It was like I was at the edge of everything, and I actually wanted to end myself. I cried a lot listening to cavetownās songs. They made me feel I matter. They made me feel this is just a bump in the road and I can go back after a little break and comfort, which it gave me. Talk to me was my favourite song but I think this oneās going to be my another. I donāt know if heāll read this, but if you are, please know that you are helping me going through this a lot. Thank you. I love you and your songs. Sorry if there was a few errors, English is not my first language!
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my uncle is called paul and he has cancer. they diagnosed it right during the pandemic and it's needless to say that it's been really hard. it took months to get treatment and he cannot receive any visitors. over christmas he was doing quite well with the chemo, but just a few days ago he had a stroke and it doing much worse. i know lyrically this song doesn't relate to my uncle's situation in any way but it really felt a like an answered prayer when robbie released this song with the same name as my uncle. please pray for paul
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@0detosl33p5
3 years ago
Guy named Raul: "So close yet so far."
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