@lllevokelll

2 weeks ago

Firstly, always pleasant to come across a fresh nonduality channel. Good stuff. I think a serious technical problem here is that the mind can't dissolve itself either. It's true that to seek is immediately to deviate, and that feeding any energy into the ego system perpetuates the ego system. Trying to resist self just feeds energy into self, trying to battle anxiety just feeds energy into anxiety. The challenge though, is that you can 100% consciously surrender, give a complete and sincere full faith motion of dissolving, and find that it's is not enough (a majority of the time actually), because your conscious mind and your beliefs are maybe 10-20% of your self, and the other 80-90% is aliefs rather than beliefs, and the unconscious mind rather than the conscious mind. And it's profoundly unconscious. It doesn't become conscious simply because you wishbit would, or because you self-inquiry. It's aliefs you aren't aware you have. It's the cloud of unknowing, that you can't reliably penetrate simply with more knowing. I don't have a solution for that. I have only found, so far, that it is useful to know as a theological / philosophical map, that you can surrender 100% and not have it work, the first time, or the twentith time, and that knowing that's just how it goes is useful so you don't give up or think that the dissolving and self-inquiry, and the motion of surrender isn't effective. It's among the best techniques we have. But it's highly variable, and mostly ineffective. You have to catch alief cooperating. Or mysteriously get the message through to the vast oceans of the unconscious, until it's lined up with your surrendering attempt. Sometimes it's aligned the first try, and boom, sudden enlightenment, and no one knows why you got lucky. Sometimes it takes a long gradual while of lots of non-trying trying. I get the impression that dissolving and self-inquiry are necessary but not sufficient, and the 80% of the self that is a billion pieces of casuality ricocheting in the deep unconscious/unknowing gets the majority vote. Until we get more techniques, with strobing light therapy or devices that deep chill cool the right subsections of the brain, to usher the unconscious along, self-inquiry and dissolving seem like some of the best, albeit imperfect, tools we have.

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